RealityCheck Posted May 5, 2006 Posted May 5, 2006 Ya all know that I have remained true to myself without responding to the exMM's emails... Well, damn it! I received another email last night! This time I did respond! The good news, is that I told him to NEVER email or call me for any reason whatsoever! I said to him "What's the point really"? I told him that I have grown tired of his sorry a$$ pathetic co-dependency being....ME! I wanted to end the emails because I thought, "out of sight, out of mind" and it would allow me to move through this more quickly! I did say at the end of the email, that I will remain open to contact, with the condition, that he is single and that he is to "scan" me a copy of his separation papers and send them through email prior to me responding! Should he contact me remaining attached, I will send my Brother for a visit! (not a good thing) !! Now here's the sick feeling....REALLY! This is my thought process today! Hopefully it will change in a few days, but for today this is where I am at! I'm thinking "Now you've gone and done it!" You will never hear from him again! At least when he was emailing you, you got some satisfaction in knowing you were roaming his thoughts and that he was missing you! Now you have nothing! Is this not SICK! Shame on me for those thoughts! WTF!!! What a warped space to be in! Grrrrrrrrrrr *sigh* If I could only turn back the hands of time!
zarathustra Posted May 5, 2006 Posted May 5, 2006 Ya all know that I have remained true to myself without responding to the exMM's emails... Well, damn it! I received another email last night! This time I did respond! The good news, is that I told him to NEVER email or call me for any reason whatsoever! I said to him "What's the point really"? I told him that I have grown tired of his sorry a$$ pathetic co-dependency being....ME! I wanted to end the emails because I thought, "out of sight, out of mind" and it would allow me to move through this more quickly! I did say at the end of the email, that I will remain open to contact, with the condition, that he is single and that he is to "scan" me a copy of his separation papers and send them through email prior to me responding! Should he contact me remaining attached, I will send my Brother for a visit! (not a good thing) !! Now here's the sick feeling....REALLY! This is my thought process today! Hopefully it will change in a few days, but for today this is where I am at! I'm thinking "Now you've gone and done it!" You will never hear from him again! At least when he was emailing you, you got some satisfaction in knowing you were roaming his thoughts and that he was missing you! Now you have nothing! Is this not SICK! Shame on me for those thoughts! WTF!!! What a warped space to be in! Grrrrrrrrrrr *sigh* If I could only turn back the hands of time! I know EXACTLY how you feel! I sent jerkwad my please don't contact me anymore unless its business (since we work together we need to kinda stay in contact on a professional level). You know what... I felt like crap the first day. But I felt like in that email, I was really able to say goodbye. To get my sense of closure... to cut off all hope that he will return. Unfortunately, as you can see from my post yesterday - where you and others so eloquently replied, he will likely not be able to comply. RC, congratulations for mustering the strength to send him the f-off until you are separated/divorced letter. Good for you! btw... re-read what you posted to me last night... he's doing the same thing to you mine is to me.. ADVANCED CLASSES NOW AVAILABLE -Learn to let go of your authentic self and become Master EGO. -Learn to really not think about inflicting pain on the OW or W -Learn to enjoy the submission benefits without any guilt whatsoever -Learn to financially please both women -Learn to multi-task and be at two places at once -Learn to have it ALL and give nothing back YES! YOU CAN HAVE IT ALL! BECOME A BA**TARD AND REAP THE REWARDS
Sami_D Posted May 5, 2006 Posted May 5, 2006 The thing about NC is... you have to really want to do it. For yourself. Once you've decided ENOUGH, it doesn't matter what HE does, what he wants. The more he contacts you after you've said 'no more' the bigger jerk he is. So why respond? Personally I'm glad I'm off the merry-go-round.
whichwayisup Posted May 5, 2006 Posted May 5, 2006 I agree with Sami. Now what you HAVE to do for yourself is put his emails on block. Reading his emails is just making it harder for you and also tempting to email him back. No email, no reason to contact him, right? Please really consider blocking him! I'm thinking "Now you've gone and done it!" You will never hear from him again! At least when he was emailing you, you got some satisfaction in knowing you were roaming his thoughts and that he was missing you! Now you have nothing! You deserve MORE from a man than table scraps. Don't ever settle for so little!
