blind_otter Posted April 21, 2006 Posted April 21, 2006 I hate him and I want him to die in a fiery car crash. No, I want his house to catch on fire and I want him to be perfectly healthy, but have his genitals burned off tragically in the fire. My BF broek up with me AGAIN. This time he said that he lied when he got back together with me the last time, that he was just using me for sex. And now he's too tired of dealing with my crap to tolerate me for my pussy. So he's leaving. I want to say I'm angry but I am sad and I feel so disgustingly dirty. Like I need to walk through a car wash. I wish I had never had sex with him. He had a small penis.
luvtoto Posted April 21, 2006 Posted April 21, 2006 IF it makes you feel better, BO, I am in the same boat. On the verge of yet another breakup with my BF. Grrr... Why can't these guys act like freakin' adults?
Author blind_otter Posted April 21, 2006 Author Posted April 21, 2006 I don't know, dude. You would think by their mid-30s they would at least have a vague recollection of what tactics NOT to use. I mean come on. There's no excuse. Young guys have an excuse. They have no idea what they're doing. You cannot tell me a grown man who has a child and a failed marriage doesn't knwo what he's doing. a**h***s.
Author blind_otter Posted April 21, 2006 Author Posted April 21, 2006 My phone is ringing. Call away you f***ing bastard. I am throooowing your toothbrush in the toiiiiilet. And then I'm going to give it back to you with the trashbag of your belongings.
luvtoto Posted April 21, 2006 Posted April 21, 2006 This time he said that he lied when he got back together with me the last time, that he was just using me for sex. He actually said that to you? Yep. a**h***. At least your guy's calling...mine is pouting at the moment. Trying to teach me a lesson. whoooo.
tinktronik Posted April 21, 2006 Posted April 21, 2006 What a nasty thing to say! BO , you seriously need to respect yourself enough,(at least more than this) to stay OUT of this relationship.Makes me want to smack him.
Author blind_otter Posted April 21, 2006 Author Posted April 21, 2006 He actually said that to you? Yep. a**h***. I don't know if he was just saying it to piss me off, but I guess it doesn't matter. My vagina is off limits. He also threatened to call my parents. I laughed. And tell them what, that I stole your science fair project? Jesus Christ, this guy is 35 years old. He then told me to find a 14 year old boy to date and I said, what?? I thought I WAS dating an especially pruney 14 year old boy with lots of sun damage.
Author blind_otter Posted April 21, 2006 Author Posted April 21, 2006 He is crazy. He just called and said his son is spending the night at his house and that I'm welcome to come over and join them?! What? Uh. What?? What the f*** is going on, dude, I am in the twilight zone. I hear the music. What's that? The doorway the the fifth dimension? Help. I cannot have normal breakups. Apparently I sent him over the edge. Or he sent me. Whatever. This is weird.
luvtoto Posted April 21, 2006 Posted April 21, 2006 I don't know if he was just saying it to piss me off, but I guess it doesn't matter. My vagina is off limits. He also threatened to call my parents. I laughed. And tell them what, that I stole your science fair project? Jesus Christ, this guy is 35 years old. He then told me to find a 14 year old boy to date and I said, what?? I thought I WAS dating an especially pruney 14 year old boy with lots of sun damage. What the hell is his problem? Why is he being so nasty? Tell him to grow the FuC& up! Don't let him make you feel bad about yourself.
tinktronik Posted April 21, 2006 Posted April 21, 2006 Maybe you are really crazy and your bf dosn't exist.owweee owweee .....its all in your mind , you create signifigant others ,to be jerks occasionally.Oh wait no , thats somebody else .....BO do you really want to be with someone who would say an awful thing like that?
TravelLight Posted April 21, 2006 Posted April 21, 2006 Er what? He was just using your for sex? C'mon please
Author blind_otter Posted April 21, 2006 Author Posted April 21, 2006 No, I don't. But I feel stupid for falling for his lies thusfar. I feel like an idiot. I honestly thought that he cared. At least a little. But then we kept fighting and fighting and he never pulled any punches, not even about my Dad. Like when I spent the day at the hospital with Dad on Tuesday, the only thing this guy could do was bitch about how my Dad didn't want to meet him. We basically argued this morning because he hung up on me. I called him back and I was pissed, like why did you hang up? I just wanted to say "I'll talk to you later, love you." It mushroomed from there. Our relationship was like a cum stain. The love dried up in about an hour.
