Big_A Posted April 20, 2006 Posted April 20, 2006 I had another dream about her. I dreamt that she was finally telling me that it is over. I've known it for a couple weeks now but we have yet to say our final words. In fact we haven’t really spoken in two weeks. Since she travels for work the apartment is still full of her stuff. I've begun moving things into the garage that I know she will get in the split and I went to Ikea to replace the dinning table. I guess that I'm starting to come down with the "...she's not coming back" blues. I'm trying to assemble the new table and I just start crying. I feel so humiliated.
My_Other_I Posted April 20, 2006 Posted April 20, 2006 My guess is that you know that you still have to face her and that's bringing you down, even though you know it's over. Until it's REALLY over and until you go NC, you cannot really start moving on. Cry all you want, there's nothing wrong with that. Why don't you call her up and finish it? Why don't you pack her stuff and put it in the storage? Face it now rather then later and start your recovery now. hugs:bunny:
Author Big_A Posted April 20, 2006 Author Posted April 20, 2006 You're right of course. I still find I am deluding myself while I am packing up her stuff. I tried to call her already, but she has not yet returned my my call. I am getting her stuff out and into the garage. Odds are good that I'll hear from her by the weekend and I think that is why I'm freaking out, because I know that it is close. Thanks for the support
My_Other_I Posted April 21, 2006 Posted April 21, 2006 Good! Get your closure, take few days off, take off, clear your head, scream and cry and get back into the cycle of life. I know I'm making it sound symplistic, emotions can play with you quite a bit, but in my mind that's a good start! Keep posting, LS helps at times
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