Author RealityCheck Posted May 5, 2006 Author Posted May 5, 2006 Thanks Ladies! I, REALLY, TRUELY, HONESTLY.... Want to let this go! This is not a question to myself, but I still can't help my feelings for this Man! I "hate and love" him all the same! I would like to make mad passionate love to him while beating the crap out of him at the same time.......lol Jeepers! What a mess!
Owl Posted May 5, 2006 Posted May 5, 2006 Maybe it's time to change your email account? Not wanting to sound mean, but it seems the best way to put an end to his constant violation of your space.
zarathustra Posted May 5, 2006 Posted May 5, 2006 I "hate and love" him all the same! I would like to make mad passionate love to him while beating the crap out of him at the same time.......lol Jeepers! What a mess! RC, YOU CRACK ME UP! I am truly amazed at your sense of humour even in your time of need. You are truly phenomenal. This man doesn't deserve the time of day from you. The visual is just killing me.
Author RealityCheck Posted May 5, 2006 Author Posted May 5, 2006 Zara....Right back at you! As strange as it sounds, I feel like I have known you forever! Mmmmm....past life perhaps! *big hug* Owl... I will have to go into "block" mode. My email account is also business. Personally, I don't believe he will email me. That's EXACTLY why I feel sick!......
zarathustra Posted May 5, 2006 Posted May 5, 2006 Zara....Right back at you! As strange as it sounds, I feel like I have known you forever! Mmmmm....past life perhaps! *big hug* Owl... I will have to go into "block" mode. My email account is also business. Personally, I don't believe he will email me. That's EXACTLY why I feel sick!...... I feel the same way about you! Its amazing how quickly several of us has bonded. I can't wait until you can PM me! Don't worry... give it a day... have a really good cry and tomorrow will be a much brighter day. I listened to the philosopher kings' song "I would never give back the love you gave me" on my way home after I wrote that email to my ex. Man, I cried and cried. I exchanged a few emails with WA and she told me what I did was brave and that I did what I had to do to get sanity... and you know what? She is right! I felt better within the next couple of days because the hope was gone. Right now, you are experiencing shock, but you know what you did? YOU took your power back. YOU took control of your life back. YOU are the one who called the shot. And therefore, my dear dear friend, you should be really proud of your achievement. Big huge hugs to you!!
Author RealityCheck Posted May 5, 2006 Author Posted May 5, 2006 Zara.... How the heck do I obtain access to PMing. I certainly would like to give you my MSN or email address, but how do I even get that to you? Being a Writer, I would be exposing my identity to all who view this Forum....lol Now wouldn't that just do my career wonders!......lol Mind you, like Rock Stars, scandel could also put me on the "Best Seller" list! *laughing*
Owl Posted May 5, 2006 Posted May 5, 2006 LOL...alright RC...all I wanna know is...what genre do you write in? I'm too lazy to read a lot of different things...so your identity would very likely remain safe with me!
zarathustra Posted May 5, 2006 Posted May 5, 2006 Zara.... How the heck do I obtain access to PMing. I certainly would like to give you my MSN or email address, but how do I even get that to you? Being a Writer, I would be exposing my identity to all who view this Forum....lol Now wouldn't that just do my career wonders!......lol Mind you, like Rock Stars, scandel could also put me on the "Best Seller" list! *laughing* I don't know if you have to be an established member or something like it. I went to the top menu, clicked my profile and marked a few checkboxes (I think it has one to turn on to receive Private Messages).
whichwayisup Posted May 5, 2006 Posted May 5, 2006 Personally, I don't believe he will email me. That's EXACTLY why I feel sick!...... Then this is your opportunity to be strong and detach. Keep really busy and know that his actions, not emailing you, is the best situation for you to get over him.
