jen_jen_heartbroken Posted April 10, 2006 Posted April 10, 2006 Springtime. I hate it. Everyone is coupling up, and all I have is the knowledge that he is so close....so nearby....but doesn't want to be with me. 3.5 months after the break-up and I still feel awful. Horrible. And missing him still. And everywhere I look there are couples strolling along in beautiful weather, sunny days, holding hands...making me sob.
the_alchemyst Posted April 10, 2006 Posted April 10, 2006 Oh, I know what you mean! Last spring was so good for us . . . we were so happy. Ugh. But now whenever I go outside and see all of these couples being all lovey-dovey--it makes me angry! And this is the worst kind of anger because it's not so much anger as it is jealousy. I wish I could be one of them. I wish I could be strolling down the street in the nice weather with him. I wish I could be holding his little hands that I love so much. I wish . . . I wish . . . But in a way, it's not just the season that sucks--everyday sucks! For me it's been a month since the break-up and I miss him just as much . . . so, I know what you mean about the pain not seeming to stop. Jesus.
My_Other_I Posted April 10, 2006 Posted April 10, 2006 But on the other hand you can be happy for yourself and by yourself. Just think about how many of these couples will be unhappy next spring, and you've already passed the worst stage.
travellingman Posted April 11, 2006 Posted April 11, 2006 Springtime. I hate it. Jen, I understand. But could you at least cheer me up with your cute looking cartoon avatar?
MadDog Posted April 11, 2006 Posted April 11, 2006 Just think about how many of these couples will be unhappy next spring, and you've already passed the worst stage. How completely morbid. You're like the anti-cupid or something. Personally, I love how girls start wearing skimpier clothing this time of year. Now that I'm single, I can actually enjoy it without any guilt.
Touche Posted April 11, 2006 Posted April 11, 2006 I remember a long ago springtime when I was miserable. I had just moved out of my boyfriend's house. I was hauling a bag full of my shoes up the stairs of my apartment building. I was miserable. It was a very bad breakup. Well, the damn bag broke and all my shoes went tumbling down the stairs. They were strewn all over the place. This was an outdoor stairwell. I sat down on the stairs just miserable. Then I looked over at the gorgeous square across the street. It was a beautiful square with lots of trees and flowers and fountains and then as if my life couldn't get any worse, a wedding party pulls up. I just couldn't bear anymore pain and began sobbing right there on the stairs in full view of anyone walking by. I've never ever forgotten that day. You know why? Because it was almost all uphill after that. I sobbed. I felt sorry for myself. I asked why everyone else seemed to have what I didn't. And then after awhile (could have been weeks, months..don't remember now) I picked myself up by the boot straps and told myself that I will once be as happy as that bride in the park. I deserved it and I wasn going to just have that. Funny, but I've said this before on LS, my most depressing, miserable, down times were always followed by my happiest and best times. Other people have said the same thing. Do something great for YOURSELF and one day soon you will LOVE spring again. It's now my favorite season!
johan Posted April 11, 2006 Posted April 11, 2006 I remember a long ago springtime when I was miserable. I had just moved out of my boyfriend's house. I was hauling a bag full of my shoes up the stairs of my apartment building. I was miserable. It was a very bad breakup. Well' date=' the damn bag broke and all my shoes went tumbling down the stairs. They were strewn all over the place. This was an outdoor stairwell. I sat down on the stairs just miserable. Then I looked over at the gorgeous square across the street. It was a beautiful square with lots of trees and flowers and fountains and then as if my life couldn't get any worse, a wedding party pulls up. I just couldn't bear anymore pain and began sobbing right there on the stairs in full view of anyone walking by.[/quote'] That's interesting... A friend of mine had his wedding completely ruined because when he and the bride and their party got out of their cars at some beautiful square to get pictures, there was this psycho woman bawling and throwing shoes at them from a staircase across the street. The bride's nose was broken and so was the camera man's camera. They never caught that crazy woman...
Author jen_jen_heartbroken Posted April 11, 2006 Author Posted April 11, 2006 Jen, I understand. But could you at least cheer me up with your cute looking cartoon avatar? Is that better? I still feel more like Scrat.....I keep losing my acorn.
Touche Posted April 11, 2006 Posted April 11, 2006 That's interesting... A friend of mine had his wedding completely ruined because when he and the bride and their party got out of their cars at some beautiful square to get pictures, there was this psycho woman bawling and throwing shoes at them from a staircase across the street. The bride's nose was broken and so was the camera man's camera. They never caught that crazy woman... That was hilarious! You made me laugh! And you know...I think that WAS me! I had forgotten that part!
