NightsInWhiteSatin Posted April 24, 2006 Posted April 24, 2006 ok for the first few weeks since we broke up i was devastated....cried all the time, didn't want to do anything, nothing cheered me up etc etc then i decided to talk to my ex about having no contact for a good few months because he kept texting me, mailing me and phoning me and telling me he loves me and misses me and cries and looks at my pic all the time. It's almost been 7 days since we last spoke and i've been going through another whirlwind of emotions trying to cope with the whole no contact thing...i feel like a yo yo..one minute i'm all happy and like 'yay looking forward to getting a job and doing this that and the other' then the next minute i start crying over him....there's no inbetween....i feel really messed up...i dont know where i am or where my heads at. This guy was my world, i never doubted how i felt for him...and now i'm so confused part of me doesnt want to love him anymore and the part that does is getting buried under all the hurt. Right now i feel like im stuck in limbo...i'll probably post on here again in a few weeks...i'll either be 'yeaaah im doing great having a great time etc or i'll be all depressed and missing him still crying etc ...i'm just being impatient at the moment I'll shut up now...i've had my rant lol
Spitkicker Posted April 24, 2006 Posted April 24, 2006 I fell yah.. because my ex is basically doing the same to me... Like I could swear I'm doing great and I'm on my way to moving on. Then some how she gets in contact with me to bring me back to the start. The thing is I heard that when you are able to talk to your ex without feeling anything then you are truly golden. I can't wait for that day. I wish I could run into my next relationship soon.
KittenMoon Posted April 24, 2006 Posted April 24, 2006 I feel this sick limbo too- not sure if I'm angry or sad or depressed or annoyed or in love- nothing makes sense anymore. It's like a fog I can't see through. I do know I felt worse when I was still trying to contact him. It's torture wondering what he's up to, is he missing me, etc, but it's helping me way more to NOT speak to him, not be exposed to his indifference or his pity. Well, actually, it's like the whirlwind you decribed is now a fog. I think that's a good thing.
Author NightsInWhiteSatin Posted April 24, 2006 Author Posted April 24, 2006 I felt worse whilst i was trying to contact him or when he contacted me. I guess it's done more good than bad this no contact...at least i'm getting out of bed and getting dressed and wanting to do things with my life now. I check his website on myspace and his bands website's forum....2 or 3 times a day....just to see if i can catch a hint on how he is and what he's been up to....all i've got so far is that he's leaving his car at this place he does gigs at every sunday and getting drunk...fair enough. The thing which screwed me up the most was that whenever we spoke he'd get all bluntly honest and tell me that he's been depressed since we broke up etc he swears blind he's still in love with me and misses me and cries over it all....but keeps saying it wasn't working...because he was too busy and that it hurts him everyday knowing that he was the reason it didn't really work out. It's not fair is it... i love this guy and he loves me...and we're both crying because we can't be together...doesn't make sense does it? Sorry getting all emotional there...think i just tapped into a waterfall...
KittenMoon Posted April 24, 2006 Posted April 24, 2006 The thing which screwed me up the most was that whenever we spoke he'd get all bluntly honest and tell me that he's been depressed since we broke up etc he swears blind he's still in love with me and misses me and cries over it all....but keeps saying it wasn't working...because he was too busy and that it hurts him everyday knowing that he was the reason it didn't really work out. I'm gonna put on my b*tch-hat for a minute. Sorry in advance. If he really loved you, he'd work hard for you. "Busy" wouldn't mean sh*t, because he'd be willing to do that much more to keep you in his life. My ex stopped working hard for me too- working for me at all in fact. Girl, we were made into inconviniences- and that's not how I want to be treated, I don't know about you.
