Author Confused5433 Posted March 13, 2006 Author Posted March 13, 2006 Its over.....Finally...it's over...I feel so sad. I know this was the right decision, but I still feel sad. We both decided that it was best to move on with our lives and maybe be friends. How can you be friends with someone you love...it's too painful. I don't want to know who he is with, who he is loving now, no...I don't want to see or hear all of that. Specially when I know how happy he made me, how special our love was during the good times. He left, and didn't even give me hug or said goodbye. I gave him back his things...and he hurried to his car and left...Im crying right now, because it is finally the end or a very intense and complicated relationship. I miss him and it hasn't even been 5 minutes. I want to forget about him and never feel the way I feel for him right now. I just don't know if I'll ever love someone like this....and I don't want to find out now. Im officially heartbroken...I know he never deserved my love, he did terrible things, but sometimes your heart has a mind of their own. How is it that we end up loving the wrong people? I just need to vent and let everyone that read my story since October know, that I will be retiring from this forum until my next romance or until I heal. It's too painful, to come back here again. All of you have been like my best friends, and I've shared many things and you all have given me great advice. But now I want to forget....and leave everything behind. Feel free to leave some notes of encouragement, I will be reading those. Thank you all for sharing my love story and for your kind words!!!! I can't stop crying.....
Author Confused5433 Posted March 13, 2006 Author Posted March 13, 2006 We communicated last night through txt messages after I wrote in this forum...and I can't believe the things he said....What an ANIMAL!!!! Even animals have more sensitivity than him. I thanked him for all the beautiful times we had together and wished him the best for his future...since he will soon become illegal. His response: "You would be used in the future, that I was controling and that I didn't deserve his love, everything was too easy and he wasted to much time with me" I did not even sex with him, I didn't give him anything or expected anything but his love and respect. I guess he really was after the papers...A@#%^& I think getting over him is going to be easier than I thought. When he gets mad, he become so cruel and says the most hurtful things. And to think I cried and wasted my tears for him. I did so much for this guy, and he didn't deserve any of it. I told him he would never hear from me again and that I hope God forgives him from all the pain he has caused me. Unbelievable, what a Jerk.....I had enough with guys, I swear the sweetest ones can turn out to be the biggest ASS*&^S. The only thing I feel bad about is his family, they really liked me and I respect them a lot too. I feel like stopping by and saying my goodbye and show my gratitude for their hospitality...but I don't know if that is a good move. What do you all think??? By the way, last night I threw away EVERYTHING he ever gave me, including old emails I saved and pics... to hell with him....I never want to see him again.
tikigods Posted March 13, 2006 Posted March 13, 2006 my suggestion would be to ignore any communcations he has with you and move on goodjob in ending it and throwing everything away
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