Mydish1 Posted March 6, 2006 Posted March 6, 2006 it seems as tho this week of NC with her made me realize what i did that destroyed the relationship. at the early stages i was given the wrong impression saying she just wanted to be friends and had no intention of being exclusive. however at the middle stages we were like a couple (almost). the later stages (when she told me she had no intention to be exlucisve) i sort of slowly back away affection/intimacy, but not entirely. but when we part we would kiss each other on the cheeks...and sometimes she'd deny me of kisses in public. Down the road she brought up a eurotrip for 2 years later...and i didnt even give her a definitive answer. So it appears she saw some kind of future with me with that question... our last date, i was undecisive about which restaurant to go eat...since she said she already ate and all i looked at a couple and settled in one that had cheap prices. and she was telling me how picky i was... This leads to me realize all the little things i had and hadnt done...in the end were all tests. What boggles me is that now i know she was hoping our relationship would grow, but i kept a limit on it since she said she just wanted to be friends. i despise the fact that there was a large misunderstanding/miscommunication on my part because she wasnt even being clear with me. pppffft...and they say men dont know how to communicate...it seems women are worse. i dont even think we were on the same page. And the fact that she abruptly ended things with me really makes it unfair for me and i want resolution. the last thing i asked her was if i still had her friendship and trust? she says i have her friendship (but did not include the trust part). I dont know...i truly do want to salvage this and apologize (the whole time we were together i rarely apologized for anything...not that i did anything totally out of line) what i realize i've done and tell her i do enjoy spending time with her. i tried getting a talk going last time but no luck. the last thing i heard from her is this 'busy' & 'lots of things going on' crap i keep hearing. well..i just called her, but she was up to something and i told her to call me back when she had the chance. i dont know...would i be a fool for bringing this up only to be humiliated once again? what do you guys think?
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