Sills2001 Posted February 13, 2006 Posted February 13, 2006 Gonna be a long story but I appreciate you guys reading it and any advice you may have ahead of time. I was dating this girl for a year and a half we moved kinda fast at the start. I met her on the internet but she lived quite close to me. I met her shortly after we talked online and we hit it off from the start. I eventually moved in with her and her daughter like 2 weeks after we met. I took her daughter on as my own basically from 8 months on. We got an apartment about 6 months into it and things were great. I was daddy to that and still am. but after a few months of living in the apartment things went downhill physically and shortly after we the argueing and fighting began. On her daughters birthday I was informed by her best friends girlfriend that she had been talking to a guy online and planned on meeting him one night, which she told me she was going dancing and me trusting her completely I was gonna let her go. But her friend told her boyfriend what she was up to so he refused to let her best friend go out with her so she had to stay home which I felt bad for her cuz I wanted her to go have fun. When I found out from him what had happened I was pretty crushed, with all the fighting that was going on I wanted to leave her. I felt to commited to her little girl like it was my job to give her a shot at life since I was now daddy to her. So I stayed and tried to work it out. Well like 6 months later nothing had really gotten any better, still argueing and sex was declined alot mainly on my behalf because I was bored with it... which I still havent figured out what happened there. Well then I lost my job and we werent gonna be able to pay the bills so I talked to the people we rented from and they let us outta the lease. So I moved her back with her parents and I moved back home with mine. In which I told her we could both get back on our feet and get our finances caught up and work it out from there, but I told her she could date other guys because I loved her but for some reason was not in love with her at the time. So when I moved home I still went and got her daughter to come stay the weekend with me from time to time. After about 3 weeks I called one night and she had a guy over. Well I got extremely jealous I was supposed to go up the next day and spend time with her so instead I gave her the excuse that I was just gonna come over that night (to make that guy leave). She still wanted to be with me so she was more than willing. After that I started going up and seeing her regularly, we stopped fighting and things got alot better both physically and mentally. I started to fall for her again. Then 2 weeks ago I stopped by on my lunch from work to drop some fries off to her daughter and see her new haircut. Well she had that same guy over in her bed watching a movie, I completely lost it. I left work early and went back and went off on both of them. I took her for a ride to try to work things out which I thought we did. 8 days later I stayed the night with her, and took her shopping the next day. That night I went to work and she called to tell me she was going out with her friends. Well at this point I really didnt have alot of trust for her so I told her I didnt want her going out since I didnt know where she was gonna be or who she was with. She went anyway but I called and told her to be home by the time I got off work. After work I went over to her house and she was waiting for me. She said that she was sorry for everything she had done to me, but that she couldnt be with me anymore because she wanted to be able to go out and try new things. So she broke up with me. This crushed me I put everything into this girl and her little girl which I was now daddy to for the past year and half. The next night I called her when I got off work. Telling her how much she meant to me and how I needed her in my life. She apologized once again but said she wanted to date other people for a while. I asked if she had someone in mind and she told me it was the guy that I caught her watchin a movie with not 2 weeks ago. Now she just wants to be friends but asks if I would take her back in like 4 months if she decided to come back. I told her I couldnt handle bein just friends with her because I loved her to much and couldnt stand to see her with someone else. But yet I cant stop talking to her or thinking about her. So these past few weeks I have had alot of pain which I cant describe or even barely handle without breaking down. I want her back more than anything so do I keep talking to her or let her be? I blame alot of it on myself because there were things I couldnt seem to give up to try to make our relationship work. I didnt realize this until after I had lost her. I didnt give her enough of my time mainly so I feel like I pushed her to someone else. What do you do? I love her and her daughter to death and I feel like I can give her what she needs. Do I wait for her? Keep trying to get her back? If so whats the best way to get her away from the new guy and make her realize that im what she needs? I'm quite confused any advice or comments is greatly appreciated.
Author Sills2001 Posted February 14, 2006 Author Posted February 14, 2006 Screwed up again. I called her this morning after sitting here writing this long ass story because I missed her so much... She said she missed me to, but she also told me the new guy she's seeing stayed all night last night and would be back soon after he went and pick up his daughter. That was not what I wanted to hear of course, but I guess I'm starting to realize she isnt comin back. So I'm gonna try the NC thing eventually not sure I can start right away but within the week I hope to. I need to move on because I went out with another chick this weekend and screwed it up to talkin about my ex.. She said you need to get over her before you start tryin to find someone else and told me not to call her anymore. Life just keep kickin you when your down, why cant it just let you stand up first?
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