stillhere Posted September 10, 2006 Posted September 10, 2006 Girl, you know i'm here for you! Both on this site and our other one. You ever want to talk, you know where to find me. (((LNF))) I hope you get that promotion, he better leave you be with that one. Who is he to try and f*ck up your future because he's too much of a coward to either tell you the truth or sh*t and get off the pot. Keep yourself busy and do your best to avoid him at work. You can do this!! You're p*ssed off at him, use that to your advantage!
Author lovernotafighter Posted September 11, 2006 Author Posted September 11, 2006 LNF - count me in your corner too! I am proud of you and happy to help however I can! (((hugs))) thanks, I need all the support I can! it's good to know people are rooting for you! I have been in MM land for so long ,Ive missed out on so much, I am reminding myself of what assh*le I was to let the people who really do care about me down in place of MM...that's a good log to throw on my fire of anger..believe me. (((hugs))) Isn't a liar someone who says one thing and does another? Isn't a liar someone who promises something and delivers nothing? He pretty much just quoted the definition of liar, and yet doesn't feel it applies to him. Sheesh. This guy apparently forgets what he says the minute it leaves his mouth. Remember these words, they will keep your anger burning enough to build up your resistance to him. I have stayed up on your story and I wish you the best. You have a lot on your plate, but you sound strong and resolved. Good luck. I really think your right...for me this time it's anger fueling me..before I was hurt and thought of him a ruined man..now I just think he's been yanking my chain and getting off on hurting me..lets him know I care. I swear to you just the day before this happened he was asking me about my money situation and where I was going to live and the progress I've made on my divorce...a week before that he was all upset at me because I said we didn't have a future because he always held the belief we did..but as you see..and he did this before; when called to the mat he fails...typical MM. thanks for reading and supporting me...I am a lil actress, I'm gonna have to act my ass off on this one..it can be done right? (((hugs))) Girl, you know I'm here for you! Both on this site and our other one. You ever want to talk, you know where to find me. (((LNF))) I hope you get that promotion, he better leave you be with that one. Who is he to try and f*ck up your future because he's too much of a coward to either tell you the truth or sh*t and get off the pot. Keep yourself busy and do your best to avoid him at work. You can do this!! You're p*ssed off at him, use that to your advantage! thats the worst thing though..that promotion will put me right in harms way...I'm damn if I do am damned if I don't. see I'll be in our customer service department and he is now the shipping supervisor,I'll have to call him to check on orders..augh!! but I'll ave my life back with that promotion cause it will be in the mornings. the other job there I just got is easy as hell and I can avoid him better,however it's at night..Grrr! but the office job is the only way to move up in our company..I have to start at the bottom up and I will need those skills to really leave that place and him because he intends on having a career there,which I did till him..sucks to 'cause I was there first..doesn't seem fair..but it's my bed I have to lay in it. even his friend thought he was trying to f*ck it up for me..wow he just wants me under his thumb..it's such a eye opener. I have no choice but to work with him on Monday,Wednesday and Friday because like Saturday I volunteered to do all this work before this happened...it was a nightmare..but I have no choice..I am worried about my mental health right now,I can't afford to go crazy. this affair already put me on meds which I quit taking about 3 weeks ago and I think it has helped me see things clearly and this was going to happen one way or another. I'll do like you said ST and keep busy..I have a bunch of books to read and a house to clean,calls to make, it's gonna be okay, I just wish I didn't have to see him I don't know how I'm gonna pull this off I really don't. but I'm gonna fake it the best I can. thank you so much,I will be calling the strength of you and all the the other beautiful awesome women I've had the pleasure to meet on these boards, you don't know how much this means to me (((hugs)))
BenThereDunThat Posted September 11, 2006 Posted September 11, 2006 Hang in there, hon. You know I know how hard it is to work with him... I wish I could give you some advice there. I just stayed chipper as h*ll to my co-workers. Kind of a fake-it-til-you-make-it thing. That helped make the days go by. (also spent a lot of time on LS and LH...not sure if you can do that with starting a new position. lol) All I can say is that it sucked, but I made it through and I know you will too.