Spitkicker Posted April 24, 2006 Posted April 24, 2006 My ex stopped working hard for me too- working for me at all in fact. Same here... it sucks when you're putting in a huge effort in the relationship and the other person isn't doing jack sh*t You know what else sucks.. if they try to get the best of both worlds, type of deal.
shelters Posted April 24, 2006 Posted April 24, 2006 The thing which screwed me up the most was that whenever we spoke he'd get all bluntly honest and tell me that he's been depressed since we broke up etc he swears blind he's still in love with me and misses me and cries over it all....but keeps saying it wasn't working...because he was too busy and that it hurts him everyday knowing that he was the reason it didn't really work out. It's not fair is it... i love this guy and he loves me...and we're both crying because we can't be together...doesn't make sense does it? I agree with everything KittenMoon said. No situation is identical so not sure if you'll find my situation helpful, but... My ex personalized my inability to commit. He sincerely felt that my issue should have vanished just by him entering my life. Poof. "Here I Come, To Save The Day!" Wouldn't that be nice? Now maybe he is right. Maybe I will meet someone where that will happen. Or maybe he will grow up a little, get out of the fantasy of wanting to 'rescue' someone, and cultivate some inner strength. (I have my own work too, of course). Prior to my NC boundary, he was staying in contact with me vacillating between generic friendly emails and others stating his love for me, missing me, but that he still believes he isn't the right person for me. It took 3 weeks of dealing with that rollercoaster before I decided I'd had enough of that ride. Someone who wants to be with you, will be with you. It really is that simple. Anything else is just dramatics. Edit: Be kind to yourself with your waves of emotions; keep up the NC, it really does help. See if you can take it one step further and not even check out his myspace page. Best of luck.
Guest Posted April 24, 2006 Posted April 24, 2006 I'm gonna put on my b*tch-hat for a minute. Sorry in advance. If he really loved you, he'd work hard for you. "Busy" wouldn't mean sh*t, because he'd be willing to do that much more to keep you in his life. My ex stopped working hard for me too- working for me at all in fact. Girl, we were made into inconviniences- and that's not how I want to be treated, I don't know about you. Thankyou for being honest....the thing is he did work hard for me, he just took on more work because he needs the money to pay off bills...and slowly it pushed 'us' out of the window....we tried and tried but i was just getting upset and depressed and so was he...you know what i dont know what i think anymore im so confused and hurt and just overwhelmed by things floating round my head
Author NightsInWhiteSatin Posted April 24, 2006 Author Posted April 24, 2006 Thanks guys you’ve all been a really big help wish I could help you all out with your problems but I daren’t open my mouth because I cant even point myself in the right direction nevermind anyone else…. my mind has just been so messed up….my mind was messed up before I got with him but now it’s buggered I need a new mind……this is the stuff he’s being saying to me over this whole breaking up thing etc and I’ve been trying to make sense of it all and I’m getting no where and everytime I think I’m going somewhere Im not going anywhere and back to square 1 have a read if you like….. This is an email from him making up with me after I fell out with him - You know how busy my life is now and I dont want us to split up, I love you sooo much, but sometimes it just feels like its pointless. You are getting half of a real relationship from me, coz of work etc, and all the stress. I dont want you upset and that seems to be all I make you recently.Sometimes I think maybe it would be better if we were'nt together; you could have got your work etc sorted and wouldnt be upset over me, Im such a dickhead. But then I look at you and fall inlove all over again.xxx Please come tonight, Idont want us not seeing each other till Sat. I love you Not long later we broke up….then got back together a few days later….then a week went bye... then he dumped me over msn again It’s a wee bit of reading but if anyone’s interested or bored…just take note I’d just had my heart broken for the second time in a week so I was just a liiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiittle bit overly emotional… Conversation Saturday pm after being dumped on MSN the night before Kim... says: you hate me don't you Ex b/f says: I could never hate you Ex b/f says: i love you. but that doesnt mean that we should be together now Kim.. says: im hurting so much right now...i've been waiting by the phone all day with butterflies in my stomach waiting for you to ring me and let me know whether you really did dump me over msn last night or not Ex b/f says: i dont know what i thimk at the mo, thats why i didnt/ i really think we shouldnt be toghether...i