Author Apathetic Posted March 13, 2006 Author Posted March 13, 2006 Yeah I can see how it will destroy my self esteem,but I dont think its possible that it could be anymore destroyed than it already is.Ive always suffered from low self esteem.But I know there is nothing horribly wrong w/ me,I am just an introvert..but it still hurts nonetheless. I am not sure if I believe that he is looking for a worshipper,In fact I am not sure about anything right now..And yes there is hesitation & doubt,I know that there is something wrong w/ this picture but clearly I am not doing anything to stop it for God knows what reason...
kitten chick Posted March 13, 2006 Posted March 13, 2006 I really hope you will find the strength to make a clean break from this guy. The longer you stay with him the more of your soul he will destroy.
zarathustra Posted March 13, 2006 Posted March 13, 2006 If you don't think you are strong enough to resist him, then maybe you shouldn't see him. If you think you have low self esteem, how do you think you would feel if you did sleep with him?
lexilas Posted March 13, 2006 Posted March 13, 2006 Yeah I can see how it will destroy my self esteem,but I dont think its possible that it could be anymore destroyed than it already is.Ive always suffered from low self esteem.But I know there is nothing horribly wrong w/ me,I am just an introvert..but it still hurts nonetheless. I am not sure if I believe that he is looking for a worshipper,In fact I am not sure about anything right now..And yes there is hesitation & doubt,I know that there is something wrong w/ this picture but clearly I am not doing anything to stop it for God knows what reason... I have a question for you - do you think you could change? I mean if you are naturally a shy person would you be able to change into a loud, talkative person and be comfortable with it? Plus what if you do change and he finds something else about you that he doesn't quite like, what then? This could end up being a vicious circle of hoop jumping. I think you need to stand your ground and remain true to yourself. If you loose him in the process - he wasn't worthy and would have made you more unhappy in the long run. Sometimes loving someone isn't enough to make a lasting relationship. I hope you make the best decision, FOR YOU! Best wishes.
brittbritt Posted March 13, 2006 Posted March 13, 2006 To hell with him!! You shouldn have to change who you are for anyone. Be yourself and you will find someone who loves you for you!
zarathustra Posted March 13, 2006 Posted March 13, 2006 I don't think he is asking you to change but using it as a excuse for not being with you. Not a good or valid excuse.
Author Apathetic Posted March 13, 2006 Author Posted March 13, 2006 I have a question for you - do you think you could change? I mean if you are naturally a shy person would you be able to change into a loud, talkative person and be comfortable with it? Plus what if you do change and he finds something else about you that he doesn't quite like, what then? This could end up being a vicious circle of hoop jumping. I think you need to stand your ground and remain true to yourself. If you loose him in the process - he wasn't worthy and would have made you more unhappy in the long run. Sometimes loving someone isn't enough to make a lasting relationship. I hope you make the best decision, FOR YOU! Best wishes. No,I dont think I will ever change.I will never ever be that social butterfly even though I would love being like that. Zarathustra-I dont think he is using that as an excuse.I honestly think that my shyness is a big enough problem for him to not want to be w/ me.As for the sex part,I know if we sleep together it wont bring anything positive.I am just not sure what I am going to end up doing.
zarathustra Posted March 13, 2006 Posted March 13, 2006 Zarathustra-I dont think he is using that as an excuse.I honestly think that my shyness is a big enough problem for him to not want to be w/ me.As for the sex part,I know if we sleep together it wont bring anything positive.I am just not sure what I am going to end up doing. Your shyness is part of who you are. So he either likes you for who you are or he's the one with the problem. If you want to boost your self-esteem, do what is good for you. Control the situation and show him that you love yourself enough to not be with him.
Author Apathetic Posted March 14, 2006 Author Posted March 14, 2006 Im trying to take control of it..the only positive thing I have done so far was I didnt call him yesterday or IM him or let him see I was online,it was hard not to IM him & I am not even sure of why I am still keeping track of his online activities..So I go to bed early & pray that I eventually stop thinking about him so much & whamm,at 4 AM my cell goes off & its one of his routine text's saying "I see you cant keep in touch"!!..We last spoke only a day before yesterday! So obviously hes wondering what im doing if he texts me after only one day of not hearing from me.I didnt & havent responded to the text.. I have to admit that even though I am trying to do the NC thing,I am happy to see he least is wondering where I am & what im doing.Now im torn between should I call him today or go another day of NC & let him continue to wonder..
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