fraidycat Posted May 17, 2006 Posted May 17, 2006 Hey Everyone, Me again, I'd like to report I was wrong about the guy with sz and he was just playing me the whole other time. This means, in Adam Sandlers words..it all was bullsh*t, it was an effing joke. Don't get me wrong though, I don't hope he chokes. In fact I don't wish anything bad upon him..him whoever he is. Apparently, I don't even know that person. He doesn't know that I know, so the hard part do I say goodbye or no? I should probably just slip away quietly underneath the radar, that way the part of me that will want to beleive his lies when he tells me it's all a misunderstanding, he really does love me, and whatever buubuubullsh*t comes out doesn't have the chance. Because let's face it, it's so much easier sometimes to give into that fantasy when you learn you've just loved and given your heart to just that..a fantasy. Well, I'm deeply hurt and crushed but I at least found out before I went and invested anymore into this. The hardest part now is to not slip into that denial mode, you know the one that says "but maybe there is a good explanation, maybe it's not what it looks like, he might realize what he's done and come to an ephinay" you know, all those tales about as useful and true as the toothfairy when we find ourselves in situations similiar to mine. So everyone I did it! After 3 years I gave my heart away, I loved but I didn't lose because it's impossible to lose something that wasn't there in the first place. I tell you all about it now because this is a great board with great people and your there for me in my time of needing to vent. no longer fraidy cat, more like balls of steel girl
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