witabix Posted February 16, 2006 Posted February 16, 2006 I have been feeling a little down the last few days. Everything is going fine really. I have no worries or problems, except......... Except i don't know.... My relationship has really seemed to move on, to a different place. Its great, I am really happy. Does a high have to be followed by a low? There is still one unresolved issue in my mnd. I think it may have been dealt with. But I am unsure. I cannot ask any futher questions. Its been dealt with in a few threads here, a little. I am worried that I am becoming in some way delusionally paranoid. I wish it would stop. Its not jealousy, its something else. I cannot seem to get my head around it. We talked about it, and I said it will take time to reassure me. We are giving it time. Nothing has happened to generate any fears. Nothing real. His name has come up a few times, only a few, nothing out of the ordinary. when it does my heart jumps, and I get a feeling that is wholly innappropriate outside of a boxing ring, adrenaline surge etc. I am still dreading the next time she says ****** has contacted me and wants me to go with him to ***** *******. It may not even happen. I know that. It comes into my head at the most unexpected times. I am not happy with my thought processes on this subject. This is more of a rant, pouring out than anything else, so relax. I like to use LS as a kind of journal at times. I know I will look back through this stuff if I need to.
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