Last Nights Conversation With The Ex...Need Outsiders view

[NightsInWhiteSatin]

I need an outsiders opinion on this situation this is a conversation between me and my recent ex b/f. We broke up because his life is too busy for a relationship to work and we were slowly going downhill so he broke up with me before we ended up hating eachother then we got back together 2 days later for a week then he dumped me online again haven't seen him for just over 3 weeks. I've avoided msn alot recently and during this time needed some space etc...and he's phoned me, text me, emailed me and posted comments on my profile on myspace over and over telling me how much he's missing me and how down he is and allsorts as if i was the one who dumped him and for the first time in ages we spoke last night on msn and this is the convo. I'm 'kim'...and he's 'Im an old old man' (he thinks he's old because he's just turned 26).

 

Im an old old man says:

you ok, the house and everything going ok?

kim says:

yeah im good, everythings nearly sorted with the house...got the surveyers coming round this week to check for damp and damages in the walls and things after that its just a matter of a few weeks before we can move

kim says:

hows you?

Im an old old man says:

ok, just a bit down, but ok

Im an old old man says:

glad everythiongs going ok with the house and things

kim says:

howcome you're feeling down?

Im an old old man says:

miss you loads hon!lol

Im an old old man says:

and work and gigs and quiz and you know, everything, being at home having no money, tax returns loads of stuff

Im an old old man says:

miss toby

Im an old old man says:

lol

kim says:

lol i think he misses you too..

kim says:

ive been missing you too...had a 6 second dream about you last night which didnt help..lol

Im an old old man says:

6 secs?

Im an old old man says:

lol

kim says:

yeah i've been contemplating learning how to do the tango and things and i dreamt i went to the lesson and i could do it all and i was dancing with my partner and when i turned to look at him it was you for a few seconds and i touched your face...could feel your ginger gerbil beard and everything lol

Im an old old man says:

yeah lol?

Im an old old man says:

Probably is a gerbil at the mo, been lazy and depressed, not shaving

Im an old old man says:

lol

kim says:

lol even let myself have a sneaky cry a few times recently

Im an old old man says:

same here ive said goodnight to the cuddly thing everynight aswell, but she sleeps in my second draw

Im an old old man says:

x

kim says:

tut tut...if i knew she was going to live in a draw i would've had second thoughts mr lol

Im an old old man says:

no!!! I have said goodnight every night and give her a kiss, ....... sometimes with tongues

kim says:

....no ....wait i'm not surprised...you always were a bit of a perv lol

kim says:

i've missed your smile got plenty of pics but none with the happy smile...moody bugger lol

Im an old old man says:

I know

Im an old old man says:

im glad you got your face on here missy... about time

Im an old old man says:

i look at that pic of you every night too

Im an old old man says:

well, thats a lie.. i look at it if I’m in the right frame of mind otherwise I get all like a puffy cry baby lol

kim says:

lol i did have a pic of you...i framed it but everytime i walked in the room i cried so i sent it to you thinkin you wouldnt be as emotional over it as me

Im an old old man says:

it was by my bed but its in the draw coz i was

kim says:

to be honest i've put everything in a draw too...got really angry one night because i was hurting so much everytime i was reminded of you got a bit mad at you and things and put you in a drawer lol but when i went to take things out i got upset looking at everything again so now it stays in there except for my steveypooh bear

kim says:

i like to read the cards you've given me every once in a while

Im an old old man says:

i really need us to keep sayin hello and things you know? dont block me a things please coz i dont wanna lose a girlfriend and a best mate all in one

kim says:

don't worry, i've not been blocking you and i won't be doing...i've avoided msn alot recently...ive been feeling all sorts of emotions recently and it felt so weird talking to you the other night when you phoned me...i felt like i know you but i dont know you all at the same time..if it makes sense...it was hard for me to be me aswell...but i think that was the shock of it lol

Im an old old man says:

i understand, i reallllllllyyy do lol. In my head I’ve said it should be 'a clean break' etc but I need to have this contact with you, even if this is it, cause we've been through a lot of things, and firsts, together and we shouldn’t lose touch with each other. It wasn’t going to work, and we tried, and it hurts everyday knowing I was the reason it didn’t really work, but the way things are, I need

Im an old old man says:

you here on the end of a phone or email or msn etc, and ill always be here for you and I really, really hope you know that. Any f***er messes you around ..I'll jump up and bite there ankles

Im an old old man says:

lol

kim says:

can you bite your own ankles? lol only messing lol i've tried not to blame you for the reason it wasnt going to work and i've tried not to hate you for it and not get mad...its not your fault the way your schedule and priorities work out

Im an old old man says:

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kim says:

huggle?

kim says:

i luv u you big burke lol

Im an old old man says:

*hugs*

Im an old old man says:

luv you 2

Im an old old man says:

hows family etc?