cant bear the tought of us hating each other, and that will happen if we carry on like this Ex b/f says: i just want to bew there for you all the time I'm a knobhead and i'm sorry... says: why i was just a bit drunk last night i'd had nothin to eat it went straight to my head i dont hate you ive been so happy this week that we've got back together i sat in your room crying while u went to teach when i found those lines you wrote when we broke up and i was cryin happy tears because i never thought id be sat in your room waiting to give u a big hug when u got back Kim... says: i had to redo my make up before u got back Ex b/f says: its not last night, its alot of times recently.. it just doesnt feel right Kim... says: what doesnt feel right ? Ex b/f says: in 2 monthe or something it may be different, i dont see what we can do to make it better..my heart just isntr into it any more. I love you but i need to sort my life out, and I cant do that with toun right now. dont ring me coz i dont want to wake parents up Kim... says: your heart just isn't into it anymore Kim... says: i knew there was something Kim... says: im not silly you know...i notice these things Ex b/f says: ? Ex b/f says: i never said you were silly Kim... says: i know...i could tell there was something wrong and i thought all this time it was because you found me boring and unattractive and didnt love me anymore Ex b/f says: i love you, you are beautiful but i cant watch us disentegrate like this Kim says: i just want to be in you arms baby so much Ex b/f says: im sat here crying to myself, but this has to happen Ex b/f says: i couldnt bare us hating each other or having a massive fight Kim says: i can't bare this i thought we were together and now you're taking it all away again and it hurts so much it really does i love you so much dont leave me font leave me dont leave me!!!!!!!!!!!...please...pretty please with lots of sugar on i need you so much Ex b/f says: the fact yopu sound desperate doesnt help Ex b/f says: i will always be here Kim. says: i dont care if i sound desperate i love you and i dont wanna break up and i dont care if i come across like the biggest dick in the world i know a good thing when ive got it and i dont have to loose it again to realize that Ex b/f says: im sorry this has to happen. I love you so much, to carry on is stupid. we can talk every day, phone text msn everything Ex b/f says: im here no matter what and in a rfew months, weeks whatever, things may be different Ex b/f says: i love you Ex b/f says: xxxxxxxxxxxxx Kim says: i'll wait...i'll just focus on getting myself sorted for a while...promise i can still see you though?... just talk to me a little while on here ok... dont go signing out on me i just need to talk a while ok xxxxxxxxxxxxx Ex b/f says: im tired im going soon got a long day tomoz Kim... says: and i went through a huuge effort all day to get that song for you and its not finished downloading so you can't go yet Kim... says: i used to listen to that song while we used to talk on msn ages ago back to when you sent me fingertips and night & day etc Ex b/f says: ill wait Kim... says: i thought you'd find it too cheesy Kim... says: what am i gonna do about your birthday it's next week and i had everything planned out Ex b/f says: we can still do what you you wanna do Kim.. says: and i dont know if its right now we're not together Transfer of "Chantal Kreviazuk - Feels Like Home.mp3" is complete. Ex b/f says: just a more chilled out 'friend' version Ex b/f says: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Kim. says: but i've got a room at the strawberry duck for us Ex b/f says: *crying* Kim... says: i dont know what to do now Kim. says: i thought we could spend the whole say up there i was gonna make us a picnic to take with us round the reservoir then have a meal in the evening and surprise you with the room i just wanted it to be special for you baby im sorryy im so sorry this is hurtin so much kim.. says: i just wanna make you happy Ex b/f says: we can still have the day theere Ex b/f says: xxx Kim... says: and the meal to xxxxx Ex b/f says: x Kim... says: i love you i wanna hug so much right now Kim. says: do you like the song? Kim... says: baby? u ok? Ex b/f says: its beautiful Ex b/f says: is that the girl who sing leavin on a jet plane? kim... says: yep Ex b/f says: thought so kim.. says: she's got a beautiful voice and i love this song Ex b/f says: im going to sleep honey Ex b/f says: sweetdreams Ex b/f says: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx kim.. says: sweetdreams....ring me tomorrow...i hope your friend has a lovely wedding xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx i love you Conversation Monday Ex b/f says: i feel like part of me is missing.... we have still got to keep in touch, and if you ever need or want anything im always gonna be here Ex b/f says: xxxxxxxxx Kim says: Stop it your just making me cry Ex b/f says: im crying too Kim says: why can't you sort things out so we can be together..i'll wait Ex b/f says: no baby, it has to be this way you know it