BenThereDunThat Posted September 11, 2006 Posted September 11, 2006 I love to read but I found I was to anxious to sit still and concentrate on a book. One of the things I did that really helped was downloading a bunch of mindless games from Yahoo or MSN. I would play those stupid things for hours. But that was time I wasn't thinking about him, writing him emails, or just sitting and fuming. Not recommended for long-term obviously! But it did help me through some of the toughest days.
stillhere Posted September 11, 2006 Posted September 11, 2006 I know how that depression goes, believe me i do. I called on you guys for help during that insane period and you were there for me, and i will do the same for you. There is a lot going on in your life, with the end of this A and your D situation, but it will all soon die down. You have lost your "best friend" and everything you were familiar with, your comfort zone, but it was all clouded over, and now you can see that. That is the first step to healing. Yes, you are going to have to "act" at work, i know how that goes. For the longest time i was able to hide my depression, and then i snapped. I don't ever want to get to that place again. Cry when you have to, i always did. But i was damned to do it in front of anyone. I always felt better after a good bathroom cry. It lets all that pent up emotion out, and then i could go back to functioning normal again. You are a very strong woman, and you can do this. You've realized that he is not good for you, keep that in mind when you feel weak. Remember all those bad times and the lies he fed you. Don't think of the good times. Those can be resurrected in the future when you are strong enough to resist temptation. Bury them as deep as possible, they are no good to you right now.
Jessie61 Posted September 11, 2006 Posted September 11, 2006 I just changed his passwords to the account he wrote me from so he can't e-mail me. I also blocked his other e-mail address from my account and deleted everything he has ever sent me...I'm about to try to block my phone as well..thanks for being in my corner LNF, I am sorry to see that things didn't work out as planned/promised/hoped... I know that feeling very well myself.... But the good news is that things WILL get better. You are right; HE is the only thing that drags you down and hold you back. You will do MUCH better without him. I know that it will be difficult working with him, but I know that you will get through this... Just remember how it feels "different" this time.... It IS different.... I smiled when I read about you deleting mails and blocking accounts... I did this too, quite clinically. It does help! And I think you should continue to do whatever it is that might help you! AND, last but not least, there are LOADS of us who will support you going through this. You are far from alone... Remember that!
Author lovernotafighter Posted September 12, 2006 Author Posted September 12, 2006 I am so lucky..You ladies are the coolest women on the planet (((hugs to all)) thank you so much...I came home and read your posts and truly have a genuine smile on my face from you guys being so wonderful :-) I thought today was going to so fricken terrible...but it was nothing compared to Saturday, this is a whole different thing this time,like you said Jessie it really IS different! on my way to work I played kelly clarkson 'since you been gone' and just kept playing the part in my head " I'm so moving on" it seemed to motivate me very well...I also kept telling myself what a creep he was and asking myself what I seen in the guy (btw I don't hate him or anything I just know it will be easier if I think of him as some phantom or ghoul or something) . it's a good thing I did that..I seen him heading in my direction and walked right past him, he called my name and I stopped and he asked me "what was wrong?" now that is absurd right ladies? I said nothing...he said you look really mad..I said no I'm not mad and smiled and left him there..that made me mad though..so any way he stopped me again when I was walking by him and asked me for a few minuets of time..he said his boss the plant manager called him and asked him if there was something going on with him and me...he said he told him we are very good friends and are professional..his boss asked him are you sure? I said why are you telling me this..he said well I was just wondering if you heard anything..I said "all the time" who cares, your answer was fine, if it bothers you then ask him why he said that..and he said "no, I don't care." I wonder if he was trying to remind me we are friends or something, or just trying to talk..but things worked out in my favor..this new guy asked me right in front him if he could have my hours in the department and I eagerly agreed letting MM know I will no longer be seeing him there any more..good. he tried to talk to me one last time and said goodbye..I said I hope life works out for you the way you want ,he looked at the ground then started muttering something about his debt *sigh* I said you'll be okay..and I left him again... I felt so relieved you guys..man,I gave my locker and locks to the department away and it was liberating. I couldn't block his number on my phone so I labeled him the liar cake eater..that should be a good thing for me to see if he ever attempts to call me. one person at work knows how close me and MM are and seen we were fighting and I kinda let him know that our friendship was over..and he told me he's been wanting to tell me his prospective for a long time but was afraid to tell me. he said he knew we were close friends but believed I lite up this guys life..he said every one thinks he's in love with you.. (why don't I see this this way) of coarse I said thats silly,we are friends..this guy went on to say he was worried about me cause he would see MM waiting for me to just walk by him..he said he seen it a bunch of times. he said he worked for him and my MM never showed emotion,never smiled or laughed but when he'd see me he'd turn into another person..how can all this be possible? it's weird to hear this stuff cause though I know my MM cares I never seen this stuff this guy was telling me..but it's to little to late in my world..seriously. theres only one thing my MM can do to change things at this point,and really that's slipping through his fingers pretty fast..and I don't see him doing it ,so that's that. I am proud of myself control today and it will get easier right? I hope so ,keep your fingers crossed kay? love yens ~LNF
BenThereDunThat Posted September 12, 2006 Posted September 12, 2006 LNF!! You did AWESOME today!!! I am so proud of you!! Like you said "so that's that". I know you can do it. You're more than halfway there. That should be your mantra: "so, that's that"!!!
