Should I Wait For Him?

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My boyfriend whom I was with for 6 years and I broke it off temporarily about 2 years ago. I broke up with him because I wanted to settle down with him and he was living in a room in his friends home. Little did I know that 2 months after he called me and asked me to move into a home with him, but by this time I had gotten a new boyfriend. He got a new girlfriend 1 month after that and she moved into his home. My new boyfriend broke up with me in December of 2004 and I got in touch with my ex which is how I found out that he too had gotten involved too quickly also. Realizing we miss each other so much, we decided to get back together. Only problem is he doesn't have the nerve to break it off with his live in girlfriend. We cheated the first time in September of 2005, and 2 times since then, the last time being last week. When we lived together the first few years of our relationship we split all the bills and the rent. This girl he informs me pays no utilitioes and no rent(he owns the home outright). She doesn't offer to pay any of the bills and he tells me he is not even in love with her. He tells me he loves me and even tells me that he wants me in his life but he won't give me an idea of when we are going to get back together. He began to get mean towards me when I started wanting to know when she is moving out and put me down and accused me of things when we had gotten along really really well for the 4 years before we broke up and never fought. So I told him that IK don't like the way he is treating me and thingsa are bad enough that he insists on staying with this girl who he told me he only got together with because he didn't want to be all alone and she happenend to be in the right place at the right time. He claims not to have sex with her and that is his reason for wanting to see me in the meanwhile until they break up and we can be together officially. So he proposed that he would pay me for sex with him. I guess it's some kind of hooker fantasy for him and I'm no prude so I was game. Only problem is now he is less tolerant of my questions and acting chilly towards me on top of it. He is giving mixed signals and now saying he doesn't think he wants anyone, and then he'll say things like he doesn't think he wants kids(I'm soon to be 42 years old and would like to have one child), when I had seen him a month ago he told me he wants me to move in with him and he talked about the future. I am very confused and unsure of what to do. I forgot to mention that this relationship actually began when I was 19 years old and he was 22 years old. We were together for 4 years , broken up for 5 years, then back together, and broken up off an on.....12 years together over a 22 year period! Obviously the ball is in his court, I've tried the angry approach, the nice approach, etc. I resent the fact that he is with this girl and spoiling her and sheltering her in a home when I went through thick and thin with him all these years, she pays no rent, I never lived rent free with him and he never bailed me out financially, but he did a lot of wonderful things..he never cheated on me, not even once! He did go to strip clubs sometimes which I didn't mind that much, I didn't mind him watching porn either, how many girls don't mind those things? I gave him space and he loved having me hang out with him and his buddies. My sisters envied his loyalty towards me. I was supportive of him even when it came to activities that didn't directly effect me like surfing,working out,hanging with his buddies, etc. We are compatible, very. I have dated many guys and I realize that I will never replace him. I wonder what it would be like now to live with him since he noiw has a career that gives him satisfaction and rewards. Because when we were together his main problem was he wasn't making the kind of money he desired so he was not able to treat me respectfully, hence my breaking it off many times when this occured. So you can understand why I feel that this relationship is now yielding the fruits of it's harvest in many ways and I would like to be the woman in his life and grow old with him. If we don't have a child I will accept this, but I know he is the only man I would want one with if I did.Please share your thoughts with me I am powerless with this situation and have dated enough just to stay busy but I'm burned out at the moment. He did tell me it would be less then 7 months that we would be together.