does Ex b/f says: in 6 months things might be different Kim says: i can wait 6 months Kim says: it'll just be like a 6 month break Kim says: dont you want to be with me too? Ex b/f says: i do and i don’t all at the same time, I’ve spent the last few days thinking of everything we did... i couldn’t handle it if we fell out, and I’ve found myself feelin so many negative things recently, with not spending time with you and things that it would just lead to that Ex b/f says: im going to bed babe. I’ll always love you and we can talk every day on this if you want, I’m gonna record echoes this week if my pc lets me lol Ex b/f says: ill send it you Ex b/f says: sweetdreams Ex b/f says: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Kim says: i cant....ive not left the bloody computer since we broke up even though i've appeared offline ive been here just thinking and thinking and watchin u sign in and out i didnt sleep last night and i woke up after 4 hours sleep because i thought i heard my phone go off but i think i dreamt it Kim says: we can't be friend ste...im just gonna be waiting to get back together again and if that s not gonna happen im never going to move on Kim says: and then when you move on i'll still be there Kim says: waitin for yu Kim says: it'll drive me nuts Kim says: and everytime i see you i'll be wanting to kiss you and hold your hand Ex b/f says: you'll move on baby, your amazing and its only you who doesnt realise it yet Kim says: i wont...i love u too much Kim says: and i wish you'd listen to me! Kim says: i just wanna cuddle up to you... Kim says: i feel so alone Ex b/f says: surely being friends is gonna be ok, itll just take a while.....we had sooooo many good times... we have to keep talking and in touch Ex b/f says: your never alone Kim says: hows that gonna work though Ex b/f says: i sound like a f***in stalker Ex b/f says: lol Kim says: lol i sound like an obsessive psycho Kim says: arent you ever going to sort your work life out though...even if it doesnt mean us getting back together? Ex b/f says: im trying to, but when i met you i said i didnt know who i was and what i wanted to do... im no further down that road now, it feels at the mo like ive taken a step back almost Ex b/f says: im going to bed Kim says: please dont Ex b/f says: i love you kim says: just 5 more minutes Ex b/f says: ok Ex b/f says: stop crying Ex b/f says: youll dehydrate Kim says: i think my heads shrunk lol Ex b/f says: prune Ex b/f says: lol Kim says: oi... Kim says: did you have a good time last night Ex b/f says: yeah, Georgina sort of came out of the clsoet and me and ste drank stella. bad head today Ex b/f says: i didnt get all emotionasl either which was good Kim says: did you get my text? Kim says: i sent it from a free website thingy Kim says: didnt know if it'd work or not Ex b/f says: yup i got it Ex b/f says: my credits dead now though Ex b/f says: i gotta go Ex b/f says: ive gotta piuck up payment for the wedding tomoz morn, and you gonna make me cry like a little girl Ex b/f says: sweetdreams Ex b/f says: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Kim says: i dont want you to go Ex b/f says: im always here silly Ex b/f says: good night kimothy Ex bf says: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Kim says: i love you Kim says: even if u did dump me on msn lol Ex b/f says: i didnt mean to Ex b/f says: x Ex b/f says: sweetdreams hon Ex b/f says: always love ya Ex b/f says: xxxxxx Kim says: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx After Not Speaking For Almost a Week : Im an old old man says: you ok, the house and everything goinbg ok? kim says: yeah im good, everythings nearly sorted with the house...got the surveyers coming round this week to check for damp and damages in the walls and things after that its just a matter of a few weeks before we can move kim says: hows you? Im an old old man says: ok, just a bit down, but ok Im an old old man says: glad everythiongs going ok with the house and things kim says: howcome you're feeling down? Im an old old man says: miss you loads hon!lol Im an old old man says: and work and gigs and quiz and you know, everything, being at home having no money, tax returns loads of stuff Im an old old man says: miss toby Im an old old man says: lol kim says: lol i think he misses you too.. kim says: ive been missing you too...had a 6 second dream about you last night which didnt help..lol Im an old old man says: 6 secs? Im an old old man says: lol kim says: yeah i've been contemplating learning how to do the tango and things and i dreamt i went to the lesson and i could do it all and i was dancing with my partner and when i turned to look at him it was you for a few seconds and i touched your face...could feel the ginger gerbil and everything lol Im an old old man says: yeah lol? Im an old old man says: Prob a gerbil at the mo, being lazy and depressed, not shaving Im an old old man says: lol kim says: lol even let myself have a sneaky cry a few times recently Im an old old man says: same here ive said goodnight to the cuddly thing