whichwayisup Posted May 21, 2006 Posted May 21, 2006 Timing is everything. Not only in relationships, but life in general. Jobs, opportunities, etc...
lovernotafighter Posted May 21, 2006 Posted May 21, 2006 That's the problem...the best friend in me says he is absolutely doing the right thing to work on his marriage--that's the man I love--the one that wants to try. However, the lover in me longs to have him try with me. The bed I've made myself is more painful than I bargained for and now I don't know how to let go. The feeling of rejection is so overwhelming that I begin to question everything. How can I both want him to do the right thing but also want him to feel as heartbroken as I am? Is he able to just block me from his memory? OMG IWH this is my question to myself.. a big part of me wants MM to work on his marriage but his lover in me wants him to her self.. in my thread I wrote how I learned last week about more of his W and that she wasn't a very lovely person all together and I hate to admit it but I was really hurt by this...I am being rejected and he chooses this? I ask my self how is that possible? but I know this is the person he has shared a life with all these years..the one he choose to have a child with..how can he not choose her? but I still feel hurt and rejected..there is no doubt about that. I often think there is just no way possible he feels like me or hurts like me,because if he did he would be with me. but there is truth in what I read in a post on this thread...maybe our MM's love us as much as it is possible for them to and they are being honest...since day one of knowing my MM there always seemed like something was missing,a piece of him..I would say to myself "this man has been ruined" he has become like desensitised and it's actually quite sad..it's sad he may never experience the deep love I have known for anyone... we should pity our MM's to a extent
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