Author RealityCheck Posted May 5, 2006 Author Posted May 5, 2006 Being in this situation.... You all really going to get a gut wrenching laugh.... I am also a "Motivational Speaker"!!! Owl..... -I write inspirational novels!! *stop laughing anytime*.....lol -Write songs for Recording Artists -Biographies -Articles for high profile magazines Whole lot of other stuff....
whichwayisup Posted May 5, 2006 Posted May 5, 2006 Ok, I get the hint. I upset you on one of your posts afew days ago and now you aren't acknowledging anything I say. I won't post any more of my thoughts on your thread. Good luck and I do wish you the best.
zarathustra Posted May 5, 2006 Posted May 5, 2006 Being in this situation.... You all really going to get a gut wrenching laugh.... I am also a "Motivational Speaker"!!! Owl..... -I write inspirational novels!! *stop laughing anytime*.....lol -Write songs for Recording Artists -Biographies -Articles for high profile magazines Whole lot of other stuff.... Not laughing in the least! You have motivated me and knew exactly what to write for me to read to give me a boost. I don't know how I would have survived without your help yesterday. ex is leaving me alone. I like to gamble a bit. You say your xMM won't email you again but I think he will. I'll bet you 10 peanuts for it. Want to raise?
zarathustra Posted May 5, 2006 Posted May 5, 2006 Ok, I get the hint. I upset you on one of your posts afew days ago and now you aren't acknowledging anything I say. I won't post any more of my thoughts on your thread. Good luck and I do wish you the best. WWIU, FWIW, I think that RC did take your advice along with others. She has blocked dud... um oops dude email or something like it.
whichwayisup Posted May 5, 2006 Posted May 5, 2006 She's blocked and put me on ignore. Okay, now I understand. Thanks for the heads up. I won't bother posting on any of her threads. It's a waste of my time if I do.
movinon05 Posted May 5, 2006 Posted May 5, 2006 Girls, I'm missing all of these posts today because I'm being a good girl and trying to work without getting fired! lol! But as I am on lunch, I just wanted to say that in one of my perfect worlds the exMM is still in love with me and sees me when I don't know it and is dying inside because he wants me so bad, but he doesn't know I know this. Yeah, GDit, I still love him but I still hate him. And I just want him to suffer while I go my merry way! LOLOLOL! Talk about crazy stuff. Okay, back to being a good girl and signing off!
Author RealityCheck Posted May 5, 2006 Author Posted May 5, 2006 Whichwayisup.... Ah come on... I'm not angry, pissed or anything! I never took what you said personally!!! Nor would I with anyone else! Everyone is entitled to thier opinion, that's life! I'm not ignoring anything you have posted and I certainly did not sign up on this Forum to create drama! Anything you have to bring to the table is appreciated in all your thoughts! *shake hands?*
Author RealityCheck Posted May 5, 2006 Author Posted May 5, 2006 Zara..... I'm still trying to figure out if my A was a lesson or an experiment......lol Maybe even an inspiration for a new novel......lol
Owl Posted May 5, 2006 Posted May 5, 2006 RC- Wanted to say that there was no laughter here...I KNOW how unfunny this whole situation can be. But...did want to say..."Physician...heal thyself!" Apply some of the advice you give in some of your motivational material and perhaps it could help you deal with things...not that it's all that easy to do. Hang in there friend!
Sami_D Posted May 5, 2006 Posted May 5, 2006 WWIU... RC didn't respond to my message either. Sometimes it's easier not to hear.
Author RealityCheck Posted May 5, 2006 Author Posted May 5, 2006 Sami.... I did so respond to your post! I may not have put your name to it, but I certainly responded!
Author RealityCheck Posted May 5, 2006 Author Posted May 5, 2006 Owl.... Agreed! Walk the talk right! *wink* This is the plan!
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