Brittanyjean06 Posted April 17, 2006 Posted April 17, 2006 Well I guess you can say I was doing fine, yes he was still on my mind, but seeing him in the car the other day, kinda set me back some, It caused me to have just a really sad dream last night, now I feel like complete crap, I'm trying to tell me self " don't let those set backs disminish all the time you have spent trying to heal your self " But I have came to the conlusion that the pain won't go away, until I find love again, which wont be for maybe two years haha..I feel like you don't really heal those first 8 months, but you burry the pain inside you, and It comes out when you least expect it..I really don't know If I will ever stop loving him, I should since he wasn't all great and dandy any way..but they say you never get over your first loves? C'mon that sounds like bull crap? what if they weren't the right one for you at all, I understand pinning over someone for a long time, like over three years, But I don't want to be that person, but I am the type of person who lets my emotions get the best of me. any advice?
Chinook Posted April 17, 2006 Posted April 17, 2006 ... it took me five years to get over the break-up with my first love. He went off with someone else and I never really trusted anyone for a long time afterwards. I wouldn't mind but it was a dating-boyfriend-girlfriend relationship. We didn't live together or even hang out... so it may take time. My last [real] break-up is a relationship of 10 years. So gawd-only-knows how long that will take. Know what though..? I'm not in any hurry. Right now, the pain of having lost him is all I have left... once that is gone, there will be nothing. But also, once that is gone, I will be ready to leave it behind and I intend to do so properly whether that takes 5 minutes or 15 years. It's hard m'dear but setbacks do happen. At some point in the future you will be able to think of your ex with fondness and it won't be so painful. Right now, I can barely recall ANY memories of my ex or the things we said and di because our break-up was and has been so traumatic. Take your time and take care of yourself
Author Brittanyjean06 Posted April 17, 2006 Author Posted April 17, 2006 ::sighs:: It's just really hard to except that I am actually enduring all this pain, that I'm actually going through this. I really can't speak much to my friends about him any more, No one really knows what to say, they say the same thing over..and I'm used to not bringing it up so I keep it inside. But I will come here , share my pain with all of you, I have been for the past 8 months, It's still really hard to hear some songs, but there are sad songs I can listen to and cry to and feel a tad bit sorry for my self, Other songs just make me feel weird from the past. Do we all have to grieve in brutal ways? It's a part of life, but I meen what is the secret to truly moving on from the past, Time? I think that is the only thing that can truley heal my heart, and It will just take ALOT of time
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