Author lovernotafighter Posted September 12, 2006 Author Posted September 12, 2006 LNF!! You did AWESOME today!!! I am so proud of you!! Like you said "so that's that". I know you can do it. You're more than halfway there. That should be your mantra: "so, that's that"!!! LOL!! thank you BTDT, I felt pretty awesome,I was shocked how he slid off me pretty easily really. I like the mantra 'so that's that' ,I actually picked that up from the little rascals when two of the kids ruined all the peanut butter and jelly sandwich's...used to love that show :-) but him being in my sight I thought would have been way harder..it wasn't, he must have really done a number on me this time..is not seeing him gonna be harder I wonder?
BenThereDunThat Posted September 12, 2006 Posted September 12, 2006 Honestly? Who knows if that will be easier or not. (re seeing him or not seeing him) Don't think about that. Just think about how great you did today. Think about how pretty you are, how smart you are, how much you have to offer. DON'T WASTE THE PRETTY!!
BenThereDunThat Posted September 12, 2006 Posted September 12, 2006 P.S. - I loved the Little Rascals too!
Author lovernotafighter Posted September 12, 2006 Author Posted September 12, 2006 I like that...don't waste the pretty! I'll be thinking that today...it's something to me till I met him my self confidence was on top of the world..now, it still is pretty high, but I think to myself what did I do wrong..whats wrong with me? never before did I ever think like that..and me even asking him such a question makes me mad because I know it's not me, it's our situation and him being a huge coward. I have people hitting on me everyday, I am well educated and pretty damn funny to everyone I know so what is wrong with me? I made this stupid choice to have a relationship with a MM,that's it. and a lousy one at that...though he is really cute..ugh. cuteness only goes so far though then whats left? I suppose later...much later..I'll think and thank him for helping me realise my life is stagnate and he help me dislodge myself to a better life..I hope he can glean something positive as well...but I don't think I will be caring if he does or not. I was this morning thinking what a fool he is if what he has told has any truth to it at all..cause I'm gonna have a clean slate..no bills,no kids, just me..and I was willing to help him, support him and not stop him from visiting his child and in doing so seeing his wife everyday...I can't think of many women who would do such a thing without getting pissed. my spin on it to him was this..you come home and sleep with me and that's all I need to know. if you and you wife handle this maturely your son will not be hurt like you think cause you will see him and do activities with him everyday, the way I see it you avoid going home now because of your W therefore missing your son's waking hours and sleeping on the couch? this makes no sense, and that's why I know it has to be a lie.. he claims his wife won't allow that..I said allow? as a parent you have every right to your kid and if your married to such a shrew that would use your son against you I have to question why you stay further. as a parent he can impose himself on his wife whether she likes it or not..I woulds stay out of it...so what do more do I need to think. it's a pity if he is telling me the truth, because I'm his best chance out of that mess. it's a pity if he is lying that I ended up loving him enough to do such a thing for him.that's not something I think I'd do every day just because I am kind hearted or anything. from now on when I see him I'll just shake my head and feel sad for him for being so stupid,because I guarantee he will get involved in another affair and it's not gonna be this way..I hope I never find out the outcome.. that being said I don't want him to know anything about me either..he isn't privy to me anymore..he has no right to be. I like it just like that...I'll be fine. I have a sick feeling in my gut..but that's it. I can live with it, I actually today feel relived beyond measure. like a weight has been lifted off my back,I haven't felt this way before ,I am so glad :-) thanks for listening to me vent...I know it's helping me.
