Just Dumped & Feeling Dumpy.

[LADYKAY]

MY LOVE WON'T TALK TO ME. SAID HE WANTED IT TO BE OVER AND DID NOT EXPLAIN, BUT MAYBE I ALREADY KNOW THE ANSWER. HELP.

 

HE NEVER WANTED TO MAKE OUR "THING" OFFICIAL BECAUSE OF HOW WE MET. LET ME EXPLAIN... HE WAS A GOOD FRIEND OF AN EX-BOYFRIEND ( THEY HAD RECENTLY STOP TALKING TO EACHOTHER. BUT STILL HAVE MUTUAL FRIENDS, SO I DID NOT FEEL BAD WHEN WE EXCHANGED NUMBERS) I RAN INTO HIM WHILE GOING THRU A REALLY HARD TIME IN MY LIFE AND WE BECAME REALLY CLOSE FRIENDS. TALKING EACHDAY, AND BEFORE I KNEW IT WE WERE LOVERS BUT NEVER PUT THE LABEL ON AS BOYFRIEND AND GIRLFRIEND. WE STARTED UP IN 2003, AND WE HAVE DATED OR WHATEVER YOU CAN CALL IT, UP UNTIL 2 WEEKS AGO. OVER THE PAST 3 YEARS WE HAVE BEEN ON AND OFF. IN 2004 MY EX-BOYFRIEND FOUND OUT ABOUT US. SOMEONE SAW US TOGETHER AND TOLD MY EX. MY EX THEN FREAKS OUT AND CALLS AND RAISES HELL WITH BOTH OF US. I DECIDED THEN IT WOULD BE BEST IF WE TOOK A BREAK BECAUSE IT WAS CAUSING SO MUCH DRAMA. WE DID NOT TALK FOR 7 MONTHS AND I MISSED HIM SO MUCH THEN. BUT THOUGHT I WAS DOING HIM A FAVOR BY BEING OUT OF HIS LIFE, DUE TO THE MESS MY EX CAUSED BY CALLING HIM AT WORK AND WHEN SEEING HIM CAUSING ARGUEMENTS. OUT OF THE BLUE HE CALLED ME AND SAID HE WAS MISSING ME AND WANTED TO START AGAIN, AND WE WERE TOGETHER FROM THAT TIME UNTIL 2 WEEKS AGO. I RECENTLY HAD TO MOVE A FEW HOURS AWAY IN A DIFFERENT CITY TO CONTINUE MY DEGREE AND WE HAD DECIDED THAT WE WOULD STILL SEE EACHOTHER. AT THIS POINT IN OUR RELATIONSHIP OR FRIENDSHIP I AM SO IN LOVE WITH THIS PERSON AND I'M THINKING ABOUT MARRIAGE, BUT I CAN'T GET HIM TO SAY HE IS SERIOUS ABOUT ME THE SAME WAY THAT HE WOULD FINALLY WANNA MAKE IT OFFICIAL. WE DIDN'T HAVE TO MARRY BUT I WAS THINKING BY NOW WE COULD AT LEAST BECOME BOYFRIEND AND GIRLFRIEND.

I FEEL LIKE HE LOVED ME BUT 2 WEEKS AGO HE STARTED ACTING STRANGE SAYING MAYBE WE SHOULD END IT, THEN SAYING NO I LOVE YOU AND PICKING FIGHTS AND NOT ANSWERING CALLS, BUT AT THE SAME TIME SAYING HE WAS SO IN LOVE WITH ME AND LOST WITHOUT ME. I WAS THINKING OUR FIGHTS WERE DUE TO MY MOVE AND WE HAD JUST HIT A ROUGH SPOT IN A LONG-DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP UNTIL MY EX/ HIS OLD FRIEND STARTED UP AGAIN AFTER SOMEONE SAW US AGAIN ( DURING A TRIP BACK FOR A VISIT ) AND THE WORD WAS OUT THAT WE WERE SEEING EACHOTHER AGAIN. MY EX CALLS AND SAYS I CAN'T BELEIVE YOU ARE STILL WITH HIM. DON'T YOU KNOW HE'S GETTING MARRIED TO HIS EX-GIRLFRIEND. MY EX SAID THE INVITES WERE OUT AND A MUTUAL FRIEND TOLD HIM ABOUT THE WEDDING. I CALLED HIM AND EXPLAINED WHAT I HAD HEARD AND HE SAID,"I'M NOT GETTING MARRIED." SO PLAIN. IT WAS WEIRD. HE DID ADMIT THAT HIS EX GIRLFRIEND DID SEE ONE OF THEIR MUTUAL FRIENDS, BUT WASN'T SURE WHAT WAS SAID. THEN HE STATED HE THOUGHT WE SHOULD END IT. WE HAVEN'T SPOKEN SINCE. I KNOW OUR ENTIRE RELATIONSHIP WAS WEIRD, BUT I REALLY AM IN LOVE WITH THIS PERSON AND I KNOW, HE HAS TO LOVE ME AT LEAST AN INCH, BUT IF SO, WHY IS IT SO EASY FOR HIM TO JUST LEAVE AND NOT EXPLAIN. SO BECAUSE HE DID NOT EXPLAIN I ALMOST BELIEVE MY EX AND ALL I HAVE TO GO ON IS MAYBE HE IS GETTING MARRIED. I AM SO HURT AND CONFUSED. MY HEART IS IN A MESS.