Guinevere04 Posted April 12, 2006 Posted April 12, 2006 I have been doing so well, I thought. It's been about 6 weeks of no contact. I have been seeing a guy that I was really good friends with in high school (15 years ago) and everything felt like it was on a positive path. But the new guy that I am seeing just doesnt really do anything for me physically. He have tried some things but he is scared of me because he claims that he has been crazy about me for so long. I wanted to be interested physically but all I can see is my ex. He was very muscular and kinda dark skinned and just yummy. My "friend" guy is thin and fair skinned and very unexperienced. Physical attraction aside, he is much more mature than my ex. He has an excellent job and my future could be so much more. I know that sex is not everything but physical attraction is alot. My ex and I broke up because we argued alot but when we were good we were really good. I just feel like eVERYTHING with this guy is going to be just mediocre, no passion. I broke down and texted the ex and told him that I had some of his stuff. After about two days of texting here and there, we ended up on the phone. He knew that I had been seeing the "friend guy", and I asked if he had been seeing anyone. He said he went out with a girl about 3 times but he didnt want to see her anymore because she was only 20. He is 25 and I am 32. I wanted to puke. It made me realize that if he could have interest in a 20 year old, then what could he have seen in me? I know that I need to move on, and this new guy could be perfect for me if I would let him, I just need to get over my 25 year old but it is so hard. I know that contacting him was a bad thing, but I miss the way he smells, the way his hair feels, the way he kisses. This other guy is just there. I know that I shouldnt compare the two becuase it isnt fair. I just felt like I was doing so well and had a break down.
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