Im i just being crazy... ?

[LiLMegz]

Ok

so

i've been with this guy for 4 years. We met in high school, and i lived next to his girlfriend at the time. Well anywayz from the first time i saw him i was in love ! but he was dating my best friends older sister. She was cheating on him at the time, I know it but never said anything. They finally broke up and we started hanging out. Well i really started to like him, and we started getting close and kissing and stuff like that. My friends asked him why he wouldnt date me, he replied with hes not ready for a relationship. the next day i came to school he was dating this gurl ( who was known as a slut) it crushed me i cryed and cryed. I had never done anything before except kissing. He was the first guy to show me love. Well i hated the gurl he was dating. We still hung out cuz my best friend was dating his best friend. Well he ended up cheating on his gurlfriend with me . (might i add she was cheating on him too) They broke up after that.

 

Well me and him took it slow and he never would give me the gurlfriend term. Well he ended up being my first 8 months later . Well a week later i found out he had slept wit his ex on my prom day and then came and slep in my bed. so we didnt talk for months. Well he came to my graduation party to talk to his best friend, and some how we ended up making up that night. So we went on as FWB (friends with benfits). but we said we wouldnt sleep with other people. He would always have gurls calling his cell, leaving notes on his car. and i would come up to his work and he would have gurls in his car with him. things were screwed up for me i was hating life but couldnt leave him cuz i loved him. I came to the point were i would call the girls and tell them not to call his cell anymore. and even make surprise visits to his work and he's guy friends became good friends with me and would tell me anything he did.

I got tired of it and told him i was going to find a boyfriend. Well i met this guy at the boardwalk one night we hungout wit the same people and we started talking. josh didnt seem to care at first. Then he started acting funny. I wasnt even doing anything with the guy but hanging out. I didnt want to be with anyone but him. Well then i confronted him about it and he was like your going to ruin your chance with him. and started pushing me off on him. When we all hungout together he acted weird and everyone knew it. Well i ended up sleeping with the guy. I didnt tell him cuz i felt bad and guilt. He ended up hacking in to my journal online and found out. He cryed and freaked out. I felt

so

bad. All my friends told me to forget it dont worry about it. But i still felt like the worst person in the world. Well after months things went back to normal. We still hungout everyday, slept together, We were like boyfriend and girlfriend but he didnt want to give me the title or admit it to anyone. When people would call him my boyfriend he would freak out and make me feel like s***. But yet i still stayed with him. We started arguing all the time. Then we would be fines for a month.

 

This continued up until this month. We got in to a stupid fight and it brought up the past. I told him that if we werent friends then none of my friends would talk to him. ( they have been telling me to get rid of him since day one) Well he said who, I told him i wasnt saying any names except kelly (who i have known for 10 years) he smiled and said you think so. Well he told a friend a year before that, that he had done things with her. then denied it. I never said anything to her. But she was known to mess with others gurls boyfriends. So it clicked in my head and i freaked out. He denied it somemore. i was so angry i called her and told her what had happened and she got all weird about it. Well i told him to get out and never come back told her never to talk to me again. So we didnt talk for a week and i was have a hard time cuz i was so used to having him there and i love him. I wen to get my stuff from his house and we argued i cryed and then i left, When i was leaving he had tears in his eyes. He told me to text him later so i did and we got back on a speaking level agian. but her well i didnt want to have anything to do with her. So anyways we were talking and only seeing each other for a few mins every few dayz. I felt horrible i was tripping out, crying my self to sleep. I felt so alone. So i called him we talked it out and got back together, He admited that i was his gurlfriend and that everyone knew it yet his myspace still says single. So i was happy again he stayed the night he was so loveably. Well today i went to his memaws house like i do every year for holidays . and his brother told me that kelly had come by the house and they were hanging out all night. He told me he hungout with john and ricky the whole week. SO i freaked out and started cry, I got out of his car on the side of the road and walked in the rain for 2 hours. HE followed me the whole time tryin to get me in his car. Told me i was crazy and psycho and that i need help, So my friend came and picked me up and he called me later. I told him to tell me anything i would get upset about that happened over the week . HE told me they had hungout one other time with her. i hung up and havent talked to him since.

 

SO i need any advice that anyone has to give me! Am i being psycho ? Should i stay away? I NEED HELP !

 

Lil Megz

[tikigods]

You are a booty call, he doesn't want to call you his girlfriend cause that means he cant sleep around anymore

 

why not get some self respect and find someone that will treat you right and not just someone that he can have whenever he feels like it. HWy be your boyfriend when he gets everything he needs out of you and gets to have fun everywhere else as well?

[aleatoryd]

This guy is in no way treating you like his girlfriend - especially when he barely admits it to anyone else. If he isn't really calling you his girlfriend then he isn't that serious about you. What he is doing is getting free sex with no hang ups from you and other girls.

 

His admiting you asre his girlfriend was just a ploy to stop you leaving him. He doesn't respect you and probably never will. He probably doesn't respect girls right now due to his attitude towards them and his "successful" sleeping around. Do yourself a favour don't risk catching something off this guy. Don't waste your emotion. You are still young. Find someone else who treats you properly and stay way from him.