sick of it Posted February 8, 2006 Posted February 8, 2006 Dont mind me, i feel like b*tching about something... in the past month ive heard about 5 engagements and 4 breakups of friends of mine. it really pisses me off whenever i think about it. these engagements are from relatively short relationships (6 months-2 years). i was with my gf for 5.5 yrs and wanted to marry her. she dumped me 8 months ago for someone else. the breakups that have happened have all reconciled. almost everyone i know has had a second chance. i never got one. im so pissed still that i was never given the chance. that i was thrown away like used TP. that 5.5 yrs means nothing apparently. that 4 yrs of ldr, all the effort, everything that we went through meant dick. i was stupid to ask a few months ago if she loved her new bf. she said she didnt want to answer. that makd/makes me so angry still. i know that its good that shes gone right? i should feel good that someone who cant give me what i need is gone from my life. but im still angry and yet all i want is for her to call and apologize. shes so over me and maybe doesnt think about me at all. i still think about her everyday. i dont talk to anyone the way i talked to her. i still get so angry about everything. i just want some compassion from her. just her. i want to stop caring. i hate the fact that she was able to do this to me. to move on. to be happy. very happy. to change everything about her and not care about me. all ive ever done was put her first and stupidly, i expected it back at some point. 8 months later and i still have waves of these emotions. i feel embarassed that im still where i am. she has a whole new life (i imagine) and im still alone. i havent tried for someone else because i dont want just someone else. she was able to connect to someone right away. i cant. and im angry about that.
skeptik224 Posted February 8, 2006 Posted February 8, 2006 I hear ya...I'm sick and tired of all of my friends that are in happy relationships. I'm jealous because I had once what they have now. Why is it that I ended up with an emotional nutbag who did nothing but play mindgames with me? Why is it that people cheat? A friend of mine has been married for 10 years and cheating on her husband with another married man! I don't get it. We are the ones that would be faithful. We are the ones who love with all we have. We are the ones that get screwed (not in the good way) in the end!
UT_longhorn Posted February 8, 2006 Posted February 8, 2006 i second both of your sentiments. its just so unfair at times. the lack of compassion hurts too. i just don't understand. i really don't. i don't wish any ill will on my ex...i honesly don't even know what i want except to get over this pain.
Author sick of it Posted February 8, 2006 Author Posted February 8, 2006 i also just want the pain to go. i want to be ale to talk to her about this at some point. i want her to be single. not so i can get her...but for some reasosn i feel like i would be comforted by it.
wendel1 Posted February 8, 2006 Posted February 8, 2006 I feel exactly the same as you...although its just 5 months for me...she has removed me from MSN, no emails etc...no calls, I am completely out of her life. It does hurt but I think now that at least I had her for the time we were together...(1 yr) My ex has a new b/f now (well...she did last time I heard...which was 5 months ago). And I feel better strangely with the thought that I experienced a realtionship with her.a sort of I've been there and done that.. ...Also who knows what the future holds...perhaps sometime down the line we will meet up again...could be 6 months or a few years...and by that time I will have moved on..
brooke7777 Posted February 9, 2006 Posted February 9, 2006 I can totally relate. Happy relationships seem to be all around me. I have one single friend at the moment. And all of this Valentine's day crap is driving me into more insanity. As far as I know, my ex is not with anyone else, but he seems to be handling things a lot better than me. Sure he admits that he is still upset and thinks about me a lot and constantly gives me mixed signals, but he seems to have been able to pull himself together. I'm still oh so sad and plagued by lonliness. Next week is definiely gonna be a bummer of a week...at least until Wednesday.
fooled Posted February 9, 2006 Posted February 9, 2006 I know what you mean when you say you want to talk to her and only her. I go through that every day. Don't really miss the sex. Just miss talking to her because - as you did with your ex - I spoke with her like I did with no other.
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