Delicaterose00 Posted March 16, 2006 Posted March 16, 2006 ( Ex and I broke up last May, he cheated, still with the girl, I have never seen her) I am still sadned by the experiance and lies. I never see him or talk to him, but he is freinds with a relative so Im always worrying about seeing him. Anyways, last night, I had a dream I saw him at his house, it was as if it was present day... he was with his girl, but I didnt get to see her, he was telling me how christina has seen me, and even durring the time he was cheating on me wiht her... Im soooooooooooooooo upset, I was crying this morning. I guess my love for him has not died, and that is bad..... if he was the same person he was when he left me, maybe it wouldnt hurt so bad, but now he is doing and acting they way I wanted him too when he was with me. He didnt like going to fancy restaurants or spending money on expensive things ( I never pushed it or excpected it, but he made sure I new of certain things) Now he is taking his new girl on trips, and fancy restaruants, and I guess jumping as high as she tells him. He said he didnt know if he wanted kids when he left me, and this chick had a kid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im so upset right now.... he said I put a tight leash on him, but I didnt! I only wanted a call once while he was and when he was on the way home because he drunk drove... but that was to much, this girl wont even let him go out.. and if he does, he has to call her on the hour! every hour! I mean I dont get it????? He left me for someone who is worse than I... Im pissed because he gets to find love before me..... someone make me feel better!!!!!!!!!!!!!! please!!!!
KittenMoon Posted March 16, 2006 Posted March 16, 2006 Aw, honey, that's a very sad story. But he cheated on you and when someone cheats it shows that they do not respect or love you. If they did, they wouldn't have cheated on you. As for the new girl, if she needs him to call every hour, that's screwed up. Sooner or later he'll realize that and do to her the same thing he did to you. But that's not YOUR problem. That's HIS. You gotta move on at this point. You'll never find love if you are pining away. Your love is like a glass: If there is a little bit of juice or milk left in it from the last person, then it's just been sitting out and getting moldy and nasty and no one will want to use it again until its been washed clean. Sorry for the bizarre analogy. Hope you feel better.
kitten chick Posted March 16, 2006 Posted March 16, 2006 He left me for someone who is worse than I... Im pissed because he gets to find love before me..... someone make me feel better!!!!!!!!!!!!!! please!!!! Blech He gets to find love before you but with a controlling wretched woman. Um, I wouldn't be too jealous of that if I were you. It might take you longer but I'm assuming you'll do a better job of picking out you're next boyfriend and you'll find someone better than him. When that happens you'll be laughing your socks off at him as he's stuck at home with someone else's kid because the little lady won't let him out of the house.
Author Delicaterose00 Posted March 16, 2006 Author Posted March 16, 2006 I know what you mean.... Its like, now she gets to worry like I used too and that made me miserable. But they have been together almost a year so maybe she dont think that anymore.. I dunno..... People can change, but god, why coudlnt he have been that with me?? In the beginning he was wonderful... at the end, we even looked at engagement rings, furniture, houses.... I know this sounds horrible, but sometimes I try to make myself feel better about this situation by thinking, either Im going to die one day and go to heaven and not care that this even happened, or Im going to die and there is no heaven so I wont remember this anyways.. but some days.. like this... nothing makes me feel better........ughhhhhhhh. After almost a year, I still think of him every day. Not all day long, but parts of the day...
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