coasting Posted February 21, 2006 Posted February 21, 2006 I don't understand why my emotions can not stay on one side or the other. It seems to be after three months of him being gone, it is harder then when he left. One day I am doing so well and then the next I am a basket case. I really don't know how much more of this I can take....Tonight I am missing him so much...I can't stop the tears....I just want to go to sleep but the tears and pain are not allowing me to do so. There is no special ryme or reason to this day so I can't figure it out...Why is it effecting me so much tonight. Tonight I am wishing so much that he comes back. I keep telling myself he is not worth all of this, and I keep repeating over and over again the entire scenerio of the split up, and I keep thinking of where he is, and wondering how long that relationship will fall apart. Which I am sure it will, as he went from one bed into someone's else's bed in a matter of hours, obviously because he was so desperate, I need to keep telling myself that one desperate person feeds off of another desperate person, and realize I am the winner in this game! I just wish I could get off of this emotional roller coaster that I am on!
Curmudgeon Posted February 21, 2006 Posted February 21, 2006 Have you ever looked into codependency? That's usually the scenario when two desperate people come together and can be rife with disaster. At this stage try looking ahead to what can be now that you're free of him rather than what was or wasn't. You can't change the past but you can influence your future if you choose to.
UT_longhorn Posted February 21, 2006 Posted February 21, 2006 whisnimz... i know how tough the nights can be. i know how the tears flow like a never ending stream. the heartache that you can physically feel. tomorrow is a new day. live tomorrow like its a new life. don't think about the day prior..or the day ahead. life tomorrow like you've been given a new life. what will you do with it? you have a brand new morning. smile.
riobikini Posted February 21, 2006 Posted February 21, 2006 Dear Whiznimz, RE: "My emotions are like being on a rollercoaster!" I know, I know. Nearly all of us visiting here have experienced that to some degree. Please read the links given within the link below, -I hope they help -I truly do. Keep posting, -it helps to have a sounding board throughout all this. And, I know you don't believe it right now, but it does get better. Take Care. Hugs. -Rio http://www.loveshack.org/forums/showthread.php?p=716273#post716273
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