LawGirl Posted February 19, 2006 Posted February 19, 2006 Over last few weeks I have been sad and morose. I was going through the why me, what did I do wrong, what could I have done better phase. However, in the last few days I have switched to being pi$$ed off. I have been angry and somewhat bitter. I have even thought "I hate him". And so, in my less than rational mind I thought I deserve an explanation, I deserve a proper ending. So I decided to call him. But I didn't want to call him from my home. I certainly wasn't going to call him from my new cell phone number, or work. He might recognize the the numbers (other than the new cell #) and not pick up. So last night I was at a restaurant and as my friends and I walked in, there I saw a pay phone. We sat down and off I went in search of change. I dialed his number. It rang twice - he picked up. And I immediately hung up. I panicked. I sat back down and stewed some more. Then I decided not to be such a coward - I would try again. I put the change in, it fell through. It did that about six times. Did I see it as a sign - no! I got some different change and tried again. This time, it rang into Voice Mail. I did not leave a message. I sat back down and had an amazing time with my friends - lots of laughter. When I told them what I had been attempting to do they were sorta upset with me. Said they would have slapped my hands if they knew what I was trying to do. Oh well. Now the feeling has passed. I am not so angry anymore. Reread the smaller version of the book "He's Not That Into You". I think there are at least 10 pages solely dedicated to the ex. I should post them on my mirror so that I have to see them everyday. Sigh. I still think of him way too much.
jerbear Posted February 19, 2006 Posted February 19, 2006 6 times is stalking!!! I'm surprised he didn't call the number back. Good you are feeling better and that your friends would have slapped your hands. Putting the 10 pages on your mirror is a first step, keeping NC when you are the dumpee is required. If you are the dumper then keeping NC is in your best interest. Good job of keeping funny and laughing with your friends.
Guest Posted February 19, 2006 Posted February 19, 2006 6 times is stalking!!! I'm surprised he didn't call the number back. Good you are feeling better and that your friends would have slapped your hands. Putting the 10 pages on your mirror is a first step, keeping NC when you are the dumpee is required. If you are the dumper then keeping NC is in your best interest. Good job of keeping funny and laughing with your friends. I did not call six times darlin..... the change fell through six times. Down to the money return. In otherwords - I wasn't able to call. I should have have seen that as a sign from above Only called twice. About two times too many...
Author LawGirl Posted February 19, 2006 Author Posted February 19, 2006 6 times is stalking!!! I'm surprised he didn't call the number back. Good you are feeling better and that your friends would have slapped your hands. Putting the 10 pages on your mirror is a first step, keeping NC when you are the dumpee is required. If you are the dumper then keeping NC is in your best interest. Good job of keeping funny and laughing with your friends. I didn't call him the 6 times. The change fell through six times - the money returned, it wouldn't get the dial tone. The phone/or someone was trying to tell me something. It wouldn't work..... I did phone - twice - two times too many.
jerbear Posted February 19, 2006 Posted February 19, 2006 I didn't call him the 6 times. The change fell through six times - the money returned, it wouldn't get the dial tone. The phone/or someone was trying to tell me something. It wouldn't work..... I did phone - twice - two times too many. Sorry about the 6 times being the change falling thru. Two times to many, I agree.
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