Author blind_otter Posted April 21, 2006 Author Posted April 21, 2006 Er what? He was just using your for sex? C'mon please I know he wasn't. But I sort of believe that, even when you argue, you shouldn't say certain things. Like "I was just using you for sex"....if you don't mean it, grow the f*** up and DON'T SAY IT.
luvtoto Posted April 21, 2006 Posted April 21, 2006 But then we kept fighting and fighting and he never pulled any punches, not even about my Dad. I would think a punch in the face would feel better than that. Who does he think he is?
Lishy Posted April 21, 2006 Posted April 21, 2006 Ahhhhhhhh but who is worse? Him for saying it or BO for answering the phone to him when he called? These pissy guys only treat us how we allow them to! Wankers!
Author blind_otter Posted April 21, 2006 Author Posted April 21, 2006 I can't believe I let someone be like this to me and I take it. Only from those who have access to my vagina. Only those people can treat me like s***, but they sure can do it well. I was dumb to even answer the phone.
Art_Critic Posted April 21, 2006 Posted April 21, 2006 B_O.. Please stop beating yourself up.. See him for what he is.. a measly little f***ing a**h*** that has a small dick . Stop answering the phone and if it rings again just laugh it off... because you are worth more than he can give you.. He can only give you bad feelings and make you feel like crap.. He has said things to you that no man should ever say to a woman..
shelters Posted April 21, 2006 Posted April 21, 2006 Girl, you are the one who gave me the awesome advice on Boundaries!! Do it for yourself now! :)
Noos Posted April 21, 2006 Posted April 21, 2006 I do think some guys are awful enough to actually use women for sex and then tell them afterwards when they break up with them - because when a guy doesn't care for a woman anymore, her feelings are expendable. Buck up B_O. He's obviously socially maladjusted and a total loser who is not worthy of your time. You've got a great sense of humour and a pretty face - that should be enough for you to have the confidence to dump him and the ability to find someone far better. On a side note - does love conquer all - including small penises?
Lishy Posted April 21, 2006 Posted April 21, 2006 BO - Ring him back and tell him he has a small cock and he can go and find some other poor soul to use for sex! Let him feel your pain! He is a pussy! and you are far too good for him! You rock!
Author blind_otter Posted April 21, 2006 Author Posted April 21, 2006 Love was conquering the small penis. I really didn't even care. And you know what? I never said a word about it to him. Even when he was saying horrible things to me. I never said it. I wanted to, oh boy did I ever want to....but I just couldn't. Something is different inside me now. Things I would have done just months ago, I cannot bring myself to do. I get freaked out. Scared to get into relationships. Every time this happens I hold people farther away from my heart. I don't let them in close at all now. It's just really ground into my head at this point, that I am valuable to men for sex, and as eye candy. Ever since I was 4 years old I was taught this, and it's just reinforced every 7 years or so. I know logically that I am worth more. That other men who are better find me valuable. But in my heart I can't believe that anyone would value me as a partner for more than my sex. That's why it was such a low blow when he said that. He knows what happened to me. He knows that is my biggest fear. And he said it any way. And I can't find it in my heart to be angry?! What the f*** is wrong with me? That I can get angry about the stupidest, lamest, most random things. Like road rage. And when it really matters, I can't stay angry. I can't do it.
Noos Posted April 21, 2006 Posted April 21, 2006 I understand what you're saying B_O, but iof you aren't angry, are you at least sad? I think maybe you can't get angry because your experiences with men have left you emotionally exhausted.
Author blind_otter Posted April 21, 2006 Author Posted April 21, 2006 I don't know. I am numb right now. Not sad, not angry. My stomach hurts. That's about it. I get like that when I'm upset. My stomach hurts like a bitch, like someone is stabbing me repeatedly in the gut. But other than that physical sensation, and my skin feels like it's crawling. Like I need to take a shower. But I showered twice today so that makes no sense. I feel physical sensations, not the emotional ones. I think I am overloaded right now. It's like, when he said that one thing, about using me for sex -- it totally took my mind back to another place and time. One that didn't even involve him. Then again I did pick up an ashtray that belongs to him and smashed it in the garage. It didn't make me feel better and I had to clean it up afterwards. Story of my life.
Sassy Posted April 21, 2006 Posted April 21, 2006 Sorry to hear your ex is such an ass!! Why do men treat women this way? Do they think women have no feelings and can just use them for sex? I will never understand how men work . Tell his small penis ass to go f*** hisself!!! That your kitchen is closed to him for good. You deserve better than him . Hugs to you Blind.
Author blind_otter Posted April 21, 2006 Author Posted April 21, 2006 aw sassy thanks. I wish he would understand. That he hurt me so many times. But I kept it to myself. I held my breath and shut my mouth. I think being in abusive relationships has messed me up, because even if I wanted to communicate to a good guy, I probably couldn't. I'm just so used to shutting up and dealing.
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