dragonsbreath Posted April 5, 2006 Posted April 5, 2006 Well first off ill start out with myself.. I am a very logical thinking person, im bored all the time because of situations at my house (I live with a very manipulative/controlling person) so I dont get out much... I don't have friends.. The friends I do have I have chosen wisly... People view me as a a**h***, but they know I am very generous and nice. The reason they view me as a a**h*** is when someone says somthing about religion/love/a tragedy that has happend in the past, if they listen, I will force (not really force, but activly help) them relise the positive side of the sitation, from thier views on how love is satans work(yes ive argued this with the christianic people) to the holocaust (yes I can prove that it was helpfull to the world) (no I do not hate jewish people)... I tell things how they are, and I seldomly give second chances... But all that, givin the oppurtunity I am not a boring person. Give me the right place right time I can be fun and very energetic (yes I am a bit lazy)... The very few people who actually know me always come to me for advice on romance to just dealing with life... Sometimes it just seems like I have all the answers.. Unless its my problems... Thats a summery of what im like... Now, knowing that. There is this girl I like... I dont think its just teenage infatuation because ive liked her for 4 years, and when we talk I just feel a connection... Like we meet in the middle... Like I said earlier I usually have the answers to about anything to do with relationships... Ive even helped grown men in thier relationships... Lets go ahead and get one thing straight, I do not brag about anything I do. I am not self centered, and honestly I do not feel like ive done anything to get recognition, so normally I would not go around saying stuff like this, I am just giving some information about myself... This is my "problem"... Ive liked this girl for 4 years. This year ive gotten to talk to her alot because we have been doing a "high class" assignment that requires the best students in school.. Now I am in this assignment because I am "a genious" on a computer, which I know I am good at computers, but people view me as a god of some sort... She is a straight A all AP classes and advanced sciences... Ive put her in the back of my mind only thinking about her when I see her, uptill we got on this project... We started talking a bit, it seemed that any team I was in on the project (which I moved around teams alot cause im sort of like jack of all trades) she had alot of interest in, she would drop interest as soon as I left that team... So as soon as I noticed that, there she was in the front of my mind again, just like the first time we ever met.. She is a very nice girl, she gives everyone a chance, she likes everyone.. She has no biased opinions, even tho she runs with the "very popular" crowd at my school, she does not single people out, she views everyone equil... She is very energetic and puts full effort into anything she does... I just found it weird about the team thing in our project... She would switch, almost like she wanted to be with me... Maybe im jumping ahead of myself... I do that alot, I can put 2 and 2 together and come up with 49... The thing is every time I see her in the hall she gives me a warm welcoming smile.. Now me, I dont smile much... I was born into the drug game in dallas texas and ive seen/done things that no person should ever haft to experience... I always smile back with my half ass attempt of a smile, but that seems never to bother her... Another thing is she asked me to help her with a project for one of her classes.. She gave me some information and I had a question about it, so I called around for about 10 min and got her number, and I called her. Now everyone I called has asked how I got thier number, but when she answered she sounded pleased to talk to me (not sure if its because she is the nice warm hearted person she is or what) but she didnt even ask how I got her number... Now that might sound like little stuff, but see I dont get to be around her much... But the thing that has convinced me to even pursue somthing with her is one day we were staying late on the big project, it was about... 7-8PM when we were done for the day, and I was about to walk home like I normally do (only because the a**h***s at the drivers license place dont feel I have enuff proof that I am who I say I am...) and she offeres to give me a ride.. So im like, hell yeah I dont haft to walk(im somewhat lazy)! We were just talking, and I noticed she had a marijuana sticker on one of her books, and I was like I didnt know you smoked weed, and she was like yeah I do, you know us pot heads haft to stick together, people look down on that kind of stuff... And I was like, yeah I know what you mean, and she asked me if I did and I told her yeah, that I have for years, and she says that she had no idea(had to be a joke...)Then she says, wow, I think I like you more and more as I learn more about you, then she says, not like I didnt like you before, but I feel like I really like you... That wasent exact, but it was close to those lines (its been a while)... Now she being the person ive liked for 4 years, I was stunned that she would say somthing like that, to me anyway. I didnt know how to deal with somthing like that, so I cant tell you exactly what I did... Because I dont remember... But anyway, thats bits and peices of information, I know I leave things out... It happens when I write... But my question isnt what should I do, or make a decision for me.. Im asking, am I foolish not to pursue somthing with her, even if its just the couple months longer she is still living here? Like I said, I have a mental connection with her, but I duno about her to me.. It seems that way, but I always overthink things when im in the situation...
MadDog Posted April 5, 2006 Posted April 5, 2006 Im asking, am I foolish not to pursue somthing with her, even if its just the couple months longer she is still living here? Like I said, I have a mental connection with her, but I duno about her to me.. It seems that way, but I always overthink things when im in the situation... You should go for a fling. Just give her one hell of a ride she'll never forget.
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