NightsInWhiteSatin Posted April 5, 2006 Posted April 5, 2006 OK...is it possible he can love me but not want to be with me because we will end up falling out big time because he can't give me the time and attention i need? He can't quit any of his jobs he needs the money to survive...therefore he can't give me the time and attention i need and deserve and we were starting to argue and fall out and everything was slowly deteriorating...so he split up with me because he couldn't bare loosing me altogether. I got all worked up before...my nan was giving me advice and things and this is whats going through my head that i want to say to him...is it possible i could be wrong and slightly unfair about the whole you don't love me because you won't be with me thing because maybe he really does love me enough to sacrifice our relationship to not loose me altogether? He isn't an ogar bear in mind...he's the most lovely person ever otherwise why would i love him? When we have spent time together when we were still in a relationship together he'd been so knackered and stressed after all the work his being doing that he never had any energy left to give me the attention and affection that i needed so i felt as though i was constantly fighting for it. Anyway this is what's been going through my head all morning with some influence from my grandma...see what you think... If you love me….you’d want to be with me and if you love me and want to be with me you’d find a way. I think you care a lot about me and have confused those feelings with love. You’re 26 years old and you’ve never committed yourself 100% to a proper and long term relationship and I don’t think you’re going to anytime soon. I was willing to commit to a long term relationship with you…be there for you in every way possible, have many great times with you, spend many nights making love to you all night, drag you back to Llandudno on our year anniversary, give you all the love in the world and even give you the world if I could etc etc…(not marriage or anything I’m only 18 lol) but now I’ve realized that I deserve someone who loves me enough to put me first…and you don’t….that’s what’s been confusing me…you say you love me yet most of the time even when we were together you don’t and didn’t act like it. I felt as though I was constantly fighting for your attention, affection and time….and that’s not right….that doesn’t sound like love to me. We haven’t been together for almost two weeks now and to be honest it doesn’t feel any different than when we were together…a lack of you being around…a lack of your attention and affection….us talking on msn and by phone…me feeling lonely all the time. In the past 8 months you’ve never been able to put me first and I don’t think you ever will.
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