everynight aswell, but she sleeps in my second draw Im an old old man says: x kim says: tut tut...if i knew she was going to live in a draw i would've had second thoughts mr lol Im an old old man says: no!!! I have said goodnight every night and give her a kiss, ....... sometimes with tongues kim says: ....no ....wait i'm not surprised...you always were a bit of a perv lol kim says: i've missed your smile got plenty of pics but none with the happy smile...moody bugger lol Im an old old man says: I know Im an old old man says: im glad you got our face on here missy... bout time Im an old old man says: i look at that pic every night too Im an old old man says: well, thats a lie.. i look at it if I’m in the right frame of mind otherwise I get all like a puffy cry baby lol kim says: lol i did have a pic of you...i framed it but everytime i walked in the room i cried so i sent it to you thinkin you wouldnt be as emotional over it as me Im an old old man says: it was by my bed but its in the draw coz i was kim says: to be honest i've put everything in a draw too...got really angry one night because i was hurting so much everytime i was reminded of you got a bit mad at you and things and put you in a drawer lol but when i went to take things out i got upset looking at everything again so now it stays in there except for my steveypooh bear kim says: i like to read the cards you've given me every once in a while Im an old old man says: i really need us to keep sayin hello and things you know? dont block me a things please coz i dont wanna lose a girlfriend and a best mate all in one kim says: don't worry, i've not been blocking you and i won't be doing...i've avoided msn alot recently...ive been feeling all sorts of emotions recently and it felt so weird talking to you the other night when you phoned me...i felt like i know you but i dont know you all at the same time..if it makes sense...it was hard for me to be me aswell...but i think that was the shock of it lol]# Im an old old man says: i understand, i reallllllllyyy do lol. In my head I’ve said it should be 'a clean break' etc but I need to have this contact with you, even if this is it, cause we've been through a lot of things, and firsts, together and we shouldn’t lose touch with each other. It wasn’t going to work, and we tried, and it hurts everyday knowing I was the reason it didn’t really work, but the way things are, I need Im an old old man says: you here on the end of a phone or email or msn etc, and ill always be here for you and I really, really hope you know that. Any f***er messes you around ..I'll jump up and bite there ankles Im an old old man says: lol kim says: can you bite your own ankles? lol only messing lol i've tried not to blame you for the reason it wasnt going to work and i've tried not to hate you for it and not get mad...its not your fault the way your schedule and priorities work out Im an old old man says: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx kim says: huggle? kim says: i luv u you big burke lol Im an old old man says: *hugs* Im an old old man says: luv you 2 Im an old old man says: hows family etc? Im an old old man says: your nan Im an old old man says: ? kim says: it's jennys birthday tomorrow, just been blowing up balloons putting up banners and things, nans still the same...been doing alot of painting walls and garages and fences for her lol kellys...kelly...toby has a new purple basket and is my tear licker awayer lol mum and dad are fine kim says: hows everyone in lovely simister? your mum and dad and loz etc Im an old old man says: veeftones fine her, stu and missus arfe apprantly fine, though only seen her once.. bloody jews...lol...I still got a yellow frisby in my car. ant has got an audition for the bill and coronation street..erm and thats it really kim says: oh...i thought stu and abi had broken up...spoke to him the other day kim says: veeftones??? Im an old old man says: oh right well maybe, hes not mentioned her lol Im an old old man says: veryones Im an old old man says: feckin keyboard kim says: how are you thinking of us as being friends...will we just be talking on here and texting? i think it's too soon to see eachother just yet personally but i wouldn't rule out never seeing eachother in person again...just wondering what your thoughts were.. Im an old old man says: I dunno, i love talking on this and phoning and texting and things coz I wanna keep in touch. I want to see you soooooooooooo much at times, but its daft. Lets just do this and when you moved house and when Ive finshed school things for summer maybe we can meet up and say hi and things? It'll be sooo good to see you, I miss your eyes loads lol, but it didnt work and it wont and we'll be great mates Im an old old man says: and you know it! kim says: i know, yeah it sounds like a good idea....can i ask you something...you know when you said you need time to sort your life out and in 6 months time things might be different...was that a white lie because i've been thinking about it alot and what you said had given hope to me in a way that maybe