stillhere Posted September 12, 2006 Posted September 12, 2006 I'm glad that you are doing so well. He doesn't deserve someone like you. If he is telling the truth and his M is that horrible, let him suffer if he chooses to do nothing about it. By not seeing him, hopefully it will be easier. He will not be present to force himself into your world. You can at least somewhat control your thoughts. Out of sight, out of mind. You're doing amazingly well, and even surprising yourself. Take time to find you again, and then date one of those single, handsome hunks that keep hitting on you. Congrats LNF, i'm so proud of you!
Author lovernotafighter Posted September 13, 2006 Author Posted September 13, 2006 thank you SH that means allot to me...today he talked to me again..NC doesn't register with MM I guess...but he wanted to talk to me about the rumour mill again..he never cared before.. he interrupted me talking to a co-worker and acted like he wanted to talk to my co-worker then my co-worker wouldn't leave me alone so it made it very obvious my MM was hanging around for me...I should have ran actually but I I let him come and ask to talk. then he excused himself and that was that..how the hell am I gonna go NC when I give him a chance to say something to me...do you guys think I should give him hell? I already told him we couldn't be friends so what do I have to do to get him to avoid me? I got mad that this happened so I agreed to go get some food with a same age co-worker who is smitten with me..thought it would help and it did and didn't..this guy asked me when my divorce was final if I'd go out on a real date with him...I said we'll see..he said **** it just marry me!! oh dear lord. I made plans to go out with a couple I haven't seen in 2 years..I texted with my ex I dated back in high school (he accidentally sent me a message ,I seen him in march and gave him my number..odd huh? then this weekend we ended up zinging messages back and forth like we were a couple of kids) and am thinking of inviting him with me as my 'date' sad thing is my ex is exactly like my MM...very handsome and very self absorbed...I know it would get my mind off MM but this ones a real pistol. out of the frying pan and into the fire with ol LNF
stillhere Posted September 13, 2006 Posted September 13, 2006 Girl, you are my long lost twin!!!! Trouble seems to follow us where ever we go. Maybe it's our "i'm too nice and can't be a b*tch" personalities. If you are truely my twin, the MM's lack of consideration will p*ss you off soon enough and you're going to put your foot down. Go out with that ex and have fun.......no expectations. Just be careful! HUGS!!!! You're doing great!
BenThereDunThat Posted September 13, 2006 Posted September 13, 2006 I agree with SH - you're doing great! And yeah, go out with the ex and just have fun! As far as complete NC when you work with him, it's damn near impossible. Just be guarded in how you speak to him. It gets easier over time. I'm at a point where I can chat with mine around the office every once in a while - if we wind up in the same vicinity. Drove him crazy at first that I could be so casual, I think. Luckily he wasn't too verbal about it, mostly just pouted. When he offered to walk me to my car from the company box at the ball game the other night, it was hard to say no but not REAL hard. 2 months ago, or even 1 month ago, I would have caved. I had even drank a few beers and I still didn't cave! Now that you're at this point, you'll be amazed at the inner strength you have - I know I was. So what about this co-worker who wants to take you out? Any interest there on your part?
