Zeppelin456 Posted April 17, 2006 Posted April 17, 2006 This is ridiculous...it's been four (ish?) months and I'm still no good. Today, I was looking for an old email from a professor and I stumbled upon an email from my ex from November, and it was just very sweet. It brought me completely backwards. Why can't I get over this? I really want to just send her an email now and say hi. I know it will only make me feel s***tier. How long does this f***ing last?
sick of it Posted April 17, 2006 Posted April 17, 2006 theres no answer to how long it lasts...but it will last longer if you send something... because there will be a hope or expectation for something in return.
shelters Posted April 17, 2006 Posted April 17, 2006 The delete key is your f r i e n d. I have had to delete all the emails I either sent to my ex or received from him b/c happening upon them by chance would be too painful. As for pictures on my computer, I have put them into a folder and buried them within another folder. Perhaps I should delete those but I'm just not ready to. Other tangible items I have stored up on the top shelf of my closet, including a photoalbum he made of us for me for Valentine's Day (about a month before he broke it off).
WeaknPowerless Posted April 17, 2006 Posted April 17, 2006 5 months for me man. I realized that the other day and it made me sad that it's been so long. A few weeks ago I was excited that I was feeling better. The last few days though, total sadness and anxiety. Pissed off at a few lies that haunt me. I just can't come to grips with someone who turned out to be such a deceptive liar. It pokes at me constantly, and I resent her immensely for her callousness. I can't seem to let certain things go, no matter how better off I am because of it. Such an extreme contrast between what I thought I knew and what I'm presented with now. I want it to be over and her to just be erased from my mind Music seems to be my only constant escape. One day though, one day I'll be better. And the person she is, and the lies she tells, she's going to have a life of hurt if she doesn't change. And there will be a day that I get my satisfaction. Whether it's me rejecting a plea from her, or I finally find the person I thought she was. I'll be on top, and I'll be able to laugh at the water under the bridge. And I'll watch her sorry self just float on by. (Yup, a touch of bitterness, I'm not sorry for it).
zarathustra Posted April 17, 2006 Posted April 17, 2006 This is ridiculous...it's been four (ish?) months and I'm still no good. Today, I was looking for an old email from a professor and I stumbled upon an email from my ex from November, and it was just very sweet. It brought me completely backwards. Why can't I get over this? You are not getting over this because the relationship meant something to you. Its not that easy to get over the sweet and nice memories. I'm a sentimental junkie and kept all my ex's IMs to me. I may never read them again, or I may read them again and wonder wtf was I thinking or I may have just fond memories that I was able to love someone more than I imagined possible. Do you suppose that you have a hard time accepting the end of the relationship because you harbour hope that something will happen and he will come back to you? Just wondering. For me, I had a hard time accepting not the end of the relationship, but how the end came about. I was resentful of how a great friendship was sacrificed by my ex because he wasn't thinking with the head on his shoulders. For me, I mourned the loss of the friendship more than I did the actual relationship. Don't get me wrong, when he convinced me that our love was possible, I fell in love with him with my whole heart and my whole being. I really want to just send her an email now and say hi. I know it will only make me feel s***tier. If you know it will make you feel worse, then don't do it. If you know you would die from drinking poison, would you? How long does this f***ing last? I think as long as you don't find that one thing that offers you closure and if you obsess about what could have been, you won't get over it. It took me a while to get ther (6 months), but when I found my perspective, I felt much much better.
Author Zeppelin456 Posted April 19, 2006 Author Posted April 19, 2006 I think as long as you don't find that one thing that offers you closure and if you obsess about what could have been, you won't get over it. It took me a while to get ther (6 months), but when I found my perspective, I felt much much better. Oy thanks. I've been feeling better in general lately, just wrote all this during a particularly bad moment. What's the one thing that offered you closure?
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