horrible break up tonight,

[Guest]

first let me see..there is no change of reconciliation and i think thats for the best. i just got out of my first serious realtionship and actually he was like my first real boyfriend as well. we always argued and broke up twice but about 4 months ago i thought for sure we would be ok and get married...we broke up tongiht though..and this time for good after about 19 months.

 

its hard. but i had been thinking maybe it woulodnt work for along time anyways...and feeling different about him ..i couldnt go off and do anything with anyone if there was alcohol present cus he was a recovered alcholic and didnt liek that so i lost many frinds and that caused problems as well..espeically since i am only twenty and still sometimes wanting to do those tings..but i gave it all up for him and recently started wandering if this is what i wanted..but i was sad to think that maybe we 'd never really talk again. cus i lvoed him.

 

anyways tonight we got into a fight over something i felt he was being unreasobale about..like i said he was acting werid a few times thourghout the day and he got all mad and said i got on his nerves..so iw as like well if u want to let those comments ruing our entire night whatever. i finally told him how i really felt without worrying about him breaking up with me. i guess i was not worried about him breaking up with me cus i had been feeling different baout him. anyways, he broke upw ith me ..but the thing is we were cussing eacho ther out like crazy and saying really mean things ( which we had done very occasionally during the argumetns in our relationship).

 

so i said really mean things to him after he broke up with me. and he told me to quit yelling ven though he was so i yelled even louder and so he told me to get out of the car..in the middle of an empty parkin glot even htough i did not have a phone and i said no and he threatedned to call the cops and i said go ahead so i can at least use their phone so insteade he took me to a gas station and dumped me there..and i said mean things..but i feel like he desrved them cus he hurt me so bad and i felt so hateful towards him.

 

and that was that. he drove off and i dont think we will ever talk again. we went though so much together..and like last night was a good night and we wre all sweet and loving even though i was stil unsure aboyut us in the back of my head but stil it was a god night. and then tonight this happens. after all we have been though , we end up hating each other. and he dumps me off at a gas station to be gawked at and find someone to come and get me. awesome huh !? i'm scaerd and i am sad and i am confused

[whats wrong with me]

bumping your thread

[blind_otter]

There is never an excuse to say hateful things to another person....it always amps up a fight and can put you in a dangerous situation. I know, I've done it myself.