lovelorcet Posted May 11, 2006 Posted May 11, 2006 why do I do this to myself… Ok so I used to be able to get up as late as I wanted in the mornings. I actually could look forward to my alarm clock going off and hitting snooze a few times because falling back to sleep always felt so good. So when she left and that all changed. 5am and I am wide awake and it has been like this for months now. I think it is the worse time a day for me, still too tiered to get up, but feel too much anxiety to fall back asleep. So this morning I was again wide awake and I start thinking about Christmas!!! WTF!! How I always loved spending Christmas with her family, how I asked her to marry me on one Christmas, how this year I will most likely be alone and miserable and she will be with some new guy. The joke is I don’t really miss her as a person very much but I do miss the time we shared together. I guess that is a good sign, at some point I do hope to have someone new who I enjoy spending time with. Does anyone else have these kinds of problems in the morning? Or get all worked up about stuff that is still so far away? Anyone need a date for Christmas? maybe if I make plans now I wont worry about it… :D
Guitar Wizard Posted May 11, 2006 Posted May 11, 2006 Yeah, some memories are haunting, and leave an everlasting impression that echo's on even in the absence of the person you shared the memory with. Usualy for me though, it's hearing a spasific song, or smelling the same brand shampoo... stuff like that. Everyone misses others in their own way. Time is the only known cure for heartache, so this will go away. ... in time.
Author lovelorcet Posted May 11, 2006 Author Posted May 11, 2006 Oh that is another good one, smells! It is amazing how some smells can hit you like a pile of bricks!
Guitar Wizard Posted May 11, 2006 Posted May 11, 2006 Yeah, it's defiantly one of the larger gates to memory lane. Every girl uses her own unique items that have a distinct smell or taste, and sometimes when you get it with that stuff again, you just get swept back to ages ago...
panthera_leo Posted May 11, 2006 Posted May 11, 2006 I hear what you say about waking up early and not being able to go back to sleep. HOW ANNOYING! I get that really bad, i'll wake up at like 6am and just think about *him*. When really i should be more worried about my University exams!I have to say though, it does get better. ...and the smell thing! It really puts a downer on your day if you smell your ex's perfume/aftershave. I made my friend stop wearing his aftershave because it reminded me so much of my ex! Now thats a lil obsessive
Guitar Wizard Posted May 11, 2006 Posted May 11, 2006 Well, sometimes you just get that empty feeling when you realize that they arn't there, or it's not them that's wearing whatever. Like, waking up in the bed, rolling over, and realizing that they arn't there, and never will be again. Love's tough sometimes, and we are all left with some sort of everlasting aftermath, where we want to push away all the material objects that remind us of that person.
Author lovelorcet Posted May 11, 2006 Author Posted May 11, 2006 I could just throw away my alarm clock, somewhere between 5-6am a switch is hit and I am wide awake. Even on the weekend when I get to bed at like 3-4 I am awake at like 8am, that really sucks as well. I have throught about just getting up and going running before work, maybe I should try that...
Guitar Wizard Posted May 11, 2006 Posted May 11, 2006 Actually, it’s funny you should mention that because that’s exactly what I do to get to sleep at night. I can’t sleep normally, too much energy, so I go jogging for about 8 miles, come home, pass out. It’s actually quite refreshing to wake up from a physical exhaustion-induced sleep. Not to mention it keeps your figure in tip top shape and your legs get all kinds of spiffy muscles.
destination_unknown Posted May 11, 2006 Posted May 11, 2006 ive found its best to get up - even at that ridiculously early time of 5.30 or so - and just start your day earlier. otherwise, you will toss and fret which is more exhausting and isnt a nice way to start off, you may feel tired in the afternoon but you probably do anyway! before the heartbreak, i bet there were times when you said, i wish i could be one of those people who wake up early so i could go for a run before work/have more time for my shower/coffee/watching the morning news etc. turn your early wake-ups into an advantage
Author lovelorcet Posted May 11, 2006 Author Posted May 11, 2006 "turn your early wake-ups into an advantage" This is a great point, I think I will have to do this!
AussieChick Posted May 11, 2006 Posted May 11, 2006 Try not to fall into the habit of staying up late - thinking you'll sleep later - I tried this, but still WIDE awake at 5am - and then only had 4 hours sleep! Using to go to the gym is a great idea - meet someone new
Guitar Wizard Posted May 11, 2006 Posted May 11, 2006 Try not to fall into the habit of staying up late - thinking you'll sleep later - I tried this, but still WIDE awake at 5am - and then only had 4 hours sleep! Using to go to the gym is a great idea - meet someone new Yeah, going to the gym during the day is cool, but going late at night? Bad idea, there are... strange people... that hang out at the gym's at night. I mean, every gym has it's own horde of after-dark weird-o's. It's a scientific fact
Author lovelorcet Posted May 11, 2006 Author Posted May 11, 2006 I don't seem to get to bed and fall alseep untill about 1-2am. It is ok though I never needed a lot of sleep really, I can live on 4-5 hours a day for a very long time. I just hate not being able to fall back asleep in the mornings. I think I am going to sleep in my jogging clothes and as soon as it happens tomorrow I am going to spring out of bed and run out the door... :p
Guitar Wizard Posted May 11, 2006 Posted May 11, 2006 I don't seem to get to bed and fall alseep untill about 1-2am. It is ok though I never needed a lot of sleep really, I can live on 4-5 hours a day for a very long time. I just hate not being able to fall back asleep in the mornings. I think I am going to sleep in my jogging clothes and as soon as it happens tomorrow I am going to spring out of bed and run out the door... :p Try to find a nice park where other joggers might be jogging. Like, you know, attractive female joggers
Author lovelorcet Posted May 11, 2006 Author Posted May 11, 2006 Just point them out and i will run to them
UT_longhorn Posted May 11, 2006 Posted May 11, 2006 the first 2 months after my break up my sleeping patterns were completely haywire. i took sleeping pills almost every night, just so i could get about 3-4 hours of sleep. the night was a lot of waking up, being half in sleep, half out. then right before the sun would come in the window, i would wake up...and have hours to just think about the pain..and feel it. horrific. that God that I am out of that stage. it really was a huge nightmare. give a few more weeks man...u'll settle down in ur sleeping patterns. and take the advice of exercising...it does really help.
Guest Posted May 12, 2006 Posted May 12, 2006 why do I do this to myself… Ok so I used to be able to get up as late as I wanted in the mornings. I actually could look forward to my alarm clock going off and hitting snooze a few times because falling back to sleep always felt so good. So when she left and that all changed. 5am and I am wide awake and it has been like this for months now. I think it is the worse time a day for me, still too tiered to get up, but feel too much anxiety to fall back asleep. So this morning I was again wide awake and I start thinking about Christmas!!! WTF!! How I always loved spending Christmas with her family, how I asked her to marry me on one Christmas, how this year I will most likely be alone and miserable and she will be with some new guy. The joke is I don’t really miss her as a person very much but I do miss the time we shared together. I guess that is a good sign, at some point I do hope to have someone new who I enjoy spending time with. Does anyone else have these kinds of problems in the morning? Or get all worked up about stuff that is still so far away? Anyone need a date for Christmas? maybe if I make plans now I wont worry about it… :D In my case the relationship is at an angry point,but pretty much over.The worst part about it is, I still love her,and she acts like she hates me.I miss who we use to be and hate who we are now.I wish for alot of things,but most of all I wish this pain would go away..................
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