lizzieTM Posted May 9, 2006 Posted May 9, 2006 Well. ill say this.. ive been friends with this guy for years. Im soon moving city to university and this guy currently has a girlfriend he has been with her nearly 2 years. We recently told eachother how we feel about one another but nothing has come of it, everything stays the same. Heres a conversation via email between us both. Ive taken out names...... <B>ME</B> [FONT=verdana][sIZE=2]I really need to get myself sorted out and this feels like one of the things that i should do. I just want to explain everything without getting interupted and without running out of characters on MSN. So here we go. I feel like things are pretty simple when written in black and white... I like you. As far as i know from what uve said you like me. You have a girlfriend. I dont have a boyfriend. You have that stability there and like i said i dont have that. And i know that nothing will happen before i go to Sheffield and then..... i guess its over. Cos things will move on. and i will have to. I just need to make it known to you that im trying my hardest to move on from everything i feel so that i dont get hurt. Im pretty good at keeping my feelings bottled up but at the moment its proving difficult because i kinda took the lid off. and now im trying to put it back on. I cant actually believe that im crying whilst writing this, i guess thats just the way things go. Im going to miss you when i go to Sheffield. But i hope that you will still want to see me occasionaly either random weekends or through the holidays. I dont want this to be the end of things but i feel like its probably for the best for both of us. i feel like last night i annoyed you and pissed u off. I am aware of that. I am an arsehole and i know it. I apologise about the whole (MALE NAME) thing last night too. I just feel like i have to show you that im not needy and i dunno its wierd. i know its not a nice thing to do and id hate it if someone did it to me. Maybe after all this we are just meant to be friends? I dont want that to EVER change. i want to remain friends with you. i just think that things were easier, for me anyway in my head before all this happend. Although when things have been said they've made me really happy afterwards i cant help but feel alone cos i know nothing is going to happen. I need to know how your feeling about everything. This has been on my mind all day. Sometimes i try and act like im not bothered but i am. i cant help it. This is probably confusing but its done me some good. well im gonna go and freshen up before work not going with panda eyes. I would really like it if you could reply or at least ackowledge that u have read this and understood? Sorry. [/sIZE][/FONT] [FONT=verdana][sIZE=2]<B>HIM</B>[/sIZE][/FONT] [FONT=verdana][sIZE=2][FONT=verdana][sIZE=2]wow, that message was really upsetting actually, from the heart! dont know what to say really, it gets to me when i think about you going to sheffield because it kinda narrows down the chances a lot doesnt it, and the thought of not seeing you as much, you making new friends and moving on kinda gets to me i want to be ur (HIS NAME)lol, closest boy mate always and be there for ya whenever you want but that wont be the case in a couple of months. you will probably meet some guy named trev who is funnier, better looking, less fat, more in common and kinder than me and that will be the end of (HIS NAME) n liz n that makes me really concious and sad To think of it as the end is something i do not want to do maybe i am in denial or blatantly refuse to accept the fact that me and you wil never be because it is something that should happen, all the ingredients are there it is just the wrong timing. i enjoy being with you all the time whether it is punchy flrting or having really good discussions, we have so much in common and the fact we have known each other for ages n ages means we have that stronger foundation of having a friendly kina deeper feeling for one another if ya get me i do really like you a lot and i undersand your situation ideally i would try my hardest to stop you going to sheffield but that would be selfish as i dont know what will happen with me and becki and it isnt fair on you to wait around i will never forget you and i will always be keeping in touch with you, you mean the world to me.but who is to say it is the end, what if during uni i split with (HIS GF), u cme down for the weekend and meet up and all goes from there.You never know As for now all i can say is as corny as it sounds follow ur heart, do what is best for you and no one else just promise me we wont lose touch and stop being friends and ................ ya never know! (HIS NAME) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx [/sIZE][/FONT][/sIZE][/FONT] [FONT=verdana][sIZE=2][FONT=verdana][sIZE=2][/sIZE][/FONT][/sIZE][/FONT] [FONT=verdana][sIZE=2][FONT=verdana][sIZE=2]I cant get him out of my head. I dont know what to do for the best? [/sIZE][/FONT] [/sIZE][/FONT]
TheSwordfish Posted May 10, 2006 Posted May 10, 2006 Just stop the friendship, he has a girlfriend and has feelings for you, bad situation. If you stay friends while you want to be more then friends things might get really weird down the road.
KnowHowLoveFeels Posted May 10, 2006 Posted May 10, 2006 Why are you messing with this guy? He has a GF!!
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