Brittanyjean06 Posted May 20, 2006 Posted May 20, 2006 Well since I have posted threads on private calls and hang ups ALOT, don't mind if I vent about the damage it has done to me and the set back it has put me in. I am young, I just turned 18 so I have my whole life to live, and a whole lot of time for healing...but the private calls I have gotten the past 2 weeks has put me in a set back, it has put false hope in my head...and now I literally sometimes feel like the same way the day this happend. Which is extremely and utterly heart broken..dazed out. I guess the private hang ups has brought the hope I had inside of me that I never new I had...Now I look at her myspace and see when she has loged in because she never logs on, and I am keeping tabs to see whats going on....just so I can anaylze everything and put false assumptions and false hope in my head I broke up with him 9 months ago, and shockingly he went to another girl and has been with her ever since..I've heard bad stories of them both..that she cheated on him and killed a cat by throwing it..and he has stayed with her...I have seen him in the car and he has looked at me....and who knows maybe hes doing the Nc with me..but for the most part MY nc has been good! I am getting my number changed, because I can't handel these calls...I sent him a text recently for the first time in like 5 months saying look if its you you need to stop if its not sorry for looking like a dumb ass,, of course he didn't respond and I new that, I just wanted to get my word clear If it was him. I have gotten 2 private calls from my house phone to, and barely anyone knows that number... I was doing good, but now I am obssevily thinking of him and this is really hard, even if I tell myself not to...my mind always wonders off to the private calling and it might be him. I know that was a horrible relationship, I was treated like pure crap alot of the times..but was strongly blinded. Now... Any advice?? This is like an emotinal roller coaster, should I try to be strong and look at this as a challenge?
Author Brittanyjean06 Posted May 20, 2006 Author Posted May 20, 2006 okay someone reply, it isn't that long
Yamaha Posted May 20, 2006 Posted May 20, 2006 Any advice?? This is like an emotinal roller coaster, should I try to be strong and look at this as a challenge? Sorry your going through this, BJ. It must be frustrating to think that your ex might be calling you and because you still love him you get those feelings all over again and you hope. I think for your own emotional health you need to stop the pain and tell yourself that even if he did want to come back YOU don't want him. I think you are doing the right things to get past it but you need to tell yourself you don't want him back, you don't want him back, you don't want him back...... Say this everyday until you believe and accept the truth. It is hard when you have loved someone and those feelings really never go away completely but you do learn to adjust and move on. My hope for you is that you can do just that.
Author Brittanyjean06 Posted May 20, 2006 Author Posted May 20, 2006 Thanks soo much yamaha! I will do that
kitten chick Posted May 20, 2006 Posted May 20, 2006 Sorry that you're still having so much trouble hun. You're doing the right things like changing your number if you have to and spending lots of time with your friends. You know you don't want to check the myspace page because it serves no purpose but to hurt you, so why do it? We all have set backs but keep focusing on yourself and your life and you will move forward. You have a very bright future ahead of you without him in it.
Author Brittanyjean06 Posted May 21, 2006 Author Posted May 21, 2006 Thanks kitten chick! Deep inside I know what I have to do, I know all the advice in the book, hearing it from others helps alot more than having my self tell me these things. It is just a really painful experience but I guess my hope should be more leaned upon the fact of healing my self ,but by the looks of it this is going to be a long and bumpy ride!
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