PdoubleE Posted March 18, 2006 Posted March 18, 2006 Ok here we go... i have known this girl for just about my whole life. We both grew up in a Very small town in ny. I am about 4 1/2 years older than her. I remember when i was about 14 i saw her and somthing told me i was gona be with her later on in life... So later in life about 4 years later... she was still only 14 or 15.. but she really liked me... and wanted to have sex with me....I wouldnt do it cause i respected her..She was a young girl...But i was very interested in her as a person....so we were really good friends and she started dating somone and i ended going cross the USA. When i came back she was still with this guy...And then we started dating..she was 16 at the time. Her mother abused her..mentaly and physically.. never met her father(was mothers crack dealer). She was put in foster care because she refused to stop having contact with me. So i felt horrible about this.. Like its my fault. We continued to have a long tearm relationship the whole time she was in foster care..about a year.. during the end of foster care she was on lockdown and couldnt take it so she called me after not talking for a few weeks. she wanted to run away with me..and i picked her up. The day after she was like (we are not dating) cause i tried to cuddle with her. After about a month of that i couldnt take it anymore and she went with her mom. After a few more weeks of not seeing or hearing from her she called me and asked me if i wanted to hang out. I went to her house and she broke down for almost the whole night saying how much she loved me and how sorry she was.. and she didnt know why she did it..al that good stuff. so everything was finaly good.. Excect she was a runaway from the state and the cops were all over my house looking for her. So ..At 22 years old( she was 17) i took her to arizona so we could live without fearing her getting picked up.Everything was Great..I had a job.. Our own place. after being down there for 9 months 2 of my best friends came down from ny and the first night they were their one of them died in my living room. This made her totaly flip she didnt want anything to do with me all that good stuff. We both decieded to go home to ny.. after my friends funeral we got back together cause we both missed each other. Now after getting back from AZ we have lived together for almost another year. she is going to college i had a job. When the winter came i didnt have any work and started getting depressed but i still took care of her Every need because when she was happy i was happy. One night after she went out with her friends she just left...talked to her after the weekend and she said she just woke up and didnt want to be with me...got some of her stuff. Now she has all new friends (people she dosent even know) im not racist..But they are all Black guys from the city(ghetto) and she hates players (at least this is What she has preached for the whole time i have known her. The love i have is unconditional... I can for give her for anything. She makes me happy. I sit home alone at night and Cannot think of anybody on this planet that could make me feel better than her . I feel trapd. i keep thinking shes gona come back... but at the same time i dunno. Her friends tell me that they know she loves me and everything will be ok but ijust dont know I feel just like i did when i lost my best friend.. Help please.... I am Broken
Author PdoubleE Posted March 19, 2006 Author Posted March 19, 2006 I need support .. I need to know what i should do....Should i call her... Should i take her back if she come in my life... It hurts so much without her,,Just her being in my life made me happy... Now i feel traped... She wont calll me.. and when i called her after 2 weeks of not talking she was like i dont miss you .. i havent been thinking of you. Uhhh i so f*ing confused
kitten chick Posted March 19, 2006 Posted March 19, 2006 That was quite a story, very sad. I'm sorry for everything that you've been through. I can't say that I have any clue what she's going through but I think this girl needs a lot more help than you can give her. She sounds extremely confused and I doubt that she hasn't been thinking about you. My advice to you is to let her go and she may or may not come back to you.
Author PdoubleE Posted March 20, 2006 Author Posted March 20, 2006 I really feel sorry for her.. Because of what she has been through..But this isnt the reason i love the girl..And even know she has done Alot of f***ed up things to me... I still love her with all my heart..Unconditionaly and For Eternity. I dont have a problem with Forgiving people.. Like some peeps i know...How could somone let 3 years of their life be wasted? We have never been in a big fight...Never enev thought of hitting her. She is a gift from god and thats how i have always treated her.I still have alot of her stuff..Packed it all up tonight. Tomarrow when she is home...Should i call her just to let her know that i am moving on and she Has to get her stuff??? should i wait untill she calls me...... I really dont know what to do. Help me please.......
kitten chick Posted March 20, 2006 Posted March 20, 2006 I wish I knew how to help you but I don't know what to say. Hopefully someone else will respond with some good advice.
Author PdoubleE Posted March 20, 2006 Author Posted March 20, 2006 Thank you This means the world to me.
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