Author lovernotafighter Posted September 14, 2006 Author Posted September 14, 2006 Girl, you are my long lost twin!!!! Trouble seems to follow us where ever we go. Maybe it's our "i'm too nice and can't be a b*tch" personalities. If you are truely my twin, the MM's lack of consideration will p*ss you off soon enough and you're going to put your foot down. Go out with that ex and have fun.......no expectations. Just be careful! HUGS!!!! You're doing great! awh thanks (((hugs))) long lost sister :-) ..I'm over the hump day..wensday...I some how got out of working Saturday and I'm gonna call the ex tomorrow.. he is a barrel of laughs and I'm sure he'll defiantly cheer me up! that is my problem,I've always been to nice and it's gotten me in to plenty of trouble...once your a mans councilor it's just a matter time before they make a move on you I'm learning..yikes!! but your right it's his lack of consideration that made me finally explode in the first place..cause really I can't take him if he left her right now any way..but his bottom of the pile crap made me finally see the light. I agree with SH - you're doing great! And yeah, go out with the ex and just have fun! As far as complete NC when you work with him, it's damn near impossible. Just be guarded in how you speak to him. It gets easier over time. I'm at a point where I can chat with mine around the office every once in a while - if we wind up in the same vicinity. Drove him crazy at first that I could be so casual, I think. Luckily he wasn't too verbal about it, mostly just pouted. When he offered to walk me to my car from the company box at the ball game the other night, it was hard to say no but not REAL hard. 2 months ago, or even 1 month ago, I would have caved. I had even drank a few beers and I still didn't cave! Now that you're at this point, you'll be amazed at the inner strength you have - I know I was. So what about this co-worker who wants to take you out? Any interest there on your part? I'm proud of you BTDT..you sound like you handled this spectacularly,working with MM is a nightmare, but I did even better today I seen him heading in my direction out of the corner of my eye and flipped open my phone and held it to my ear like it was Jesus on the other end...it was so obvious that I did it on purpose that I had to laugh,cause I am not fooling no one..good. ahh about my my co-worker, his is crazy about me ,this is true. but beyond friendship I don't feel anything for him..but he was on the draw today, when I did that with the phone he showed up out of no where and was "like so where we going to hang out?" right in front of MM whilst I was on the phone..very nice indeed. he might end up being a problem though cause he is kinda up my butt knowing I'm not speaking to MM..he was on top of that whole situation and even vocalised his jealousy over my friendship with him..I think that's why I don't have any feelings for him..it's flattering he has a crush on me but he is becoming my shadow and I am something of a hermit. thanks again for all the great advice and rooting for me ladies..I feel better everyday..though it's only the first week, it's can't get much worse than this one... last night I got a ticket and today I ran over my neighbors dog and cried my eyes out,then had to go to work to deal with BS, the night before that I got pissed off and kicked the crap out of my car and dented the hell out of it. not only this but my job still hasn't told anyone who got that promotion..I am guessing it isn't me after all only because they are in dire straights and need someone asap..plus MM shooting me in foot, btw when we had our falling out I told him his very good friend thinks he did that on purpose as well..he looked horrified..another good thing. I'm being tested like I've never been before...my nerves are shot, but it's a good weird feeling I have about the future..not sure why, but I feel better knowing I won't be worrying about MM any more, before I was doting girlfriend, always there for him, it's a good feeling I'm going to be washing his &ss for him any longer. ps-love your new avatar!
stillhere Posted September 14, 2006 Posted September 14, 2006 Ok, the worst is over.....bad things happen in 3's. MM, the ticket, and the dog. Nothing but good things will happen from here on out!!!!!! Hopefully! I'm so proud of you and the way you are handling everything. I can only wish i was that strong. Yeah, and about befriending a guy, i'm learning too. Most men want more than friendship from you. It's a known fact, some can hide it much easier than others, but deep down, they want a little somethin somethin. Ugh, men. Why can't they just understand that if we pay them any attention, it's because we enjoy their company? Doesn't mean we want to talk about the first thing that comes up and then jump on and go for a ride! If we want you, we'll let you know! Or at least i will. Note to men.....just because i'm being nice and smiling doesn't mean that i want to free willy! So co-worker shadow is a big no no. I've got one of those too (twin thing kickin in) and he's not going to quit if you pay any attention to him. Right now it looks like the ex is your best bet. He's familiar and fun, but he's an ex for a reason, so just enjoy your time with him and don't get too crazy!! Have fun and keep us updated! I want to know just how much fun he is!
