Confused5433 Posted March 13, 2006 Posted March 13, 2006 Its over.....Finally...it's over...I feel so sad . I know this was the right decision, but I still feel sad. We both decided that it was best to move on with our lives and maybe be friends. How can you be friends with someone you love...it's too painful. I don't want to know who he is with, who he is loving now, no...I don't want to see or hear all of that. Specially when I know how happy he made me, how special our love was during the good times. He left, and didn't even give me hug or said goodbye. I gave him back his things...and he hurried to his car and left...Im crying right now, because it is finally the end or a very intense and complicated relationship. I miss him and it hasn't even been 5 minutes. I want to forget about him and never feel the way I feel for him right now. I just don't know if I'll ever love someone like this....and I don't want to find out now. Im officially heartbroken...I know he never deserved my love, he did terrible things, but sometimes your heart has a mind of their own. How is it that we end up loving the wrong people? I just need to vent and let everyone that read my post since October know, that I will be retiring from this forum until my next romance or until I heal. It's too painful, to come back here again. All of you have been like my best friends, and I've shared many things and you all have given me great advice. But now I want to forget....and leave everything behind. Feel free to leave some notes of encouragement, I will be reading those. Thank you all for sharing my love story and for your kind words!!!! I can't stop crying.....
KickstartMyHeart Posted March 13, 2006 Posted March 13, 2006 First I would like to say -hugs-, it sucks when you break up with someone and truly love them. Right now things are fresh and you are still hurting really bad and you are doubting whether you should have broke up with him or not. But it's for the best that you did, because the longer you stayed in the relationship the harder it was going to be. Personally when I broke up with my first serious boyfriend, I thought the world would not continue, I was like you and didn't want to know who he was seeing or anything like that. Now I see him in the bar and it's just like whatever, I am over him and now I have someone else too. Believe me, it sucks right now but you just have to bear with it and I promise it will get better!
sexyLMC Posted March 13, 2006 Posted March 13, 2006 aww hunny.. we all know it hurts so bad.. and i think that sometimes were meant to fall inlove with the wrong person, to realise and learn things.. if you wanted to be friends then umm wel most people say dont do it. but i really do think that its only yourself who can choice. i went down my ex's house last night and we've never got on so well ever... all the thoughts and feelings was there but so was we.. im so so so sorry your going through this but really babe, cry as much as you can, scream shout. eat sweets til u cant sit up.. the only way you'll forget about it is by letting it all out. maybe you should try writting a letter explaining all your feelings... cry while writting it if you have to.. then after you've done the letter just simple screw it up and throw it away. that works really well for some people.. hope you feel better soon.. x lisa x
Author Confused5433 Posted March 13, 2006 Author Posted March 13, 2006 Thank you both for your reply.... We communicated last night through txt messages after I wrote in this forum...and I can't believe the things he said....What an ANIMAL!!!! Even animals have more sensitivity than him. I thanked him for all the beautiful times we had together and wished him the best for his future...since he will soon become illegal. His response: "You would be used in the future, that I was controling and that I didn't deserve his love, everything was too easy and he wasted to much time with me" I did not even sex with him, I didn't give him anything or expected anything but his love and respect. I guess he really was after the papers...A@#%^& I think getting over him is going to be easier than I thought. When he gets mad, he become so cruel and says the most hurtful things. And to think I cried and wasted my tears for him. I did so much for this guy, and he didn't deserve any of it. I told him he would never hear from me again and that I hope God forgives him from all the pain he has caused me. Unbelievable, what a Jerk.....I had enough with guys, I swear the sweetest ones can turn out to be the biggest ASS*&^S. The only thing I feel bad about is his family, they really liked me and I respect them a lot too. I feel like stopping by and saying my goodbye and show my gratitude for their hospitality...but I don't know if that is a good move. What do you all think??? By the way, last night I threw away EVERYTHING he ever gave me, including old emails I saved and pics... to hell with him....I never want to see him again.
michelangelo Posted March 13, 2006 Posted March 13, 2006 Extricate your self from that whole dynamic. Move on, move on, move on. No contact whatsoever!
riobikini Posted March 13, 2006 Posted March 13, 2006 RE: Confused: " How can you be friends with someone you love...it's too painful." I agree. It is too painful to maintain a friendship for some. Until we're completely through the healing phases, we can't even bear to be in the same room with an ex, much less try to form a friendship with them. It's like trying to clean up after a terrible hurricane, when the hurricane isn't finished, yet. -Rio
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