My_Other_I Posted March 7, 2006 Posted March 7, 2006 I broke NC. I'm tired. I'm tired of feeling down, I'm tired of thinking, dreaming, obsessing, living my past. I'm tired of trying to cope, of trying to accept, of trying to stay busy just so I don't have to think for a while. I'm tired of trying to move on. I'm tired of not enjoying life. I'm tired of thinking that I don't have a chance with love again. I'm tired of the games my mind is playing with me. I'm tired of sleeping all the time. I'm tired of feeling lonely among people. I'm tired of thinking. I'm just really tired of everything. How much longer? Living sucks right now. I'm ready for counceling. Does it work? How did it help you?
CaliGuy Posted March 8, 2006 Posted March 8, 2006 Yes, it works. But it's not an overnight fix. With anything in affiars of the heart, it takes time.
trone Posted March 8, 2006 Posted March 8, 2006 MOI, It did work for me in the past right after my break up with my ex. I had couple sessions then my counselor told me that I do not need her anymore unless I really feel down. I felt really bad during last couple days and today i decided to visit her again. I had my first session tonight and definetly, she put me back on the track for a while. I am sure I will have my ups and downs and I will need professional help for a while but it wont let me to feel the way I felt this morning. If you cant do it by yourself (I could not, it looks like you cant either), you should ask people who can help you
Author My_Other_I Posted March 8, 2006 Author Posted March 8, 2006 Thanks guys for your replies! I've come to conclusion that the way I feel about the break-up is a RESULT of and ongoing problem, not the problem. I've also come to a conclusion that at this point I need help. I've tried self-help and other things, thought it was working, just to find my self in a deeper hole. C'mon now, feeling like that for a year (with some bright moments) is not healthy, and it's only getting worse (except for I'm more numb then emotional) I'm in limbo and I don't see a way out without someone pointing it out. I have never been to counceling and I was always a person taking care of my own problems, but I will also try everything once (at least) So maybe it's time to let someone disect me into pieces and help me understand. I made an appointment today and joined a support group. I'm excited. I have hope of feeling better and offering something GOOD to others. I'm glad it worked for you! Thanks for reading my vent. MOI
RecordProducer Posted March 8, 2006 Posted March 8, 2006 Hang on, My_Other_I! We all felt like that at some point of our lives (my bad moments have lasted for years). Sun rises after rain!
blah1234 Posted March 8, 2006 Posted March 8, 2006 I feel the exact same way. No matter what I do, I can't stop thinking about her. Living in the past is the most horrible thing ever... I need to stop thinking about the things I could have done to prevent this current situation, but no matter what I do, I can't. Time travel has become my fantasy. Although I am now going no contact, it is so hard knowing that she is having a much easier time because she has a new boyfriend to distract her. I just sit in my room all night by myself because I don't really have any friends here. I'm so sick of trying to distract myself. Although, I wish I could sleep more because then I wouldn't have to deal with this. But nights are always the worst. I just pray to God that I can find the strength to either forget about her or win her back... but I still think about her every night. Such a long relationship which came to such an abrupt end because she "doesn't think I am the one." Whatever the hell that really means.
lexilas Posted March 8, 2006 Posted March 8, 2006 I'm tired. I'm tired of feeling down, I'm tired of thinking, dreaming, obsessing, living my past. I'm tired of trying to cope, of trying to accept, of trying to stay busy just so I don't have to think for a while. I'm tired of trying to move on. I'm tired of not enjoying life. I'm tired of thinking that I don't have a chance with love again. I'm tired of the games my mind is playing with me. I'm tired of sleeping all the time. I'm tired of feeling lonely among people. I'm tired of thinking. I'm just really tired of everything. I couldn't have said it better - I feel exactly the same way (only not for a year). I hope I come out of it soon - I feel like I'm wasting my life but can't help myself. I wish you luck with counseling. Keep us posted on how it goes.
skeptik224 Posted March 8, 2006 Posted March 8, 2006 Counseling does work but it takes time. Chances are - once you're in therapy - you'll discover a whole bunch of other issues that you'll need to work on. It's a fantastic start, and I totally recommend it.
Becoming Posted March 8, 2006 Posted March 8, 2006 Yeah, you're stuck and need some help with a counsellor. Great description! This could also describe depression. Have you consulted a dr. about that possibility?
Author My_Other_I Posted March 28, 2006 Author Posted March 28, 2006 Life has its own ways of working things out. Few days after I made an appt. I snapped out of it. It was all gone. I've been having fun, I've accepted, I've moved on, I've been happy. And I've never made it to the dr.'s office. I haven't been moody, I've met many new people, gone on dates, excelled at work, learned to love and cherish life and people again. I've become proud of myself and I've come to terms that I have no control over what's been happening. A true magic. Maybe what we need to do is to give in, let it pass?
BaySailor Posted March 28, 2006 Posted March 28, 2006 My Other One, I've been in counseling and it does help but it's not a silver bullet so go into counseling knowing this. also, don't be afraid to shop around. you need to feel absolutely comfortable and click with your counselor so if you don't after the first few sessions, look into seeing someone else -- this happens all the time and every good counselor understands this and won't take it personally. Your decision to see counseling is a courageous one and it will help you in time so Hang in there!
KittenMoon Posted March 28, 2006 Posted March 28, 2006 Life has its own ways of working things out. Few days after I made an appt. I snapped out of it. It was all gone. I've been having fun, I've accepted, I've moved on, I've been happy. And I've never made it to the dr.'s office. I haven't been moody, I've met many new people, gone on dates, excelled at work, learned to love and cherish life and people again. I've become proud of myself and I've come to terms that I have no control over what's been happening. A true magic. Maybe what we need to do is to give in, let it pass? I experienced the same thing! It's like this amazing break once you just fully give into all the pain- like breaking a fever. I was ready to go to therapy just over a week ago. Instead, I broke NC, told my ex some things I needed to get out, felt horrid for a couple more days, but since then things have been very much on the upturn. I'm still sad and think about him a lot, but I finally stopped crying and started eating again, etc. I think sometimes you just need to hit rock bottom so you have something to push off of and gain new momentum. Keep feeling better!
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