some day down the line you know we could get back together? Im an old old man says: I cant give any hope coz I dont know.. at this mo I dont think so so please dont, I said in 6 months things may be different but you shouldnt wait to see if they are.. we may never get back, or we may in two years or we may be mates for ever and thats it Im an old old man says: would that bother you Im an old old man says: ? kim says: i didn't say i was going to wait...i'm just going to take things as they come. It would bother me if we were mates and i still feel for you like i do and i had to see you with someone else. Can i ask you why you don't think that we'd get back together in the future...just curious Im an old old man says: I don’t know why..... I didn’t say we wouldn’t just need my head sorted and life sorted kim says: i know you do *hug*...and i know now that's not going to be achieved in 6 months time...it might not even be achieved by this time next year...or in two years time.... Im an old old man says: I know Im an old old man says: me and you mates? hand shake? kim says: yeps *shakes hand* kim says: does this mean youre going to be celibate for the next few yrs lol Im an old old man says: Of course just like you kim says: lol of course kim says: i agree with something you said to me ages ago that i didn't understand till recently Im an old old man says: what honey?> kim says: when we were lay in bed watching tv right before you said you love me you said you wish you'd met me in 5 years time...me too Im an old old man says: xxxxxxxxxxx Im an old old man says: hey if we just use this, we can lol kim says: says: lol lol meet up for a date in 5 years time that'd be interesting...would your ginger beard be grey by then...change your name you! lol i feel like im talking to an old man posing as a young man Im an old old man says: you always have been Im an old old man kim says: haha, well my old dear i think i need to go to bobie land kim says: get my booty sleep! kim says: lol kim says: nighty night, sweetdreams...see you in 5yrs time lol xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Im an old old man says: sweetdreams baby Im an old old man says: ]xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx The Next Day…The Last Time Week Spoke: kim says: *poke* i've got a suggestion Im an old old man says: wehqat is it? kim says: might make things easier for us both...see what you think...whether its a good idea or not....i think it would help us both to move on if we didnt contact eachother for a while....and then in a few weeks or months whenever...when i've moved and had all the upstairs built and a conservatory put in...i could get in touch with you again and see how we both feel about meeting up and if all is good you kim says: could come to the house warming party lol kim says: what do you think? Im an old old man says: That sounds good honey Im an old old man says: if thats what you want thats cool with me Im an old old man says: x kim says: yeah i think it's for the best but i'm not sure how long it's going to be we could be moving in anything from 6-8 weeks then after that there's all the building of the bedrooms upstairs etc so it could be a few months Im an old old man says: ok kim says: i will get in touch eventually after everythings finished...it'll make it easier for me and you to move on with our lives for a while...and then maybe a friendship between us would have a better chance at being successful instead of one of us getting hurt because the other ones done this or that etc because to me i feel like we're still together because at the beginning of our relationship we saw kim says: eachother once a week and the rest of the relationship was online and over the phone kim says: and it dosnt feel all that much different Im an old old man says: it amkes sensexx kim says: i miss you but i missed you while we were together because we never spent enough time together...and we dont spend any time together now....im waiting around for your phone calls and texts etc but thats what i did while we were together and it's not healthy and it's not allowing me to move on the only thing that's changed is im not getting upset and angry at you for not spendin enough time with me kim says: i think it'll help me personally alot Im an old old man says: what ever you need, but if need me ring me or txt etc ok? kim says: i will do...and same with you ok...that doesnt mean if you forget pats wifes name text me lol you'll have to ask loz and co hehe Im an old old man says: lol kim says: is it ok for me to block you for a while on here then...so i dont come home drunk and get tempted to talk to you kim says: it wont be forever Im an old old man says: yeah ok kim says: okies, i'll speak to you...in a few weeks or months then...look after yourself and if you need me i'm just a phone call or a text away ok. byes for now steveypoo! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Im an old old man says: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx kim says: *hug*
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