In Sync Posted February 26, 2006 Posted February 26, 2006 I was looking through some of my old journals as lately I haven been feeling sad and remorseful about the loss of the relationship...but what struck me in my journals were entries about the dynamics of my relationship with the X. I was clearly feeling frustrated and ignoring the red flags because I wanted to keep it going..but I was not happy. And yet, when things went well between us, my mood was elated so I equated that with love. Jump to 2 years later when it finally ended and I've been recovering from it since..I wonder now, was I just addicted to this relationship, maybe it wasn't love?..as I was always struggling to get "something" a sign from him. Had I convinced myself I was in love as oppose to saying "I'm in Addiction" to him. It felt like it was love, but now I'm not even sure anymore....just need to vent. thanks for any insight.
alphamale Posted February 26, 2006 Posted February 26, 2006 ..I wonder now, was I just addicted to this relationship, maybe it wasn't love?..as I was always struggling to get "something" a sign from him. Had I convinced myself I was in love as oppose to saying "I'm in Addiction" to him. It felt like it was love, but now I'm not even sure anymore....just need to vent. thanks for any insight. there is no difference between "love" and "addiction"....its the same thing. A heroin junkie is addicted cause they love the feelings and emotions brought out by the drug. In the same vein, a person falls in love with someone because they become additcted to their own emotions that are brought out by the person they're involved with. In essence, we are all addicted to our own emotions which are caused by our environment and then transmitted by neuro-chemicals in our brains.
bendit Posted February 26, 2006 Posted February 26, 2006 Google "intermittent reinforcement NPD". You will get your answer. It is the worst kind of emotional abuse you can have done to you and that's what they do. regards
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