blue_monday Posted April 19, 2006 Posted April 19, 2006 [FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3] [/sIZE][/FONT] [FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3]So, my girlfriend broke up with me 6 months ago. We originally met while we were both in college in California and worked at the same place. We saw each other for two years. During those two years, I graduated and moved to Boston for a job while she still remained in school. She would visit me occasionally and we never really talked bout the future of our relationship, we were just together and that was that. After 5 months of being in Boston, I moved back to California to be with her because I missed her so much. [/sIZE][/FONT] [FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3] [/sIZE][/FONT] [FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3]We lived together for the last year of our relationship. Near the end, she gained a new set of friends and started spending more time with them over me. Eventually, we stopped talking to each other and I tried to break up with her. She pleaded for me to stay, and because I never really wanted to break up with her, I stayed. A month later we went to a party where she ignored me the entire night, I went home early and she stayed out all night and came home the next morning. She swore that she did not cheat on me that night however, that next morning she broke up with me and I moved out of the apartment. [/sIZE][/FONT] [FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3] [/sIZE][/FONT] [FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3]For the next few months I was on auto-pilot, just working and living. I was hurt with what had happened, but I knew that I had to move on so I kept my contact with her to a minimum. But, we slept together and made out a few times about 3.5 months after we broke up. I wasn’t certain if she wanted to get back together and didn’t really press the issue. I asked her if she would like to go out and do more things together but she declined so I took this as her saying that she didn’t want to get back together.[/sIZE][/FONT] [FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3] [/sIZE][/FONT] [FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3]Now a whole six months after our initial break up I found out that literally 4 days after I moved out, she slept with and started a relationship with the guy whose party we had gone to the night it all ended. This really broke my heart considering how fast she moved one, and that the guy was one of my “friends” and that she never even told me about this relationship. After finding this out, I told her that I never wanted to speak or see her again. But two days after that, I found out that a really disturbing incident had happened to her. Learning of this really disturbed me and made me think about what it would really be like if she wasn’t around to talk too. This stirred up my emotions and I realized that I was still deeply in love with her.[/sIZE][/FONT] [FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3] [/sIZE][/FONT] [FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3]Cut to a week ago, I run into her and break-down saying how much I love her and still need her in my life. She said that “I don’t see us ever getting back together” and that “I think it would be good if we didn’t talk or see each other for awhile”. Now last night, a mutual friend of ours was in an accident so I left a message on her machine when I knew she wouldn’t be home telling her what happened. She called back later, and we ended up talking for 2 hours not about our friend and not about our relationship just about how our lives were going and what we were doing. During the conversation she brought up the fact that she would really like it if she went to L.A. with me. (before we broke up I had promised to take her to L.A. for her birthday) and at the end of the conversation she said that it was really a pleasure to get to talk to me again. [/sIZE][/FONT] [FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3] [/sIZE][/FONT] [FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3]This has really left me confused, she knows that I am still in love with her and one week ago she says she doesn’t want to see me anymore yet yesterday she want to make plans for going on a trip together. Is she trying to get back together with me? Should I ask her about this? I don’t know if I could take another round of rejection. [/sIZE][/FONT]
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