leilab Posted February 13, 2006 Posted February 13, 2006 It's been a really long time since I posted..........and then it was in the MM/OW column. Nearly 2 years ago, I was married and seeing a MM. It was the same situation as described here over and over again. Totally in love with MM, man of my dreams, soul mate,,,,,blah,blah, blah......... Yes, he did not leave his wife. The difference my friends is that men and women are different. Men will go back to their wives because they DO like the status quo; women will not. Once a women has given their heart & soul to another man, they cannot go back. My situation ended in my own divorce, despite the MM not leaving his wife. My pain has been like a bad wound that will not heal. Two years............the answer to the question many women ask. When will the pain go away????? FINALLY.........after meeting many, many other guys, I actually meet someone I am interested in. I am totally shocked about it myself. We have gone out once or twice since January and this weekend I found myself realizing that for the first time since my MM I actually have feelings for another man again. And it felt really good. We went out on Saturday night and had a really good time, ended up at my place. He had asked me to go skiing next weekend with him and in preparation I wanted him to spend the night......He has been single for a long time and really hard time going to sleep. He ended up leaving around 2:00 a.m. Next morning he calls and we have a fairly disjointed conversation. He is questioning whether I am going skiing and then ends up talking about relationship issues and how he is not sure that he want to take on my two kids. A whole bunch of issues come up in the conversation. Later when we talk, he tells me that he thinks I am emotionally ahead of him........and that he is afraid we are going to go down a road where we both like each other too much and encounter an obstacle we cannot overcome (my kids!!)...... When I ask him on to make a choice: 1) we see each other 2) we do not, and I leave. Darn, he picks the latter option, telling me "in the both of our best interest, we should call it off now".................WOW!!!! I left. That is what I said I would do. Boy, am I feeling crappy about the whole thing. I was in the process of finally enjoying another guy, and actually have feelings, and I get dumped. Do I dare say it??? I think I was actually falling for this guy. Should I be happy that I am finally over MM??? Or should I give in to being totally bummed over my new loss??? HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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