Author lovernotafighter Posted September 15, 2006 Author Posted September 15, 2006 Ok, the worst is over.....bad things happen in 3's. MM, the ticket, and the dog. Nothing but good things will happen from here on out!!!!!! Hopefully! wow we are twins!! I said this exact same thing too!! but nope...yesterday they told me I didn't get that job and did bring up my attendance my MM kept talking about...so it's his fault yet again...ugh! I'm so proud of you and the way you are handling everything. I can only wish i was that strong. Yeah, and about befriending a guy, i'm learning too. Most men want more than friendship from you. It's a known fact, some can hide it much easier than others, but deep down, they want a little somethin somethin. Ugh, men. Why can't they just understand that if we pay them any attention, it's because we enjoy their company? Doesn't mean we want to talk about the first thing that comes up and then jump on and go for a ride! If we want you, we'll let you know! Or at least i will. Note to men.....just because i'm being nice and smiling doesn't mean that i want to free willy! So co-worker shadow is a big no no. I've got one of those too (twin thing kickin in) and he's not going to quit if you pay any attention to him. Right now it looks like the ex is your best bet. He's familiar and fun, but he's an ex for a reason, so just enjoy your time with him and don't get too crazy!! Have fun and keep us updated! I want to know just how much fun he is! thanks SH *hugs X's a 100* I dunno SH, I broke radio silence yesterday to ask him about football tickets and now his best friend in whole has been e-mailing me..it seems he knows a little about me and says he wishes he could have met me and would like to the next time he is in town...this is bad. so I'm gonna have to ask MM about this to. when I broke silence yesterday ,MM was heart breaking..he didn't want to look up at me and when he did he looked like he was going to cry, it tore my heart out. the co-worker is at least keeping me from MM , but he is more annoying than ever..and the ex I do miss and the dates on for tonight. it will be fun however today I have hit the bottom..MM is all in my head, I hate it. I will give you a update tomorrow, I hope something finally works out for me.
RealityCheck Posted September 16, 2006 Posted September 16, 2006 wow we are twins!! I said this exact same thing too!! but nope...yesterday they told me I didn't get that job and did bring up my attendance my MM kept talking about...so it's his fault yet again...ugh! thanks SH *hugs X's a 100* I dunno SH, I broke radio silence yesterday to ask him about football tickets and now his best friend in whole has been e-mailing me..it seems he knows a little about me and says he wishes he could have met me and would like to the next time he is in town...this is bad. so I'm gonna have to ask MM about this to. when I broke silence yesterday ,MM was heart breaking..he didn't want to look up at me and when he did he looked like he was going to cry, it tore my heart out. the co-worker is at least keeping me from MM , but he is more annoying than ever..and the ex I do miss and the dates on for tonight. it will be fun however today I have hit the bottom..MM is all in my head, I hate it. I will give you a update tomorrow, I hope something finally works out for me. Hey Babes! *HUGS* *HUGS* *HUGS* I just got in on this update! I am so very proud of you! You can do this! You know you can and so do I! Think of it this way..... Keep the mud on one side of the fence and come and join MO and myself in greener pastures! AND; Let me tell you! It is mighty lush on the single side!.....lol Much Love!
stillhere Posted September 16, 2006 Posted September 16, 2006 wow we are twins!! I said this exact same thing too!! but nope...yesterday they told me I didn't get that job and did bring up my attendance my MM kept talking about...so it's his fault yet again...ugh! thanks SH *hugs X's a 100* I dunno SH, I broke radio silence yesterday to ask him about football tickets and now his best friend in whole has been e-mailing me..it seems he knows a little about me and says he wishes he could have met me and would like to the next time he is in town...this is bad. so I'm gonna have to ask MM about this to. when I broke silence yesterday ,MM was heart breaking..he didn't want to look up at me and when he did he looked like he was going to cry, it tore my heart out. the co-worker is at least keeping me from MM , but he is more annoying than ever..and the ex I do miss and the dates on for tonight. it will be fun however today I have hit the bottom..MM is all in my head, I hate it. I will give you a update tomorrow, I hope something finally works out for me. It sucks when they pull that upset look. Men aren't supposed to be emotional, and yet he's heartbroken over you, and that pulls at your heart strings. Whether he was sincere or just playing you, i don't know, but i want to cry just seeing my MM upset over anything. They know it works. Don't fall for it, you know better now. Hope you're having fun with the ex right now!!! And you better not be thinking of MM while you're with him. As for the co-worker, i know what you mean by a distraction, but you're gonna have to keep him at an arm's length. Those types can put you in a real sticky situation, and you don't want to have to dodge another person at work, right! That's why i try not to date anyone i work with. (I know, i've already gone over that!!!) WTF is up with MM's best friend. Now that is just odd. Apparently MM filled him in a little about you, and you never met this guy? So how did he get your email. I'm thinking him and MM are up to something. I'm sorry you didn't get that promotion. Ok, bad things happen in 4's, someone lied to me!! Now it can only get better.
