PeanutHead88 Posted May 16, 2006 Posted May 16, 2006 You know those times, when you desperetly miss your ex? and think about them and get blinded by all those things they have done to you...well It amazes me how blind I still really am, I am britany jean to this is my other name...this whole conversation just enforced what I already really know deep down inside...It just takes some " encouragement" to realize these things. Your friends can see how things truely appear, in the right light. I want to save this conversation and look at it everytime I have a sad depressing gunt renching thought, because its true beavisNbritthead: i want him to come back so bad lol beavisNbritthead: just so i can be happy for a split second beavisNbritthead: lolol Heart 82888: no! Heart 82888: brittany beavishead: but thats BAD beavisNbritthead: i knowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww Heart 82888: TRUST me .. you are ten times happier than you would be if you were w/him beavisNbritthead: I KNOWWWWWWW Heart 82888: think of how many times you cried over that kid ... got hurt over that kid ... was betrayed by tha tkid beavisNbritthead: GOD Heart 82888: you can do so much better than him brittany beavisNbritthead: YOU ARE SO RIGHT,!!!!!!!!!! Heart 82888: youre like GOD compared to him beavisNbritthead: man tahts what i need to hear and thats what I HAVE TO DO you are sooo right beavisNbritthead: LOL HAAHHAHA beavisNbritthead: I KNOW Heart 82888: and he knows it and thats why he doesnt talk to you anymore b/c he knows ur better than him and he feels like a f***ing faggott b.c he is beavisNbritthead: naw your right, you are sooo right damn that helped alot bc you are right beavisNbritthead: LOL Heart 82888: i AM right/ beavisNbritthead: thanks so much tara sersiouly your the biggest help, Heart 82888: awww yay! Heart 82888: glad to be at ur assistance beavisNbritthead: I KNOW YOUR RIGHT, man if only everyone new the s*** he did to me, GOD IM STILL SOOOO BLIND!! beavisNbritthead: HAHAHAHH sersiuly you busted out saying all that s*** AND THAT WAS PERFECT bc its right Heart 82888: i know . you will se i soon enough Heart 82888: exactly.
KittenMoon Posted May 16, 2006 Posted May 16, 2006 I was totally wondering why you didn't jump all over the first love thread, BJ. You are too young to hurt like this over a guy. I've sadi this before, but GO TO COLLEGE. You will forget him, or at least he'll fade away, quickly. I think you said you were hitting community college- if possible, I think you should try to find a school to go to away from your area. Maybe a state college a few hours away? You need a new social life, social surrounding, etc. Unlike us decrepit old-timers:rolleyes: , you are just entering what really is the best time of your life, which will include a lot of boys... lots of boys. Parties are filled with them!! My ex and I were dating literally from a month after I got to school through all four years of college and beyond, but I still went to parties and even I, an out of the ordinary lass and nothing particulary grand, would have been dripping with guys if I had had had the welcome sign out. (wouldn't have traded my time with the ex for any of that though damn I miss that boy) Go to college! Do it!
Brittanyjean06 Posted May 16, 2006 Posted May 16, 2006 lol I guess the same picture gave it away! My friends are going to cape fear which is two hours away , there all getting an apartment together! I am staying here because in all honesty I am not ready to go out there with them. I feel like I haven't made most of my time here yet if that makes any sence, and in some ways I want to form my own social life in college with out them( well still include them of course there my best friends) but They would all get on my last nerve there. I will wait for college I'm a little nervous though you know? thanks though I know I shoulden't be hurting this much, but no matter what age you are I'm still human. But I am fine staying here, I know I will be fine with making new friends hopefully none of them will have connection with him because I doubt he is even going to college...but we'll see..thanks!!
KittenMoon Posted May 16, 2006 Posted May 16, 2006 thanks though I know I shoulden't be hurting this much, but no matter what age you are I'm still human. Sorry- I didn't mean in any way to belittle your pain. I only meant that a lot of us have passed the time in our lives when we meet tons of eligible people our own age- you are just beginning this time! Don't let your pain get the best of you or you might miss out on some great opportunities.
sick of it Posted May 16, 2006 Posted May 16, 2006 i spent my entire college life with my ex. i wasnt able to experience things the way i should have because of it. i didnt resent it becaus ei knew it would be worth it...but now i look back and regret a lot. dont be like that. have the fun now. even if its for a bit...this is your door to the rest of your life.
kitten chick Posted May 16, 2006 Posted May 16, 2006 Listen little miss peanuthead, cut yourself some slack. You're learning and growing. As far as I can see you're doing all of the right things. You're making your own decisions and doing what you want to do and feel is right for you. Keep making your own path and grow. thanks though I know I shoulden't be hurting this much, but no matter what age you are I'm still human. You should be hurting as much as you are. There's no such thing as should or shouldn't when it comes to your feelings. You don't want to and nobody who knows you wants you to hurt as much as you are but you're still allowed to if that's how you feel. I think it's great that you're trying to start your life over...I'd still consider a change of scenery, even if it isn't with your friends.
dgiirl Posted May 16, 2006 Posted May 16, 2006 University was the BEST time of my entire life. I too met my ex in my 2nd year. I think that's when I started becoming more sure of myself and I was attracting a LOT of attention from the boys. Damn, that was fun! I SOOO wish I could turn back the clock and enjoyed it more. I think you'd have a blast. One thing you have to remember tho with your recovery. There comes a point where you're no longer mourning the person, but more the idea of what you wanted your relationship to be. If prince charming walked through that door and fulfilled every single emotional need you had, would you still be pining over your ex? Also, do things, even if you dont FEEL like it. There's been plenty of times where I didnt feel like going out, but once I made the effort to go out, I actually enjoyed it and was glad I did. And this is more common when we're going through a breakup. You often dont feel like going out, but you need to.
Author PeanutHead88 Posted May 16, 2006 Author Posted May 16, 2006 Well considering its been almost 9 months, believe me I can have fun every single day, there isn't really a day where I am crying in my room..I don't let the tears out, sometimes I do but you know this is the first time I have ever experienced with " time healing" but instead I am just burrying the pain down, I'll heal one day I think about him alot, but the first week that it happend I was devastated , if i look back on that time( begining of my senior year) the pain comes out and again and I reamber what I actually went through, man was it tough being in school and having this all happen. I thikn community college will help alot with his memory. I don't think I have ever laughed so much this year witch says I am alot happier, but sometimes I have a aching heart I really just try to tell my self this is a part of growing up, and I could be off so much worse thanks so much for all the advice ..It helps alot but your right I am so young and know there is so much more to come
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