ahotmess Posted February 20, 2006 Posted February 20, 2006 It's been well over a month since I last visited. MM and I haven't remained in complete NC. There is an occasional "I miss you" or whatever. But it has been about two months since I've actually seen him. I cannot express how much this situation sucks. Then again what did I ever expect? I can look over my journal and when this whole thing began I said "This is the guy that is going to break my heart". I just never knew how much it would hurt. I took some much needed time off from work...a 4 week leave to get away from him. Visited with my friends and parents back home. I am in much better shape, emotionally, than I have been in a long time. Over the past couple of days I've cought myself thinking of him more and more. Even shedding tears a time or two. But all in all I know that I am healing. I do know that if opportunity arose I would see him. And I hope that oneday that part of me dies. I just wanted to let the OW out there who are newly in NC or trying to make a decision as to continue or not, that time and distance are incredible healers. Let yourself be sad, but realize that you have to move on. And above else.....live one day at a time. This forum has been immensely helpful. Here is to Hope, the hope that we will all find someone who loves us for who we are. And beyond that....let him be single:)
cal gal Posted February 20, 2006 Posted February 20, 2006 Oh my gosh - my heart is so heavy for you right now, and no I have never been the OW. I am sure that you have no other way right now except to be sad. The NC is probably a good idea but you also need to distract yourself from the daily things that will remind you of your gatherings. You are doing the morally correct thing by using distance as your friend. Be strong, I know it must hurt and is hard for you. XO
Author ahotmess Posted February 20, 2006 Author Posted February 20, 2006 thanks.....its definately not easy yet.....but much, much better than in my last posts!!!
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