does my ex lover still has feelings for me or she just playing with me?

[Loverboy_787]

I had an affair with a ex lover she was 7 years older than me and we were in love she used to tell me how much she loves me and wanted to stay with and coudn't imagine seeing me with another woman that she woudn't stand it . we were on a relationship for six months and we did not break up we just ended it like nothing ever happend. She got divorced from her husband and after that I felt kind of guilty but she told me she did not break up with him because of us. we used to keep talking after the six months passed we talked over by cell phone and talked about stuff kind of often we still had that vibe but never had sex I try but then I just gave up but we still talk until I had a new girlfriend and paid little attention to my ex-lover so after that like 3 or 4 months later she called me asking me if I had a girlfriend I told her I did and she asked me if I had sex with her I did not told her that but she might have imagine I did so we stayed "like friends" so after that a year passed she changed her cell number beacuase somebody was calling her private and not talking to her I she found out it was her ex husband doing that but after that what I did not know was she was going out with someone else and even that did not stop her from asking me out which I denied her( a lot) and wasan't talking to her that much since she changed her cell number and til this day I do not know her cel number I think she dosen't want me to know it but that as well dosen't stop her from calling me in private so I can't tell what's her cell number to know how am im doing and talk to me what itches me is that it's been 2 years of our last relationship and stills calls me and talks to me about our past she once put me a song we use to listen to just to "remember" and told me she wanted to see my diary where I wrote about her in the past just to "remember" and this is what really got me I was buying in the same store she was so I saw and gave her some company on buying we passe though a lingerie section and stated to see lingirie in front of me and telling me "look at this one" so I acted like I was ignoring and she was calling me to show it to me I knew why she was doing that but I do not know if she was just playinhg around with me that turn me on

I could not hold it I sent her and email saying that I wanted to feel her body again and more so then she called me to tell me she recieved the letter and told me not in a bad way or a disturbed way that I was crazy it was not like WOW ARE YOU CRAZY!! just that I was crazy she made it sound like she liked it but did not try to show it when she was talking to me but then I though what was I thinking so I wrote a letter to apologize to her for what I said and that I would never mention that to her again since she has a boyfriend but I still know if she has a chance she is still going to try to call me it's been 2 years and that hasan't stop her and after that incident she did call me 3 days later can you belive that so I ask what you think does she loves me orjust playing with me give me your honest opinion would like to hear from the women too! thanks!!!1

[SuperMonk]

She's playing with you, move on.

[Loverboy_787]

She's playing with you, move on.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

well somebody else has a opinion

[jerbear]

Playing with you to she if she has some "control" over you. I've been there done that; on the receiving end.

[Mary3]

I had an affair with a ex lover she was 7 years older than me and we were in love she used to tell me how much she loves me and wanted to stay with and coudn't imagine seeing me with another woman that she woudn't stand it . we were on a relationship for six months and we did not break up we just ended it like nothing ever happend. She got divorced from her husband and after that I felt kind of guilty but she told me she did not break up with him because of us. we used to keep talking after the six months passed we talked over by cell phone and talked about stuff kind of often we still had that vibe but never had sex I try but then I just gave up but we still talk until I had a new girlfriend and paid little attention to my ex-lover so after that like 3 or 4 months later she called me asking me if I had a girlfriend I told her I did and she asked me if I had sex with her I did not told her that but she might have imagine I did so we stayed "like friends" so after that a year passed she changed her cell number beacuase somebody was calling her private and not talking to her I she found out it was her ex husband doing that but after that what I did not know was she was going out with someone else and even that did not stop her from asking me out which I denied her( a lot) and wasan't talking to her that much since she changed her cell number and til this day I do not know her cel number I think she dosen't want me to know it but that as well dosen't stop her from calling me in private so I can't tell what's her cell number to know how am im doing and talk to me what itches me is that it's been 2 years of our last relationship and stills calls me and talks to me about our past she once put me a song we use to listen to just to "remember" and told me she wanted to see my diary where I wrote about her in the past just to "remember" and this is what really got me I was buying in the same store she was so I saw and gave her some company on buying we passe though a lingerie section and stated to see lingirie in front of me and telling me "look at this one" so I acted like I was ignoring and she was calling me to show it to me I knew why she was doing that but I do not know if she was just playinhg around with me that turn me on

I could not hold it I sent her and email saying that I wanted to feel her body again and more so then she called me to tell me she recieved the letter and told me not in a bad way or a disturbed way that I was crazy it was not like WOW ARE YOU CRAZY!! just that I was crazy she made it sound like she liked it but did not try to show it when she was talking to me but then I though what was I thinking so I wrote a letter to apologize to her for what I said and that I would never mention that to her again since she has a boyfriend but I still know if she has a chance she is still going to try to call me it's been 2 years and that hasan't stop her and after that incident she did call me 3 days later can you belive that so I ask what you think does she loves me orjust playing with me give me your honest opinion would like to hear from the women too! thanks!!!1

 

I found it really hard to read your post which just rambles on and on. Do you think you could use Paragraphs and proper punctuation ?