What does he really want?

[Geminieyez]

Me and a guy that I've known since jr.high had been seeing eachother for a month and we came to find out that we've been thinking and looking for eachother that whole time til now.One day he seen my bestfriend and her bf at the gas station and he told her to give me his number and said that I was the "fish that got away" and so my bestfriend had tried to give me his number and I didn't take it cause I had a bf at the time and was trying to work things out with him.So a year later things were rocky in my relationship so I thought I would ask my bestfriend for his number,turns out she threw it away cause she thought I didn't want it.So one day I was looking on the internet about something and to my surprise I found his picture on the website where he works at, I was like omg.So I decided to go up there to talk to him and see what could happen with me and him.

Well it turned out that he wasn't there that day to work.So his boss gave me his number and I called him and we talked and he wanted to take me out to the movies and out to eat and all.But I told him later but later that night he was out helping someone move and he was around where my parents lived and he wanted to see me, so I was like ok sure. He came over and gave me the biggest hug and smile and we talked in the car.I asked if he had a girlfriend and he said he haven't dated since highschool that was like in 99' and I told him I had a bf and things were rocky.So,the next week we went out to eat and watched a movie and made out.

Since then we've been seeing eachother for a month and talked about how we planned on being together.We told eachother that we love eachother and also been intimate.I told him I was going to leave my bf when I got myself together as getting my own car and apartment and he said he was going to wait for me.Well I've never told him I lived with my bf and I was going to tell him before he brung it up and he was really upset.He assumed I've lied and kept it from him and I didn't.I've hurt him and I've should of told him in the first place..But the day after he was upset he said he still loved me and he's been thinking about me.Then he stop calling and won't talk to me or answer my phone calls.I didn't understand he needed time to heal and think about things.But the whole month I've been bugging him with phone calls,email,text messages and going to his work place to try to get him back.He didn't even wish me a happy birthday and when I went to go see him, he couldn't really look at me in the eye and he also had a problem he had to deal with was that he was in a car accident.He said he had to deal with his car accident situation and my situation and somethings he's not worried about right now and he's trying to get himself together.It seem like he didn't really want to talk and he said that "we'll talk later",but he never called.

Its been over a month and still nothing from him,I was giving him time to think for a month later but a few days later,I saw him.It was a bad situation because I was with my bf at the mall.Me and him walked right passed eachother looking at eachother and didn't say a word.I kept looking back at him and we kept looking at eachother.I don't know what he could of been thinking but that was bad.He went to sit down just looking at me while I was walking into another store and it seem like he wanted to say something but I'm not sure or wanted me to go over there but I didn't think that was a good idea cause I was with my bf and I didn't think he really wanted to talk to me and when I came back out without my bf he was gone.I mean I already told him me and my bf already talked about breaking up and everything,I was getting ready to move out in a few days and this had to happen.I think it made things even worse.It hurt to see him though but I know it hurt him more to see me still with my bf.So I tried calling him that night and he didn't pick up the phone.So the next day I went to his house to try to talk to him and see if me and him was over or we still had a chance.He was home and I knocked on the door but he wouldn't answer the door and I text him that I was there to talk to him and he wouldn't still open the door. I don't know what to think, it must be over and that he's really hurt.But I still don't understand how come it had to be like this when he said he loved me and wanted to be with me,he said we were going to try but this really hurt him.I've been trying to get an answer from him but he won't talk to me and I don't know what to think anymore.Maybe he still wants to be with me but really hurt or maybe he gave up?

I don't know what to do,should I leave him alone for awhile and see what happens? or should I just try to let go?, any advice will help.