blupassiongirl Posted March 16, 2006 Posted March 16, 2006 I'm not really sure what to do I was with my bf who is now my ex for 4 yrs and had gotten myself involved with a married who I also work with I've always been against cheatin let alone gettin involved with someone thats already involved yet i'm still tryin to figure out how i got myself into this mess. My bf suspected something was up because it was causing prob. for us at home we began driftin apart then he went off and found himself someone new along with another place to live I ended up losin everying my home and all. The MM is still with his wife he tells me he loves me and that I make him happy. We no doubt have chemistry and we can talk to each other about anything and everything regardless if its about home or whatever. He's always been there for me when I needed someone to talk to or just to comfort me. Our affair has been goin on for about 6 months now and I keep tryin to walk away but the feelings i have for him are sooo strong its just hard to do. The first few times I told him we needed to walk away he actually began crying and sayin that if thats what I wanted then he's gonna have to except it cuz he can't make my choices for me and he's not gonna force me to stay by him. I just know the guilt is killin me and i keep pushin him to make a choice cuz its not fair to his wife he says he's feelin the guilt to but when he's with or around me its like all his prob. fade away. We've already had a preg. scare and work is suspecting something going on with us which is puttin our jobs in jeopardy but he still doesn't walk away a part of me wants to think he's lookin for a way out yet another part of me says he wants his cake and eat it too. I'm just so confused not sure what to do a part of me wants to tell his wife and get it out in the open. He tells me he's confused and doesn't know what to do but yet he doesn't want me out of his life. I'm just tired of keepin this secret yet I'm havin a very hard time walkin away along with the guilt of feelin his wife has the right to know whats goin on. I know it was stupid of me gettin involved but i'm thinkin it was because I was in a vulnerable state unhappy at home and he filled that void of what i was missin. we both never thought we'd end up with strong feelings for each other but happened and now when i see him i can see he's very stressed out that he's been pusin me and his wife away.
whats wrong with me Posted March 16, 2006 Posted March 16, 2006 blupassiongirl...you are about to get slammed you should've posted somewhere else.....but I'm bumpin your thread anyway!
Bryanp Posted March 17, 2006 Posted March 17, 2006 A person who will cheat with you is a person who will cheat on you! This OM is no prize. This OM disrespects his wife and his marriage. This OM disrespected your relationship with your boyfriend and it ended up with you losing your boyfriend and your home. He is a player and he is playing you. If you want to be involved with an honorable person then you need to be an honorable person. Think about it. I wish you luck.
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