Guest Posted February 27, 2006 Posted February 27, 2006 This will be a long one folx. I feel like im going against the grain in all walks of life. I: Live with in laws and hubby in ther very big dark cold home. Im a contract worker and work away in another town. where i commute by train. Stay with a friend during the week, whom a adore and her house is warm, and she likes that i stay with her. No one is happy i work in another town; but i cant find work in this town or anything close at the moment. I dont like living with family and being newly weds. Im having the hardest time passing a driving here jus cus i have test anxiety. i driven back in the states for years no problem. even tho i took the test at home 4x.=/..My father in law is a retired shrink and the best can do is tell me i need to pass otherwise ppl will laugh at me. When i am actually looking for workIn laws think i dont do enuff at home when i am here. i clean the bathroom, do laundry, cook, dishes and they want me to be more domestic, but thats just not me. And my hubby knows that; it was discussed when we married. Im career oriented. I didnt put myself through a private university to stay at home in some hick town to entertain my in laws because they get bored. . at the end of the day feel so low. i think iv let everyone down as a wife, daughter in law. My hubby doesnt want to moveout yet cus we dont pay as much rent here as we wud elsewhere and we want to buy a home. he says its more cost effective, we will save more and its a matter of 2 years; which makes sense. but feel like im loosing my grip on reality and the outside world when i stay in this house for longer than a few hours. i dont know how to cope im new here and dont have many friends.
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