PeanutHead88 Posted May 22, 2006 Posted May 22, 2006 I never really understood what people ment when they said they felt numb, not that I haven't felt that before just I guess numb is the closest word to that feeling you get. and I feel it now, and it's really hard to concentrate on this project lol. I guess I built up all this hope and put all these good assumptions in my head to make me feel better. Posting threads on having any ex's coming back, just to look for hope. It was most defiently those phone calls that brough back this huge ache. I literally got excited when I put this false dream in my head, but than I realize okay look at reality, you can't get all happy over something you don't even know..I want to move on and I know its going to be exremely hard and I know 9 months is not enough time, you all say time helps but for me it will take so much time. I guess maybe when I go in to college things will be different things will be better.. But I can't stop thinking of what they're doing, back at that stage 1, pretty crazy considering its been 9 months huh? Oh well gonnatry my hardest...
chocolate_boy Posted May 22, 2006 Posted May 22, 2006 Brit/Peanut I think when you get past a certain amount of time, say a couple of months and are in NC, the feelings you feel now are more missing something that never really existed. By this I mean you have built your ex up to be an almost god-like figure in your mind, and due to the way it ended, you have pined after him for almost a year now, but say one day he did come back, I don't think it would live up to what you have created in your mind. Maybe you need to kick it into the next level, and do absolutely everything you can to not think about him, obviously this has been extremely hard for you to get over, but trust me, make a MASSIVE effort to do it (and that means no snooping around on myspace etc.) and you will do it, aim for the one year marker, its only a couple of months away now, realistically I think you could do it. And with the phone calls, chances are its not him, probably some hoaxer or (more likely) telemarketing services, your mind is just looking for a release. x
Brittanyjean06 Posted May 22, 2006 Posted May 22, 2006 I have thought the same thing, by kicking it in to second gear ...Trying even harder..but those thoughts are still with me constantly! It's like everything comes down to him, him him him him! I will be fine though I know I will 3 more months till a year, and honestly I will feel the same way I meen how can I not? yeah no more snooping on her myspace thats for sure! I really gotta try harder, but those thougths of him privatly calling are always in my head now, like what if and no he was a piece of crap boyfriend, AND I should know that by now...I really just need to look at that! I'm sure everyone can tell by the last 5 threads I've made here can tell I had my set back :-/ but I guess having set backs could possibly mean for you to try harder! But for now I really am going to just have to deal with the hope I have inside of me, because it will always be in me for a little bit until I am feeling 100% better! I know this is happening for a reason, my relationship was not the norm relationship a teenager would have. Thanks choclate boy! I will try try try
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