smile Posted February 6, 2006 Posted February 6, 2006 Ok so some of you have read that I was seeing a guy who wanted to "take it slow and just be friends". Sort of back tracking. And since it had been 5 yrs since his last relationship I was alright. It's been a month, and really nothing has changed. He still comes over and spends the night and we still have sex. It's still the pretending like we are just going to sleep and then we just lay there, so full of tension.Then, we just pounce on eachother. And while that passion is nice... I miss the other stuff. Before when I didn't have to worry if I could mention what we just did or if it made him feel guilty.This going backwards is so confusing that it is starting to feel like rejection. So I have been cool about everything and casually inviting him places. Suddenly he called me every day last week and I have hung out with his friends and he has met my family.We have spent time out of my room and in public, where he is cuddly and touchy. He called me to visit him at work and then called the other day to see how my day at work was. He asked me if I didn't agree with the friend thing.. he asked me that this week. And I said not at first but I like getting used to not needing someone.. so true. But was that my chance for him to change his mind? This weekend I said I was busy and it was really full. And I did say that I wouldnt complain that I didnt get to see him bc I know his friends all miss him cause he has 2 jobs and has been spending tons of time with me. But I haven't heard from him all weekend and now I just feel like I don't even want to bother with this feeling. In July I ended a roller coaster of a 4 yr relationship and the last few months were undefined and confusing. Am I really feeling like I am ready to move on from this new guy or am I just too scared to care enough bc I am worried about how much it will hurt. I know I dont want to feel serious about him, but I can already tell I feel more than I expected to.
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