Stealth2k Posted February 18, 2006 Posted February 18, 2006 "She" is actually suzan Kevin is a friend and Sam is my best friend and suzan is my best friends sister. Everyone i asked has no clue to do. It sux so much because its been happening since september. I miss out on all the trips now like 5 trips now cuz of her. Its gotten to a point where i can't take it anymore. Sadest day ever All my friends were invited to go to six-flags. I was by my best friend but then no one showed up. Everyone left without me. All because of one person and i have been saving up since last week working overtime till early in the mornings. My bestfriend told me about it last monday at school while were eatting. Then said everyone was going this saturday. I always wanted to take everyone to a themepark to have some fun. I planned 5 occassions going to six-flags, universal studios, and some other places but everyone bailed. My friend sam said when i make plans everyone goes and no one gets left behind. Everyones having fun right now while i am stuck bored at home with nothing to do. Most of all because one person doesn't like being around me and it ruins my life and friendships with all my friends. I didn't even do anything mean to her either. I said sorry to her so many times and i meant it and things are still going bad like always. She lies to me saying everythings fine when its not and then this happens. I would never do this to any of my friends, i would have just poseponed plans if one couldn't make it. Everyone kept this a secret except sam cuz hes true blue and everyone else just hides everything. I this girl was acting normal to me but she wasn't acting herself after i found out she called me a fag behind me i found out and it hurt, I would never call anyone names behind their back even if it was a person i hated. I feel so left out because this has been happening since last september. I don't understand why shes acting like this, why shes doing this, and why its like this. I always acted myself(laughing saying lol, talking, playing games, being happy) but when stuff like this happens i get sad. She never tells me why she acts like this, my friend says it cuz she hates me but i never done anything mean to her. I always told her sorry and all that because i never wanted to lose someone. I told her merry valentines like all my other friends and it seemed all good but then i found out later it was a completely different person i was talking to. This has happened just about 3 times already and i wasn't invited because she hated me for a reason i don't know. I treated her like all my other friends but i guess she didn't do the same for me. I thought there was a saying that said treat others the way you wanted to be treated. This has been bothering me everytime it happened and i never got a reasonable explanation for it at all. I've always wanted to know why but she never wanted to tell me why on all those questions i asked her. One of my other friends was invited but didn't feel like going. I knew this was going to happen again but i never understood why it has to happen. I don't get her at all, she never tells me whats wrong or anything but just does this and hurts my feelings everytime. Yea i would have found out sooner or later. My other friend Cevin does nothing to help and everyone just gives me just hates me answer but theres more to it than just that. She said [16:04] unknown: i dont see a problem but in reality there was a big problem still but she just didn't want to talk about it. She knows i wanted to go, she could have said she would have felt uncomfortable or something around me and i would have stayyed. I don't understand at all. Secrets hurt so much more than just telling me whats going on. I would have just forgot about if i were told. She says she doesn't want to be a friend, i don't understand why when she was one before in august. I don't see her point of doing all this to me unless she wanted to hurt me. I don't understand it at all, she avoids me, she rarelly talks if at all, she is super serious talking with me, and she doesn't act herself anymore towards me. It makes me wonder why shes doing all this. Never looks me straight in the eyes for some reason. I told her i wouldn't get get sucked in again. I don't understand why she does this stuff to me if she hated me and talked to me still. I was always the being called names and being treated differently and sometimes like crap. It bothers so much right now cuz its impacting my life. When she avoids me and does all that i just act myself and laugh with my friend sam and all that but she just avoids me like if i am an enemy or a threat. I never got answers even when i asked her straight forward what was wrong and she said nothing was wrong. I always acted nice cuz thats the way i am and when i acted mean its because i got hurt but i don't ever act mean to a girl. Thats just something i can't do unless she physically did something to me. My friends think i am making a big deal out of this but they don't understand this has been happening since last september and they haven't had problems like this and its not happening to them. I don't understand this at all, i ask atleast everyone i knew to 100 people what was goign on and why it was happening and everyone had no clue what was going on. I always listened to her and what she had to say but she always thought i never listened but i did. Sometimes i missunderstood her and she didn't know that and things went downhill but i thought they were fixed but they weren't i feel now. Everyones having fun right now on coasters, my fav theme park while i am at home all day. Haven't been to one since last august and everyone else been to themeparks together every other month. I feel missed out and sad because she lied to me from the looks of it and everyone ditched me. I never did anything mean or anything to get treated like this. I don't understand why it happened. Sam told me everything gonna be fun and everything on saturday to. Secrets can't hide when u have friends. Its obvious she doesn't care about my feelings or anything how i feel. I don't understand her. She acts all nice then the next she does this. Sometimes i said sorry for stuff i didn't even knew i did. I took blames and blamed myself and said sorry a lot of times. I just wanted to be happy and have everyone happy but it always comes out like this. =(..............................................*_T............................T_T......... Hurts more than i could imagine because its affecting me and theres nothing i can do about it Heres my log of her chatting with me for some days. -Stealth-[c8d4d626]/sakura06.txt"]The conversations HELP ME PLEASE!!!
Author Stealth2k Posted February 20, 2006 Author Posted February 20, 2006 I wrote her a letter explaining my feelings to her and she told me at the end of the conversation that she liked me to. Well you get the picture heh.
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