Author jen_jen_heartbroken Posted April 11, 2006 Author Posted April 11, 2006 That was hilarious! You made me laugh! And you know...I think that WAS me! I had forgotten that part! Hey! Don't take credit for my work! Boy, did I ever clock her good with my pointy Jimmy Choos.
My_Other_I Posted April 11, 2006 Posted April 11, 2006 How completely morbid. You're like the anti-cupid or something. QUOTE] Lol. I am just old enough to acknowledge the reality. Of some things, anyway. Being a girl I don't really appreciate looking at other girls, and there's not much to see in guys unless they walk around naked.
Touche Posted April 11, 2006 Posted April 11, 2006 Hey! Don't take credit for my work! Boy, did I ever clock her good with my pointy Jimmy Choos. Oh that was YOU! Ok..and she deserved it too. Damn bitch! NO ONE deserves to be that happy!
MadDog Posted April 11, 2006 Posted April 11, 2006 Being a girl I don't really appreciate looking at other girls, and there's not much to see in guys unless they walk around naked. Hooking up with a girl who liked to check out other hot girls would be awesome.
Author jen_jen_heartbroken Posted April 11, 2006 Author Posted April 11, 2006 Oh that was YOU! Ok..and she deserved it too. Damn bitch! NO ONE deserves to be that happy! No kidding. You bet she deserved it. Effing June bridezilla! I think she and her 25 bridesmaids were particularly horrified when I started ripping the heads off their carefully wrapped bouquets of calla lillies. But the best was when you helped me key "skank" on the side of the limo.
magda Posted April 11, 2006 Posted April 11, 2006 That's horrible. Spring is a time for new beginnings and letting go of all this crap and men who don't care about you. It's a great time to be single. Plus don't you love all the spring colors in stores? It makes me want to redecorate everything in turquoise.
Sand&Water Posted April 11, 2006 Posted April 11, 2006 Springtime. I hate it. Everyone is coupling up, and all I have is the knowledge that he is so close....so nearby....but doesn't want to be with me. 3.5 months after the break-up and I still feel awful. Horrible. And missing him still. And everywhere I look there are couples strolling along in beautiful weather, sunny days, holding hands...making me sob. I envy you, for some reason, I just envy you. Consider yourself lucky, that you've loved, lived in love, breathed love, and received love. That in and of itself, is a gift that you've received and offered to that special someone. It'll happen again, but now you'll be wiser. Spring love is the air and all around. It makes my stomach turn and form nots when I see couples cuddling and holding hands in the sun, too. But I quickly shift gears and tell myself that there are better things to come. Cherish your history (your love history, that is).
Author jen_jen_heartbroken Posted April 11, 2006 Author Posted April 11, 2006 That's horrible. Spring is a time for new beginnings and letting go of all this crap and men who don't care about you. Um, that would be every man. It's a great time to be single. It is? According to who? People who like casual dating? Plus don't you love all the spring colors in stores? It makes me want to redecorate everything in turquoise. I don't redecorate, or do anything resembling nesting unless I'm in love. All the bright colors do is make me more aware of how dark and gray my heart feels.
Author jen_jen_heartbroken Posted April 11, 2006 Author Posted April 11, 2006 S&W... I may have loved, but I am not so sure that I was ever really loved. I doubt the reality of it all.
Touche Posted April 11, 2006 Posted April 11, 2006 No kidding. You bet she deserved it. Effing June bridezilla! I think she and her 25 bridesmaids were particularly horrified when I started ripping the heads off their carefully wrapped bouquets of calla lillies. But the best was when you helped me key "skank" on the side of the limo. Hoo Boy! Let me never get on YOUR bad side! LOL! But it was fun wasn't it? It sure wiped that arrogant little smile off of HER face! That'll teach her to be so happy and flaunt her happiness so openly out in public like that when others are miserable!
magda Posted April 11, 2006 Posted April 11, 2006 It is? According to who? People who like casual dating? I don't redecorate, or do anything resembling nesting unless I'm in love. All the bright colors do is make me more aware of how dark and gray my heart feels. Forget dating, I'm talking about taking trips to the beach, hiking and hanging out with friends. Maybe you are not a shopper, but a spring/summer wardrobe and a new hair color always cheers me up.
Brittanyjean06 Posted April 11, 2006 Posted April 11, 2006 Yeah, but be happy any ways, I know the weather holds alot on someones mood, but Nothing lasts forever, I look at all cuples and just have such a pesstimistiv point of view that If I give them advice, It is dread ful. lol
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