strongwillpwr Posted March 4, 2006 Posted March 4, 2006 I wrote this a month ago: "-i don't think i'm ready to date yet because i think i'd still get a little off kilter if I ran into her with the guy she cheated on me with, or if i ran into just him, or if I ran into her and it was more than a simple "hi-bye" conversation." Here's the thread: http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t81250/ Well, I saw her today for the first time in 6 months. It's been *zero* contact since we ended it last september. (No contact on her bday, or xmas, or NY, or vday, or my bday)... I joined up with some friends of mine downtown tonight for drinks and food...from the moment I agreed to meet them I had this weird feeling I'd run into her...I don't know why...I got this feeling only one other time a few months ago, and I ended up running into her cousin that night. I have to drive half an hour east and south to catch the top of the subway line...she would have caught the subway from school which is a half hour south of the top of the line...The top of the subway line is where she would get off (close to her house) and the most convenient for me to get on...a few million ppl ride the subway per day...i also left work at an unusual time... As I walked into the subway, and down to the waiting area, I continued to have this weird feeling...As the train rushed by, I looked into every car...and saw someone who had hair similar to her's...i couldn't believe it...so i kinda stood outside the car for a few extra seconds while everyone got off...and my instincts were correct, it was her...with the guy she cheated on me with 10 months ago... I sat in the subway car...as i watched them walk up the stairs, it was like I was seeing myself 3 years ago with her...i had all of these mixed feelings come rushing back...i was definitely off kilter...a little sad thinking about our past... I guess I hoped that they wouldn't amount to anything, that it was just a rebound, and she would realize what she had given up...but I guess I was wrong...the fact that he was accompanying her home (she lives with her parents still) meant that he's fully integrated into her life...i felt a little discarded i guess...i felt like this guy has so easily just completely replaced me. although i got a little off kilter, i did realize something...i have no feelings for her anymore...no desire to get back together, or hold her, or talk to her...none...I was sad thinking about our past, but not sad thinking about the present. that time in my life is over...i think i needed this very last bit of closure...she's moved on, and now so can I.
UT_longhorn Posted March 4, 2006 Posted March 4, 2006 wow. that was a great post. one day i hope to be where you are. its so odd how we are all characters of this silly play.
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