Twink Posted April 20, 2006 Posted April 20, 2006 Hello I am new to this site. I have been through a horrible divorce, I have a three year old child. It has been three years since I was with my ex husband. I started to date of friend of mine, we hit if off from the start, after 6 months we decided to move in together, he paid rent, helped with food and my son. He was wonderful to us and my son became very attached. We made a promise that we could work through anything but the cheating thing. Well we had our ups and downs, there was problems with my ex an his ex ect... We always seemed to work it out. I was feeling really sick for a month, finally went into the doctors, so I was feeling a lot better, then I was have aniexty about my ex for a few weeks, having a hard time a work, was coming home irratated and crying alot. I was taking it out on him. Well Easter morning he said he was sick and not going to the family dinner, I said it was rude and why wont he take some meds to feel better, well a few hours later I apologize for saying that. Then he never gave my son his easter present he promised for weeks to give him. I was a little upset about this but just kinda blow it off. Well Easter night I come home and all of his stuff is gone, he texts me and tells me he will explain later, I go to his friends were he is at, he wont come out but his friend does, tells me to wait to talk to him tomorrow. I told his friend to get my key back, which I did. The next day he calls just to say we can't be together, his was irratated everything he came home, he changed. No real explanation, I told him it is because of the way I have had a bad attitude I can work on it and make things right, to where he enjoys coming home. He told me he loves me and he knows I love him, but if he was to come back it would be the same. I bagged him to come home. He said we are pretty much over. Of courst this just hurts like a knief. My poor son is wondering were he is, he is a truck driver so my son thinks he is on the road and will come home soon. I keep calling him, he answered once told me there in nothing to talk about and to get up go to work and take care of my son. I hate the way he left, he told me he could not face me and deal with the crying. I just keep calling and texting him. I cant help the urge. I have a birthday party invite tonight at a bar we both hang out at, my mom said I should go and just be strong and ignore him and enjoy my life. We are going to run into eachother alot, I don't know how I am going to handle that either. He was always there for me helping me cope with my ex husband, helping with alot of things that come with life. I am very confused as to why he left, and for some reason I have that hope he will come back. I can't shake it, it keep calling. I don't understand why god continues to give me so much heart ache. I am so tired of being strong. Should I just leave him alone and hope he just needs so space. If he still loves me, why wont he reconcile with me. I am a very open person with communication, that is what is strange we have always been able to work on things. I just need some where to vent. I just want him to come home, I know we can work things out, I know we can. Do you think if I leave him alone for a while he might call? Do you think I should go to this party? Twink
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