Im an old old man says:

your nan

Im an old old man says:

?

kim says:

it's jennys birthday tomorrow, just been blowing up balloons putting up banners and things, nans still the same...been doing alot of painting walls and garages and fences for her lol kellys...kelly...toby has a new purple basket and is my tear licker awayer lol mum and dad are fine

kim says:

hows everyone in lovely simister? your mum and dad and loz etc

Im an old old man says:

veeftones fine her, stu and missus arfe apprantly fine, though only seen her once.. bloody jews...lol...I still got a yellow frisby in my car. ant has got an audition for the bill and coronation street..erm and thats it really

kim says:

oh...i thought stu and abi had broken up...spoke to him the other day

kim says:

veeftones???

Im an old old man says:

oh right well maybe, hes not mentioned her lol

Im an old old man says:

veryones

Im an old old man says:

feckin keyboard

kim says:

how are you thinking of us as being friends...will we just be talking on here and texting? i think it's too soon to see eachother just yet personally but i wouldn't rule out never seeing eachother in person again...just wondering what your thoughts were..

Im an old old man says:

I dunno, i love talking on this and phoning and texting and things coz I wanna keep in touch. I want to see you soooooooooooo much at times, but its daft. Lets just do this and when you moved house and when Ive finshed school things for summer maybe we can meet up and say hi and things? It'll be sooo good to see you, I miss your eyes loads lol, but it didnt work and it wont and we'll be great mates

Im an old old man says:

and you know it!

kim says:

i know, yeah it sounds like a good idea....can i ask you something...you know when you said you need time to sort your life out and in 6 months time things might be different...was that a white lie because i've been thinking about it alot and what you said had given hope to me in a way that maybe some day down the line you know we could get back together?

Im an old old man says:

I cant give any hope coz I dont know.. at this mo I dont think so so please dont, I said in 6 months things may be different but you shouldnt wait to see if they are.. we may never get back, or we may in two years or we may be mates for ever and thats it

Im an old old man says:

would that bother you

Im an old old man says:

?

kim says:

i didn't say i was going to wait...i'm just going to take things as they come. It would bother me if we were mates and i still feel for you like i do and i had to see you with someone else. Can i ask you why you don't think that we'd get back together in the future...just curious

Im an old old man says:

I don’t know why..... I didn’t say we wouldn’t just need my head sorted and life sorted

kim says:

i know you do *hug*...and i know now that's not going to be achieved in 6 months time...it might not even be achieved by this time next year...or in two years time....

Im an old old man says:

I know

Im an old old man says:

me and you mates? hand shake?

kim says:

yeps *shakes hand*

kim says:

does this mean youre going to be celibate for the next few yrs lol

Im an old old man says:

Of course just like you

kim says:

lol of course

kim says:

i agree with something you said to me ages ago that i didn't understand till recently

Im an old old man says:

what honey?>

kim says:

when we were lay in bed watching tv right before you said you love me for the first time you said you wish you'd met me in 5 years time...me too

Im an old old man says:

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Im an old old man says:

hey if we just use this, we can lol

kim says:

lol meet up for a date in 5 years time that'd be interesting...would your ginger beard be grey by then...change your name you! lol i feel like im talking to an old man posing as a young man

Im an old old man says:

you always have been

Im an old old man says:

lol

kim says:

haha, well my old dear i think i need to go to bobie land

kim says:

get my booty sleep!

kim says:

lol

kim says:

nighty night, sweetdreams...see you in 5yrs time lol xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Im an old old man says:

sweetdreams baby

Im an old old man says:

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About half an hour after going to bed i recieved a text message from him saying 'Sweetdreams baby...and no more crying you xxxxx'

 

I really could do with some opinions on this whole situation because im quite happy about all of this and my best friend and my mum read the convo and saw a completely different thing and were not very happy with him but didnt exactly have time to explain why because my friend had to leave and my mum was going out to work. thanks guys xxx