WeaknPowerless Posted March 6, 2006 Posted March 6, 2006 Went out for lunch with two buddies to a place I forgot a friend of the ex's worked...I actually have eaten there many times before, seems I always missed her shift. Anyways, these two don't even talk anymore, they just were classmates for awhile. She recognized me, asked how I was, blah blah blah...Then she came back and is like "How is Angie doing?" *Snap* There goes my brain...There goes my day. Ever take a baseball bat to the chest? Pretty much felt like that. Didn't even think I'd be that fazed by this crap anymore, but apparently I can be. All day the rosy glasses were back on, missing and wishing for her again. Feeling low about myself. Apparently my self esteem decides to take vacations now... Not that she really could have known, but this 3rd party just wrecked me...I even walked out and forgot to tip her... Blah!
Dinnj1 Posted March 6, 2006 Posted March 6, 2006 I suggest you go back and TIP the poor girl... just like you said... she had no idea. Who knows? Is she cute? You may look like a real gentleman bringing back a tip.... afterall... $2.15/hr doesn't cut it.
Author WeaknPowerless Posted March 6, 2006 Author Posted March 6, 2006 Yeah, I will...worked in a restaurant before. I know how it is. Today sucks too. Self pity is by far the most annoying and pathetic feeling. I'm tired of it.
Dinnj1 Posted March 6, 2006 Posted March 6, 2006 Ok, here's an eye opener and what SHOULD get you thinkin' the right way. Do you really believe your ex is sittin' around... day and night... wallowing in self pity... worrying about you? Do ya think she's somewhere in another thread here on LS looking for someone to tell her that there IS in fact hope for the two of you? Most likely NOT. Or else, she'd be calling you. Most likely she's worrying about herself... her life and going on with her life... Hey, I'm not saying don't have hope... cause hope is a good thing. But, no sense in wallowing in self pity... 2,3,5 days of it... is fine... but then it's time to get a move on.... whatever happens later, happens... it's outta your hands for now. ps... Worked in a restaurant before??? Go rent "Waiting" good for a laugh AND a lesson. I found out I could've played the part of Calvin... watch it and you'll understand.
Author WeaknPowerless Posted March 6, 2006 Author Posted March 6, 2006 I've had lots of better days. It's not day to day self pity, just yesterday and today. I know she isn't waiting for me. I'm aware of most everything. That's the tought part. My mind over my heart. I can't win every day to day battle. I just got to a point with her, that simply moving on quickly is not possible. I am healing, just slowly. She is an addiction of epic proportions.
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