BenThereDunThat Posted September 16, 2006 Posted September 16, 2006 awh thanks (((hugs))) long lost sister :-) ..I'm over the hump day..wensday...I some how got out of working Saturday and I'm gonna call the ex tomorrow.. he is a barrel of laughs and I'm sure he'll defiantly cheer me up! that is my problem,I've always been to nice and it's gotten me in to plenty of trouble...once your a mans councilor it's just a matter time before they make a move on you I'm learning..yikes!! but your right it's his lack of consideration that made me finally explode in the first place..cause really I can't take him if he left her right now any way..but his bottom of the pile crap made me finally see the light. I'm proud of you BTDT..you sound like you handled this spectacularly,working with MM is a nightmare, but I did even better today I seen him heading in my direction out of the corner of my eye and flipped open my phone and held it to my ear like it was Jesus on the other end...it was so obvious that I did it on purpose that I had to laugh,cause I am not fooling no one..good. ahh about my my co-worker, his is crazy about me ,this is true. but beyond friendship I don't feel anything for him..but he was on the draw today, when I did that with the phone he showed up out of no where and was "like so where we going to hang out?" right in front of MM whilst I was on the phone..very nice indeed. he might end up being a problem though cause he is kinda up my butt knowing I'm not speaking to MM..he was on top of that whole situation and even vocalised his jealousy over my friendship with him..I think that's why I don't have any feelings for him..it's flattering he has a crush on me but he is becoming my shadow and I am something of a hermit. thanks again for all the great advice and rooting for me ladies..I feel better everyday..though it's only the first week, it's can't get much worse than this one... last night I got a ticket and today I ran over my neighbors dog and cried my eyes out,then had to go to work to deal with BS, the night before that I got pissed off and kicked the crap out of my car and dented the hell out of it. not only this but my job still hasn't told anyone who got that promotion..I am guessing it isn't me after all only because they are in dire straights and need someone asap..plus MM shooting me in foot, btw when we had our falling out I told him his very good friend thinks he did that on purpose as well..he looked horrified..another good thing. I'm being tested like I've never been before...my nerves are shot, but it's a good weird feeling I have about the future..not sure why, but I feel better knowing I won't be worrying about MM any more, before I was doting girlfriend, always there for him, it's a good feeling I'm going to be washing his &ss for him any longer. ps-love your new avatar! Aaahhh LNF - I'm so upset I missed this post! Hon, you know I'm here for ya Sister Sledge! It is so hard, but dammit, we are so much stronger than them! Seriously. When we look back on this we'll be like, wha...??? I was, what, wait a minute, attracted to that? Seriously. Excuse me, waiter? I belive I ordered someone with b**ls....
bunset Posted September 16, 2006 Posted September 16, 2006 Aaahhh LNF - I'm so upset I missed this post! Hon, you know I'm here for ya Sister Sledge! It is so hard, but dammit, we are so much stronger than them! Seriously. When we look back on this we'll be like, wha...??? I was, what, wait a minute, attracted to that? Seriously. Excuse me, waiter? I belive I ordered someone with b**ls.... BTDT... That is too damn funny! and oh, so true Oh well. LNF, Hon, you know it's gonna get better! All I can say is... drop me an email, I have lots to tell, that I'm not gonna say here, because the H has stalked me here. Let's just leave it at ... The best is yet to come, because the glass isn't half full, it's not even a quarter full yet. (((hugs)))
Jessie61 Posted September 17, 2006 Posted September 17, 2006 Think of it this way..... Keep the mud on one side of the fence and come and join MO and myself in greener pastures! AND; Let me tell you! It is mighty lush on the single side!.....lol Hear, hear..... It IS mighty lush over on the other side... LNF, you k-n-o-w that you can do this.... Stay focused on the ultimate goals and the reasons WHY you are doing this... You will be fine! I promise!
stillhere Posted September 17, 2006 Posted September 17, 2006 LNF, i'm hoping you're having way too much fun, as we haven't had an update recently!!!!
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