concretelove Posted May 14, 2006 Posted May 14, 2006 Hey all This is a first for me, but wanted some needed feedback from you. I known my ex for over 12 yrs. We never expressed any feelings for each other, but attended many social functions together at my home. We lost contact for 5 yrs and last year we ran into each other. He expressed the crush he always had for me and wanted us to date. We finally did in Oct.05 and things we Great! We shared Thanksgiving together with our families and after that day things went down hill. He felt I crossed a boundary by throwing some dishes away, while replacing them with knew ones eventually the relationship ended by the end of Nov 05, him saying I'm going to do what I want to, thus disrespecting him. In january he started calling asking if I was seeing someone. Oh course I was dating ( nothing serious) free enterprise right. Flirting started and he wanted to see my face. He drove by we talked a moment and he left. He said we had always been friends and he missed me. He proposed we start seeing each other again as friends with benefits. I didn't give in easily I waited him out. We're both very busy and have no real time for relationships so this worked out very well. Interesting enough in October we talked about marriage a few times. What was surprising was we started were we ended as though nothing hsppened. We never discussed the past. We did agree if we met someone we would let each other know. However, he doesn't know that I love him dearly. While being only intimate with him I did continue going out with other people for fun, but nothing serious. My heart loves this man, but he is somewhat cocky and arrogant. When we go through he is as cold as ice. I took sick in March with MS and got in an accident and he got totally Pissed off with me and said "I'm glad I'm not your man, you would drive me crazy worrying about you". This hurt me badly and I now ended the relationship. Here it is May and he calling again feeling out the waters we are seeing each other again. And once again it's better everytime. He said I am an awesome woman and he has always loved me. My question is we keep going back and forth, while we are not in a relationship, we act like it once we come back together. He stays here and I stay at his home. We are very much alike in many ways, but his words oftentimes comes off pretty hurtful. While we spend time together we are 2 peas in a pod. I'm in love him and I believe he loves me, This weekend was the first I was not able to get him neither did he call, this is out of character. Is it safe to say he's doing his thing? Is this unhealthy? I feel if it isn't broken why fix it! This morning he called, but I declined to answer. I have this bad feeling from the last time I was there I found a womans shower cap, but he said it was a friend and nothing happen. He would not sleep around.....Huh!!! Do I stop this, take the pain and go or keep on flowing...............This is more to me than it is to him I believe. My mind is going right now.
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