jhurtinct Posted April 8, 2006 Posted April 8, 2006 Hello all I haven't visited the site in a few months, if you do a search you can catch up. Right now my problem is lately I have been feeling a distance starting so grow between my boyfriend and me. We stop couslening about one month ago and I know we need to go back again although I would like to try to work on it ourselves before(so we learn how to deal with ourselves, sometime). He has been very moody lately and almost mean at times and I tell him and he really doesn't do much to apologize either. Our sex life is almost not all (again) most of which I will take blame for, he wants me to be more aggressive but its hard for me because I've gained about 15lbs since we got back together and I'm very insecure about myself, which inturn makes me very depressed and so on and so on and so on and you know the rest. Tonight he just left to go out and for somereason he looked more attractive to me than he has in along time he just looked really good. He knows I'm jealous and still just really teases me about it more than reassures me. I feel like crap now I just want him to come home, I have a trust issue from the past to begin with and now off coarse because I'm lacking so much confidence the first thing I think is some skinner pretty girl will take him from me before he comes home. Its a sick way to think and feel and really I hate it I just feel sick to my stomach right now. It doesn't help I have an issue with always thinking something bad will happen to someone when they are away from me and that makes me tense also because he went to have drinks with his nephew. Sorry to ramble I just want to feel comfort and secure and confident and I needed to tell someone:) Any words of wisdom would be appreciated.
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